My Father's Son

A shimmer of hope

Sabrina's pov

When the police came to arrest me, I did not expect Jake to defend me for he was the one who called them in the first place. It was unbelievable how fast he had judged the circumstance and determined I was the guilty party. I could not explain what I felt at that moment. I felt hurt, betrayed by him, dirty from being undignified by my father's boyfriend, no my ex-boyfriend. I could not explain how the man I thought was going to be my ride or die turned to be the 'die alone ' kind of man. How someone who would have my back, became the first to accuse me, the first to doubt me. How when the curtain fell, he was the first to turn his back on me. I guess there is a first time for everything. I could not understand how eyes that adored me and loved me before would turn to eyes of hate, loathing, and murderous all at the same time. How loved turned to hate and trust into betrayal. I would never understand, fathom and explain.

But, one thing was for sure, I would not sit in prison for trying to protect my dignity. So I did what I was able to do at that time. I  told the arresting female police officer, " I killed him because he r***d me !" . when I saw her reaction, I knew I had found my ally in this ordeal. Such police officers were a blessing.  I had faith. The look on Jake's face when I was talking to the officer is one I haven't found words to describe yet. 

On the way to the precinct where I was being taken to be locked up, the female officer whom I later learnt was called Tara, instructed the driver to make a detour to the hospital. Once we arrived at the hospital, officer Tara opened the doors and said, " Come on sweetie let's see if you were r***d". I was so furious. This lady thought I was lying, or making this up or trying to save my ass from a murder charge. Handcuffs in hand, I walked into the doctor's room and I was told to lie on the bed with my legs wide open as the doctor took a high vaginal swab sample for testing. Afterwards, the doctor showed me a bathroom to bring a urine sample and afterwards clean myself up as we waited for the results. 

Once I was all cleaned up and dressed in a hospital gown, I was handcuffed again as we waited for the doctor to bring the results. Several minutes later, the doctor came and called me in with Tara. He said " I have the results here. We found sperms and some epithelial tissue abrasion showing a forced entry in the vaginal area. Also, we found tissues of broken hymen indicating that Sabrina here was a virgin and was raped." I had never been relieved.  I wished Jake was here to hear for himself that I did not cheat on him. But it was just a wish.  For all, I know he would think it was falsified. I was beginning to feel my load getting lighter. That just a single test, was shedding the light of truth on my behalf. There was a shimmer of hope in the distance in my now darkened world. A world so dark had now started lighting up.

With the test results in hand, Tara called the state lawyer who would defend me in court and told him to come to pick up the result from the police station. On the way to the police car, Tara explained that I had to stay in police custody until the court decided and ruled I was not guilty. Guilty until proven innocent, right? Innocent beyond reasonable doubt. Was I innocent though? I had just murdered a man in cold blood. I did not feel any remorse. Where was my moral compass? It was one of those things that once you had done, crossed that threshold, you can't go back. When we got to the car she said, " Let's prove your innocence".