The Bride Games

The Heartbroken Howl

Even though my body and possibly even part of my

heart wanted him, I couldn’t say it, not with Lucas still filling that place

inside of me. James thrust harder and faster as though he could read my

thoughts. “Say it, Ember! You’re mine.” “James... I... Oh, James.” He licked the

tears that leaked from my eyes and continued his brutal thrusts. His hand clasped

around my throat as he called out. “Yours, I’m yours, Ember.” Hearing that, I

crashed over the edge into bliss, my core tightening as James followed, filling

me with his essence. I could feel his heat inside of me as he pulsed and slowed

into a few slow thrusts. James, still inside of me, nestled himself into my

neck, kissing his mark and breathlessly letting out. “Now you are mine in every way, and I will

love you and care for you all my life, I promise. The next time I take your

body, I will worship it. You’re my queen and my partner. I love you, Ember. I

want you for myself. I’m yours, only yours.” “James, I wanted you; you didn’t

hurt me. I felt cherished and wanted, and it was amazing. I don’t want to lie

and tell you that I’m free of him. I may never be, I’m sorry.” James turned off the lights, tucked us both

under the covers, and held me as he fell asleep. I could see the longing in him

to make me his as much as he was already mine. I closed my eyes and let James

hold me close to his body, but inside, I felt broken. How could I want them

both? Lucas had been so gentle with me. I love Lucas, and I know he loved me. I

would surely be nothing to Lucas now; he had another, and now I was shackled to

this wild Alpha. Could I be happy with James and let go of my love for Lucas?

There have been times since I met James that I felt drawn to him and even

wanted him, but I gave my heart and body to Lucas. I can’t love them both.

Especially when he acted so brutish at times and almost cold. Was Lucas holding

Ava close in his bed as James was with me? Just the thought of it brought the

sting of tears to my eyes. I know I'm not being fair.

As I lay in James’ strong arms, my exhausted

body cried out for sleep. I couldn’t turn my brain off, still trying to work

through the chaos and new feelings today had brought. While I listened to James'

steady breathing, I made up my mind. I couldn’t take back the things that

happened tonight with James or the feelings that still ruled my heart when it

came to Lucas, but starting now, I would be strong. I doubted that Lucas and I

would be able to be together now that we each belonged to someone else, but

that didn’t mean that I couldn’t have a full life here. I could help build this

community up, help them bring back something they had lost, something stolen

from them by hatred and cruelty. I could still love Lucas and maybe even be a

part of his life; I would just have to hide my feelings away. Even thinking

about never kissing or holding him again brought me pain, but I could be

strong. Starting tomorrow, I will start living up to my new title, the title

that, if I was honest, brought me great pride and excitement: Luna. Finally, my

body shut down as sleep took away the pain that settled in my chest when I

thought of letting Lucas go. A pain I would likely bear for the rest of my

life. I woke to gentle kisses being placed down my neck and large hands caressing

my breast and teasing my erect n*****s. I couldn’t help but let out a little

moan. My body began to grow hot and wet. James' skilled tongue drug across the

mark he gave me, igniting a fire in my blood; my legs rubbed together

involuntarily to ease the throbbing of my engorged c**t. James already had my

body, and now mine was calling out to him as if it knew he owned me. I had

never felt such a burning need before. “Ember, let me worship you. Let me show

you I can be gentle. That I can take care of all your needs.” I nodded yes,

wanting to forget the confusing feelings that surrounded me the first time we

made love. I can’t deny the feeling as though I might combust if he doesn’t

touch me. “Tell me you want this.” James' hot mouth covered my n****e as he

began to tease the other with his fingers. His tongue swirling around and

sucking gently. “I want this.” I almost screamed out, and he gave attention to my

other breast. His hand began to descend to my wet center. Thick, calloused fingers circled my c**t,

making me buck up against him. He brought me close by sucking and licking my heavy

breasts. The contrast between his hot tongue and the cool air had my body

writhing; his hands were rubbing me in intervals between fast and slow, spreading

my juices along my slit. His mouth made its way down my body, settling on my

short curls, making sure he kissed every inch of me on his way down. When his tongue

touched me, I grabbed onto the sheets, feeling the pressure pool in my stomach.

James consumed my channel, lapping up everything I was giving him greedily. I

let out a surprised cry when I felt his tongue enter me. He continued plunging

his tongue in and out of me while his fingers kept up their menstruations. I couldn’t

stop the moans and small screams coming out of my mouth; everything he did felt

so good. When he entered me with his finger while his mouth latched onto my

clit, sucking hard, I sat up to see him with his broad shoulders between my

thighs. At that moment, I felt beautiful and powerful. To see this strong man

and alpha bringing me pleasure brought me to a whole new level of bliss. I fell

back as he met my eyes and added a second finger, stretching my walls and making

the lewdest sounds come from my body. His long fingers curled inside me as they

pumped in and out, working me over. The orgasm ripped through my body as I came

hard all over him. My neck arched back as I screamed out my pleasure. James licked

up my release and kissed his way back up to my mouth, enjoying that my body

trembled underneath him. He took my mouth possessively, and I tasted myself on his

lips. I shuddered when he lined himself up at my entrance. His teeth bit down

on his mark as he slowly pushed inside of me, making me tense underneath him,

still so tight around him. He filled me entirely, stilling as I stretched to accommodate

his size. He sucked on my n*****s again while I threaded my hands into his long

blonde hair loving the feeling of his mouth on my body. He began to slowly move

back and forth inside me, rubbing my walls, my small hands clawing up his back.

“Are you OK, love? I want you to feel good.” “Yes, it feels incredible. Don’t

stop, James.”

James:

Hearing my name come out of her mouth made my

chest feel heavy. Feeling her like this with her under me made me realize I

would burn the world down for her. I had never felt this way before, even with Rebecca.

I loved Rebecca truly, but this connection with Ember was indescribable. As I pumped

in and out of her faster and faster, us both grabbing onto each other and

moaning out our shared pleasure, I felt whole. Ember was close again, her legs

starting to shake when I rolled us both over. I was on my back, and she straddled

my hips. “Take your pleasure from me, Ember.” She looked unsure, but I knew she

wanted me back inside. Sensing her hesitation, I lined myself up under her and

placed my hands on her hips, lowering until just my tip was breaching her, and

then I let go of her hips, letting her set our pace. She lowered herself onto me,

slowly screaming out when I was fully inside. I was so deep it took her breath

away. She was moving slowly at first and then harder and faster, impaling

herself on me; both of our breathing was ragged until she was cuming again. As she

finished, I sat up, kissing her, and held her body flush with mine. I loved

feeling her heartbeat so strongly against mine. I found my release coating her

walls with my seed after she collapsed into my chest, completely spent. “That

was amazing, love. You are so beautiful.” Ember blushed and curled up next to me.

This would be perfect if I didn’t see the battle raging in her between

contentment and guilt.

Ember:

I was his mate and knew this came along with

it, and it made the sour taste of feeling like I was betraying Lucas become

less painful, but I still felt like a fraud. I sat up in bed with James’s seed

seeping out of me and heard the most sorrowful howl ring out. When I heard the howling,

I don’t know why, but it suddenly became hard to breathe, and my heart ached in

my chest. “James, is everything okay?” I asked, filled with worry over the

creature who had made that devastated cry. “Yes, love, don’t worry about it, you take a

bath and rest. I’ll be back soon.” James got up, dressed, and then he left. I knew

I couldn’t be sure, but suddenly, I felt like I knew that howl deep inside my

soul. I felt then that the anguished cry belonged to the man who still owned my

heart, Lucas. I felt the pain in my own body, the hurt and betrayal coursing

through me. I sobbed, my arms wrapping around myself as I lowered into the bath,

not knowing what to do. Every part of me screamed to run to him and comfort his

breaking heart.