This pain I felt over his likely engagement to Corrina.
Was it just from an ordinary attachment to him or did it mean more?
Do I have actual feelings for him? Is this what it feels like to feel strongly for someone?
I turned the pouch over in my hands and thought about the corridor an hour ago, about him stopping mid-step and telling me to just be myself, and how warm that had felt, and how completely it was gone now.
I hadn't known. Not until I just bow at the table. I hadn't known how much space he'd taken up inside me until I felt the shape of what it would mean to watch him give that space to someone else.
I stayed out until I was sure my face was presentable.
Through the glass door I could see him from where I sat. He was at the sideboard with a cigarette and a cloth, cleaning a
