ALWAYS THE LUNA

Chapter2

ADA

My hand is shaking, and I feel like I can’t breathe properly. How did we get here? I know that things have not been that good in the past two weeks, but I didn’t expect this. Not now. Not when everything is about to change for good.

“This….. how can.” I gulp down a large lump of saliva that has filled my mouth. My whole body is shaking, and I can’t form a coherent word.

“Why….” I mutter with trembling lips.

“Sarah is back.” He scoffs. “Why am I even saying it? I’m sure you already know.”

I know? How will I know that his lover, who left five years ago after our marriage, is back? I’m finding it hard to breathe, and my whole body won’t just stop shaking.

“Sign the papers, Ada.” His voice is cold.

A stray tear falls down my cheeks. What went wrong? Everything was good. Yes, these past two weeks he had been acting strange, but that shouldn’t lead to this. I can’t believe that after all these years, he still cares for Sarah. I thought he stopped loving her after he found out we were mates. I thought I had finally won his heart.

Have I been living in Sarah’s shadow all this while?

“I’m your Luna. Your mate.” I try not to break down in front of him. “We’ve been married for years.”

“You know the truth, Ada. Our marriage happened because of one drunken mistake. I never intend to marry you. The only woman for me has always been Sarah.”

“But I’m your fated mate!”

A few months after our marriage, after I turned eighteen. On the blood moon, we found out that we are mates. That discovery was one of the things that made him change, and he started treating me better. We were happy or maybe it was just me.

“Fated mates don't matter these days and you know it. The bond doesn’t matter.”

My heart clenches in pain. I hold it, trying to breathe. My palm subconsciously goes to my stomach and more tears flow down my cheeks.

“I don’t need you, Ada. To have a powerful heir, I don’t need a fated mate. There are many strong Alphas whose parents weren’t fated mates.”

I’ve never felt pain like this. It’s excruciating. I’m finding it hard to breathe. I look into his eyes, I want to find a reason not to believe any of his words. His eyes are empty. No emotion or whatsoever.

“She doesn’t love you more than I do. She’s not who you think she is.” Sarah is my cousin. I know her more than anyone since I literally grew up with her. There’s something more behind her pretty face and charming eyes. Something evil. Something I know very well.

“What about you? Are you really who we think you are? You knew that I love Sarah. I wanted to make her my Luna and yet you sneak your way into my bed and got pregnant. You blackmailed and manipulated me into marrying you. I know who you are now, Ada. I know what you hide behind that innocent face of yours.”

“You know nothing about me.” I murmur in tears. I don’t want to remember the insult and humiliation I received after I was caught in bed with Adrian. Just like Adrian, I was also drunk. And I was a teenager in love. Of course, I couldn’t resist it when he was all over me. I was the bad guy in the situation. The slut. No one knew how hard I fought to avoid what happened. But I was just a little girl and he was a man. He was stronger. I took the blame for our one-night mistake because he’s an Alpha whom every girl wants, and I’m nobody.

“Yeah, I don’t know anything about you,” he says sternly. “You got what you want. You became my wife and Luna. That should be enough for you, but no. You still go ahead to make Sarah’s life hard. You were the reason she left.”

That’s not true. Sarah left on her own free will. I have nothing to do with it. But why should I explain? The look in his eyes shows that no matter what I say, he won’t believe me. He has already lost his trust in me. Or maybe he has always been wary of me. If Sarah is enough to come between what we have, it shows that we never had anything strong to begin with. I was just a distraction while he waited for Sarah to return.

“Have you ever loved me, Adrian?" I whimper, looking into his eyes as I hold onto the last thread of hope. The way he treated me after finding out I was his mate, the care, the s*x and all. It shows he loves me, right?

He’s avoiding my eyes. I feel his Adam apple bobble a bit and for a second a flicker of emotion passes through his eyes. I want to believe that he loves me and this is all a misunderstanding.

“Answer me Adrian. Look into my eyes and tell me that you never loved me. That everything we had was a lie. Once you assure me that. I will sign this paper and leave your life for good.”

I get in the line of his view, forcing him to look at me. I want to find something, anything in his eyes that will give me hope but nothing. They are cold and distant. Before he even says the words, my stomach falls.

“I never loved you Ada.”

My breath caught in my throat. My whole body shakes as my heart clenches in so much pain. I can feel the anguish of my wolf. It hurts the same as me.

With a shaky hand, I pick up the pen on the table and sign the papers. I’m trying, I’m trying so hard to stop the tears, but they won’t stop rushing down my cheeks.

“You can stay the night, and you are also free to stay in the pack,” he says before walking away, leaving me to wallow in intense pain. Pain that broke me into pieces.