I was discharged from the Hospital. Now I realize how hard to take care of a baby especially at the young age. I am only 18 but I already have kid. I realize that if John is with me now it must be so easy for me. I decided to call John after a month from giving birth because I decided to go home to John but I am surprised when I cannot reach him. I tried multiple times but still cannot reach him. I noticed that I have a lot of messages from Jam that just came maybe because I turn my phone off for a long time. I read her text 2 weeks after I gave birth. “Cousin are you sure you don’t want to go home? John will go to the US next week you may not see him forever if he totally moved on. Remember there’s a lot of beautiful ladies there.” And there’s another text from the day John left for the U

