Adopted love

Chapter nine - You are not my mom

Kylie's POV:

Finally, the fair has passed. It was good in the beginning. I don't know who this woman was, but she crossed the line. First of all, I have never met her before. Second, she can't come to me and act like my mother. That is not how things happen. The hug was good, but what she did was not something I liked. If she thinks that I will go with her, she is wrong. I am not moving out of the foster care center. Honestly, I got tired of ungrateful families. They don't care about the kids at all. This woman is the same as everyone else. Probably Brenda and Angela have told her what happened. That's why she was so lovely to me. I won't fall for that. I don't trust people anymore. They have proved me wrong. I believed that good families existed. It turned out that is a lie. All they want is to get something from you. I don't understand why they have to be like that. Maybe the problem is in me. Well, I have had enough of people like her. The second family was exactly like her. They were good only in the foster care center. When we went to their house, they showed their true self. I don't want to live like that. I should give this woman a chance, but I can't. She didn't do anything to me. For some reason, I don't trust her. I feel like she will do something to me. I lost hope a long time ago. No one can convince me anymore. People have done too many bad things to me. That's why the only ones who care about me are two people. Angela and Brenda. Many kids are in the foster care center, but these women still have time for me. That is one of the reasons why I don't want to leave. I don't think I will find a family with people like them. I want to give this woman a chance, but it will be hard for me. I don't want to go with her like that. I hope that I won't be too hard on her. She looked like she cared.

Currently, I have a class with Nicole and Annie. I'm glad that we are together all the time. Literature is not my favorite subject, but I like reading books. Maybe I can write one in the future. That will happen only in my dreams. That is too much work. I won't be able to deal with it. Also, there is a lot of criticism. I don't want to get involved. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I will graduate soon. I would love to work with kids. Honestly, I want to work in the foster care center. We'll see how it goes.

After this class, Nicole, Annie, and I went for lunch. At least I enjoy the food here. The chef is great. Also, Martha is doing well too. I see that she likes this job. It's better than her last one. The other thing is here she can cook whatever she wants. The woman doesn't need to follow orders. She should've come here a long time ago. Well, at least now she is happy. That's what should matter.

- The food is delicious. - I said

- Do you want some snails? - Nicole asked, chuckling

- Don't make me do something you will regret later.

- I would love to see what you will do.

- Deal. I hope you won't cry later.

- What?

- What you heard. Eat now. I'll deal with you later.

- Nicole, you are so dumb. Never mess with Kylie. - Annie said

- I never thought she would do it for real.

- Now you know.

- Relax. I won't do anything to you. All I want is to eat. - I said

- So, am I safe?

- For now, you are.

- What do you mean for now? Will you do something to me?

- You are scared like a little puppy. I love this. Mission complete.

- What?

- You both know I will never hurt anyone. I am the bad girl only when I go with a new family.

- I'm glad to hear it again.

The girls and I talked for a while. They wanted to stay outside, but I wasn't in the mood. I walked into my room and pulled out my headphones. That is the only thing I don't let my friends or anyone else touch. It's my present, and I want it to be in the same state as now. I don't have anything else from my parents. Everything was in my old house. At least I keep the keys. Otherwise, it would've been sold out. Maybe when I go out of here, I can live there. It doesn't have electricity or water, but I will deal with this. I'm not a little girl anymore. I can take care of myself.

After an hour in my room, I decided to go out. The weather is nice today. It's not like I am in the mood for something. Sometimes I play with the little kids. I looked around and saw Andy playing alone. That is the three-year-old kid who is here. I still can't believe his parents left him here so young. I took him in my arms and walked around.

- What does Andy want to do today?

- Play.

- Ok, what do you want us to play?

- No know.

Andy can talk, but he still doesn't know how to make a complete sentence correctly. I mean, he is only three. I shouldn't expect something else from him.

- Do you want us to sit over there?

- Yes.

- Ok, let's go.

This kid might not be my brother, but I feel bad for him. It's not like he understands any of the things that are happening here. Angela and Brenda take a lot of care of him. Soon they appeared in front of me.

- Look who decided to help us. - Angela said

- He was playing alone.

- Andy is the youngest one. Not many kids want to play with him.

- Can't someone adopt him?

- No one wanted him.

- That is sad.

- Don't you want to get adopted? - Brenda asked

- No. There is no such thing as a perfect family. Also, a good one doesn't exist.

- Why are you so sure? We met a woman at the fair who was interested in you.

- That is a mask. She doesn't care about me.

- I don't think so. Now I will take Andy. - Angela said

- Why?

- Because he is sleeping.

- Oh. I haven't noticed that. I'm sorry.

- It's ok. We'll go now. If you want something, you know where to find us.

- I do. Thanks.

I kept staying here for a while. I don't have many things to do. That's why I will spend some time outside. I was about to pull out my headphones when I saw that woman. She came straight up to me.

- Hi, Kylie. Do you remember me?

- Sadly, I do. What do you want?

- I came to bring you something.

- Don't you have to work?

- I do, but family should always be more important. This is for you.

- What is that?

- I brought you a blanket and some candies. These are for your friends, Nicole and Annie.

- Why are you here? If you want something, say it.

- I don't want anything.

- Yes, and I am a cow. Do you think I am stupid?

- I never said that. All I wanted was to be nice to you.

- I'm sorry, but I don't take things from strangers.

- Look, I know what you think about me. I am not here to take you.

- Yes, you are. You do all these nice things to make me trust you and then take me away. I'm not going anywhere, especially with you. So you can go. I don't want you.

- But I do. - the woman said with tears in her eyes

- Even if you are the best actress, you can't fool me. I won't fall that low.

- Kylie, at least take this. I won't take it back.

- I don't need your stupid gifts.

- Ok, then. Can I get a hug from you?

- What? No. I'm not giving you anything.

- Please. If you give me one, I will go.

- Really? You will leave me alone.

- Yes, I will. I won't bother you.

- Why should I trust you?

- Because I am not a liar. I always keep my promises.

- Fine, but it's only one.

- Only one.

I left her to hug me. Why does this feel good? She is no one. I don't like her. Also, she is wrong if she thinks that gifts will make me go with her. I am not moving out of here. Soon she pulled away and looked at me.

- What?

- You are pretty.

- Thanks. Will you leave now?

- If that is what you want, I will do it.

- That was the deal. I will let you hug me so you can leave.

- Ok, I will go. Please, give this to your friends.

- I will. - I said, and she left

That's when I got upset. I don't know what is wrong with me. I wish my mom has been here. She always knew what to say to make me feel better. I tried to hold my tears as much as possible. Soon, I gave up. That is her fault. Why did she come here? I didn't invite her. Now I wish I have never met her. Soon I felt two hands wrapped around me. I looked up to see her.

- I thought you left.

- That is what you told me to do. I never wanted it.

- Why are you here? It's your fault.

- I didn't want to upset you. All I want is to take care of you.

- You are not my mom!

- I don't want to be.

- What?

- I don't want to be your mom. No one will replace her.

- Then why are you here?

- Because I want to make you feel better. I am not the perfect mother, but I will do everything for you. Can you give me a chance?

- I'm sorry, but no. I don't trust you.

- What can I do for you?

- Nothing. If you leave, that will be better. - I said and wiped my tears

- Kylie, seeing you upset is not something I like.

- Why? You don't even know me. I am no one for you.

- It's true, but I liked you. Since I saw you, I knew you were what I wanted.

- Why no one asks me what I want?

- Ok, what do you want? I will do it.

- I want you to leave me alone. Why can't you understand that? Go home or to work. Just leave!

- Why do you hate me?

- I don't hate you, but you are the same as everyone else. You don't care about me. You care about yourself.

- I don't. I promise.

- You can't change my mind.

- There is nothing I can do to convince you, right?

- No. I want to give you a chance, but I can't. I don't trust you.

- It's ok.

- Aren't you mad?

- Why would I be? I know what has happened to you. That's why I don't judge you. Kylie, you are one strong girl.

- Please leave. Please. - I said, sobbing

- Ok, I will do it. Can I come to see you again?

- No. Pick another kid or go to a different foster care center.

- I understand. Thank you for talking with me. It means a lot.

- That won't happen again.

- I know, and it's ok. I appreciate the small things. - the woman said and left

I hope she won't come back. I took my things and walked back inside. I gave everything from that woman to the girls. At least they will enjoy it. They can share the blanket.

- From where did you get all these things? - Annie asked

- One annoying woman gave them to me. These candies are for you. I gift you everything else.

- Why? She brought it for you. - Nicole said

- I don't want them.

- Kylie, why are you like that?

- Please, leave me alone.

- Ok, I won't bother you.

I was in my room when Angela came. She made a sign to the girls, and they left. Let me guess. The woman has talked with her and Brenda. Why am I not surprised? This day can't get worse.

- What?

- I heard you had a visitor today.

- Did you let her here?

- Let who?

- That annoying woman.

- She is not annoying.

- Yes, she is. She can't come here pretending to care about me. She is not my mom.

- Kylie, calm down.

- No. I'm not going to calm down. I'm tired of meeting strangers. The ones who say they want to take care of me. Nothing of this is true. They don't want me. How can't you see that? Don't you like me anymore?

- This woman is different. You have to give her a chance. Look how many things she brought you.

- Why are you always on their side? You never did something for me.

- You know this is not true. Brenda and I have taken care of you. We want what is best for you.

- Really? It doesn't look like that. - I said and wiped my tears

- Kylie, listen to me. Carla doesn't want to hurt you. As you can see, she is not taking you home.

- Yes, she is. Maybe not tomorrow, but she will do it soon. It's visible. There is no way she will come only to see me.

- You have to be optimistic. Maybe she is what you need.

- I don't need her. I want to stay here.

- You can't be here forever. Kylie, being here is a temporary solution.

- Why did I think you would understand?

- I do understand, but you have to listen to me.

- I don't want to. You keep saying the same thing about every family. I don't trust you anymore.

- What?

- I don't trust anyone. You keep lying to me.

- Kylie, I'm not lying to you.

- Then why do you want to get rid of me?

- I don't. I want you to get adopted because it will be better for you. Your life will be secured. When you move out of here, you won't have where to go. That's why I want you to give this woman a chance. For one last time, please do it for me.

- No. Please leave me alone.

- Kylie.

- Please.

- Ok. I will see you for dinner.

- I won't eat.

- I will see you there. - Angela said and left

I am done with people. No one cares how I feel. People became selfish. I don't want to be like that. I wanted to be in a good family, but not anymore. I better be alone instead of being with ungrateful people. If this woman thinks she can win, she is wrong. Some gifts won't make me follow her. She is no one in my eyes. No one can replace my mom. That's why I won't give up. I will find a way to deal with everything on my own. No one is on my side anymore. I trusted Brenda and Angela, but maybe I shouldn't. They care for me, but not the way I thought. I hope that soon I will find the right way.