Lost soul

Escaping Hell

You never know when your life will just take a dramatic change. When everything goes from being absolutely perfect to your worst freaking nightmare. You think you can trust someone with your whole heart with everything that you are in hopes that you are not making a mistake doing so. And all because they say they love you and you love them so you trust them. Well that was my mistake. I loved and trusted the wrong one. And now, now I’m stuck in hell trying to get out.

After discovering Mic and Samantha. After our exchange and me thinking I was going to leave that night everything changed. Changed for the worst. Mic won’t let me go. And made it to were I have no way to escape. Locked in this house all day and night. Mic stole my phone hid the keys and locked everything up through a security system that only he can voice activate. I’m stuck. Lost in a depression of never ending misery. I tune out when he tries to talk to me never listening because it’s always the same. I sleep in the second floor guest room. And true to his word he hasn’t stopped seeing these other women.

It’s been several weeks now and I’m driving myself crazy. I can’t even go outside..

Nothing to do. All I do is read books all day or sleep. I look like hell. So unkept bags under my eyes.

I feel like I have nothing left in me. No life to live for. I have nothing, no one. Just myself in this lonely world. It would be easier just to let myself go. I have no more fight in me..

I decided to fill the bath. In a daze I wait for the water to fill. Once it’s full I lay inside the tub and just shut my eyes. Thinking of what my life has become. Opening my eyes I grab the kitchen knife. I feel like I have a void in my soul no emotions to show I slit both my wrist up my arms. I watch the blood flow. Shutting my eyes I lay there waiting for the darkness to take me.

I drift into an abyss of darkness. And in that darkness was more darkness. A never ending darkness. Am I dead? I must be. It was kind of peaceful. That was until I felt something. Something inside of me was waking. Waking up for the first time. My mind started thinking about everything that has happened. Every little thing I have ever had to go through that I have over come. And if I can get through that I can escape this hell I live in today with this psycho.

With a new determination my eyes fly open and I shoot straight up. Thinking I’m still in the tub but I’m not. It’s dark and I’m sitting on a bed, my bed. I look down and my arms are bandaged up.

I survived? I mumbled to myself. I smile for a second. I have survived. And now I’m awake with a new determination. I need to get out of here. It’s time to start making a plan. It’s time for me to live once again.

I hear someone coming down the stairs. I can only assume it is Mic. I lay back down and close my eyes. He will not know I am awake.

I hear my bedroom door open and him walk in. I can feel his eyes on me. But I will play dead he will not know I’m awake this is were my plan starts. His phone starts to ring.

Hello doc. He answers I can hear what the doctor is saying.

How long will she be out doc?

It could take a few days Mic. She has lost a lot of blood. She’s lucky to of even survived.

I can’t believe she’d do this.

Well Mic I’ll come by tomorrow and check on her to see how she’s recovering and I’ll let you know okay?

Sure I’ll be at the office all day. I’ll leave it open for you just let me know when your done so I can lock back up.

Ok mic talk to you tomorrow

He ends the call. I feel a hand on mine and I try not to move a muscle. I haven’t let him touch me since I found him cheating.

I miss you baby. Wake up.

He says to me. And then he leaves. Once I hear the door close I wait to hear him going up the stairs. Opening my eyes with a smile on my face.

Tomorrow I’m escaping this hell.

Next day

Mic came to check on me in the morning. But I was asleep. I get up and walk to the closet and pack a small bag. Today I’m escaping this place. I go the kitchen and pack some food. And then I head to his room. I think I may know where he has hidden the keys to my car. As I open the door I start right away with looking. Opening drawers to the night stand I dig around nothing. So I go into his closet. I’ve never been in his closet. It was huge. But I start looking he has built in shelving and drawers. I just start searching through everything. I don’t see anything and right when I’m about to give up I see a black box on the top shelf that looks out of place so I grab it. It’s actually like a brief case with a combination lock on it.

Great.. mumbling under my breath I start looking at it. It’s six digit code. So I try our anniversary date. Nothing. I try his birthday. Nothing. I even try his mothers birthdate and still nothing. I start feeling like I’ll never figure it out and running out of time it finally clicks. 032199 click. No freaking way! My birthdate. The lock opens and I open the case. Sitting right on top is my wallet phone keys and my passport.

Beep beep beep s**t! My watch alarm. I run back down stairs to my bedroom throw everything into my bag and under the bed. I lay back in the bed and calm my nerves. I probably only have a few minutes before the doctor will show up. My breathing finally evens out and I hear the front door. I tell myself play dead and don’t move.

My bedroom door opens and the doctor comes in on the phone.

Yes Mic she’s still in bed. Yes. Yes I’ll call you when I’m done. Yes I’ll let you know when I’m out of the house yes yes okay I got it. Ok bye.

Man that kid is paranoid.

The doctor is talking to himself while he checks on me. I lay loose and just let him do what he has to. Surprisingly he is extremely gentle.

Young lady I know you are awake.

Startled out of my mind I open my eyes.

The doctor is looking at me with such gentle eyes and I see even some sympathy.

I..I.. I don’t even know what to say

Look I don’t know what has happened. But I know how this family is. He says to me.

Please. I need to get out of here.. I whisper to him

I know I’m going to help you

I look up at him surprised.

Ok this is what’s going to happen pack what you need and I’ll give you 5 minutes to leave until I call Mic and let him know I’m all done. So start packing. Also you will need to be easy . Since you’ve lost alot of blood . So I would say once you drive for a few hour stop and rest for a bit. Otherwise you are going to get to tired. He says to my sternly.

Ok I will and I’m already packed. I was going to sneak out behind you.I tell him

Ok well then let’s get you going. Then.

I can’t even tell you how relieved I am right now. Jumping out of the bed I grab the bag from under and open up the box pulling out my phone and keys I head straight to the garage to my car. God I missed my car. I have a 99 green Mazda Miata. My baby. I look over to the doctor.

Thank you. I say and I hop in the drivers seat and open the garage door. Looking over once more I pull out.

Speeding out of the drive way on to the street. I start laughing. Ugly laughing. Feeling so free for once. I plug my phone in because it is dead and I head to the main road. Now my journey home begins.

I need to call Stacy..