Teenage Love or Is It

Memories Revealed

Mayte

    While in the bath tub I think I must have fallen asleep because it was like the worst dream anyone could have except this dream was about me in particular. I was even wearing the same outfit from the party last night. I was drinking and dancing with some guy but I couldn't really tell who he was. His face is blurry and I can't make out the face that good. I also notice that Drake is there in my dream with Megan. NO that can't be right. I stopped dancing and walked to the back patio where the pool is and sit down on a chair to catch my breath. The guy I was dancing with followed me. I don't know for how long we talked but I do know that he grabbed my hand and pulled me somewhere but I am not sure everything is hazy. Somehow I fall to the ground on the grass and wait its the same guy i was dancing with he is right above me. I began to swing my fist but to no avail. He begins to hit me and really hard because I start to see black dots. Did he punch me? What the hell? I feel something very uncomfortable and I don't like it and then I feel a sharp pain like a knife had just stabbed me in my p***y. I scream out in pain but he covers my mouth. I am trying to get him off me but no luck. He punches me a couple of more times and that ends the fighting out of me. I  have no more strength left. OMG! What has he done to me? This can't be right. I just lay there until he done and then I slowly drift off to nowhere land. I am numb. I have no feelings or emotions left to show. What has happend to me? He took my innocence from me. 

    I slowly began to open my eyes and realize I wasn't dreaming that really happened to me. But why me couldn't he had found someone else. What did I do to deserve this? Now I wasn't pure anymore and I couldn't take the truth. I took the razor and broke it so I could get the blade and I began to cut my legs and arms. As the blood ran out of me the pain never left me like it normally would have. I couldn't even process these events in my head. I mean I was only 14 years old. I wasn't ready for that yet. And what will my mom think when she finds out the truth. I can't tell her not yet. I am not ready to see the disappointment on her face. She had raised me much better than to let anyone take me over and I just laid there and let him. Yes I fought back but not hard enough. I could have fought harder. Why didn't I fight back harder? What will she think of me now? What will my dad think of me? Or better yet Drake? OMG! I totally forgot about Drake. 

    Even so I don't even know how I got home or in my bed for that fact? Oh god what have I done? Suddenly I taken back from my thoughts when there is a knock on the bathroom door. It's my mom "Honey are you okay in there? You've been in there awhile did you fall asleep?" I quickly reply with "Yes, mom I'm fine be out in a few mins. I so fell asleep, Sorry". I hear my mom walk away from the door and quickly get out the tub. I doctor my cuts as quick as possible and put on my clothes. Hopefully I can face the people I love without breaking down and telling everything that happend to me. Please God let me be able to hide the shame I have brought upon myself. 

    Once I stepped out the bathroom mom was waiting for me. She looks at me and gives me that we need to talk look. I just drop my head and as nicely as possible say "It won't happen again I just tried a few drinks okay maybe more than that but nothing else." Before I could say another word she held up my cigs that I thought I had hide very good but apparently not. And boy the look on her face was not good. I was a dead girl cause now I had to explain to her about where I got them from. Well sorry Dad I have to throw you under with me. I ain't going down alone.