#Real identity of life.

Mid life @21

 Mid life has not been a free walk in the park, my walk does not have the presence of candies or ice creams, it has few cute guys and majority of drinks. Too much of partying and too little of focus. It was a peaceful night when the next semester was with us, Martin came to my life and alcohol became my best buddy, the only cup I felt so dear had a senator label and the best smoke I had was a dunhill, school was the last thing I thought of and in the end I never did my second year second semester examination, not that I never knew the date of that exam but I just slept outside the yesternight and the day just passed, the previous day I was peacefully seated with my currents boyfriend brother and their friend Mwany, little did time pass when Thimba came to pat my back and told me that Martin wants to have a word with me, I excused myself and joined their table. Thimba, lovely Dee, Ephy, Dees boyfriend and Martin were all there each waiting for me. 

Silence prevailed for the first few seconds before I asked what I was doing at that table, "Martin says he misses you," Dee said, I turned to Martin and he just rolled his eyes, I stood for my leave when Thimba held my hand and begged me to sit. I looked at Martin and I could tell that he has something to say but it just could not come out. I felt the urge to come out and express the reason I chose someone else on his face,  I threw everything he gave me to the ground and went silent, I looked to check if Mwany and Edu were still around and to my disappointment they had already left, Thimba offered me a cup and I put some beer and sat facing the other side so careful I do not see Martins face. Dee and Ephy were staring at me when Dee out of the blues started shouting at Ephy saying how she thinks she deserves better, it was our chance to be silent as Dee took the shouting gear. 

Time to leave came and Dee instructed for everyone to stand and that is what we all did, Ephy went for the best of the ride receiving shouts and screams while Martin and I arrived  at where he stays, he literally pushed me away in the middle of the night and that is when I came straight forward with him that I never wanted anything to do with him, he pushed me to the ground before I called out for a bike and left bacck for the same bar, luckily I found Steve there, he saw the wound behind my arm and I explained the whole story, in your expectation he would rattle with anger but he only, sighed and assured my relaxation.