I can't get the image of her one tear slipping from her eye out of my head. And how she roughly wiped it as if it never fell. The broken smile she gave me when she said I never noticed she's alone.
Perhaps I never understood because she has so many people in her life but she still feels alone. She looks happy to everyone, even me sometimes but you never know when she's not feeling okay until she actually shows it.
Today she lost control, I'm still shaken. She actually screamed at me! And asked me not to touch her, actually commanded me not to. I freaked out! I was going to ask her and I freaked out. I had everything planned but the unexpected statement saying that we should just be roommates threw me off track and I replied in defence mode.
I stare at the necklace in my hand, looking at
