FlashBack
Ellie POV
John goes back to work only a week after baby Leah is buried. I try hard to pull myself together for him and for myself. But, I cannot find it in my soul to get out of bed.
I know he is frustrated with me. I am just tired and hurting. My body hurts, my soul aches, and my heart is shattered into a million pieces. I do not want to talk to him about how I feel or anyone else for that matter. He wants me to go to this stupid group for people who have lost a child. I will not go. I do not want to be in a room with other people in pain. I want to stay home and emerge myself in my own pain, no one else's.
When he left this morning, he kissed me and told me he loved me. I know he loves me more than he loves himself. I have to find a way to bring myself out of this but not
