Chapter 40: Maybe (1)
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Have you ever had the feeling something is far too good to be true? Like something was so perfect and just the way you wanted it to be that you start wondering if it’s really happening…
That’s somewhat… how I feel towards Edward…
I like him a lot… I’m in love with him… and I want to be with him…
I used to envy people who were in relationships. Because I’ve only ever been in one and it lasted less than several months… I’ve never been good at being in relationships in general.
The reason is simple… I’m scared of committing to another person. Isn’t it strange? I used to think I wanted to be in a relationship so badly yet… now that I have a nearly perfect one, I feel like I won’t be able to do it... That I’ll somehow mess everything up at some point…
If you’
