Haim's Paradox

HAIM’S EPISODIC MEMORIES

Exhausted. Haim’s body could not agree more to move. Tired eyes as he lays down on a cot nothing to see but a boring white painted wall, a cabinet, and a window, agonizing his fears and resentment in silent peace. As the time passes by, his deafening reality becomes blurred while his consciousness becomes a dream. He sees the glimpse of his mother’s face being grateful to perceive for the first time her youngest son’s sparkling eyes and cute little hands. She enjoys discerning his humming chortles and alarmed on his every whining. Haim was very overwhelmed by the feeling of being carried with love by his mother. He was mesmerizing his mother’s dazzling smile while holding her smooth divine face with his tiny hands. “I love you to the moon and back, my sunshine,” she said to her baby, while her husband was very worried for her.

Carla never regrets giving her half of her life to bring soul to her youngest son Haim, despite of the distress of her husband. In view of the fact that her husband has never agreed to born Haim, Haim’s father nameplates him a curse and never in his life felt his endearment. Carla was ailing arguing with her husband about their son as if it has no limits. Haim was only a year old. The tormenting life they had never restrained the unending love she had to her children especially to Haim. He felt sheltered in his mother’s arms as she said to him that, “I will protect you in life and in death,” while she guards Haim to her husband’s wrath.

Haim at his seventh birthday tastes the series of the bitterness of life, from the spleen of his father to the anguish of being stone broke. He even recognizes the glimpse of his two sister’s hatred of him. He loves his family every single one of them yet never felt love in return but his mother’s. After the bizarre chain of events, Haim becomes conscious of his dream. He grasped that every detail counts as his past, that it was no fantasy, but it is his previous episode. After the cognizance, he delightfully enjoys his role as his younger self in his dream. He cuddles his mom every single time, as if it is the last hug to her and he never gets tired of the gracious smiles he received. As he saw his father and his siblings, he immediately approached them with a clutch of his tiny arms. Despite the hatred and anger he acquired from them; he never loosens his grip. He embraces his family in his dream until the pride of those who despise him melts and holds him back as if they really missed him. There was an overwhelming jubilation, and the ambience was so magical. “We love you.” Three words he overheard from them that made him burst into tears and grasp them tighter not until he saw them lamented.

Haim’s family vanished in his clutch, yet they never disappeared from the setting. They were still in their house, however, it was not a home anymore. It was dark and chaotic. Their amenities were turned upside-down. His tears from excitement turn into fear and agony. He saw blood that he could not determine of who it was as he saw his deceased father was lying down on the floor of their bedroom grasping his two siblings covered with blood from their discrete parts of their body – lifeless. Haim could not accept of what he saw, not until he recognized his beloved mother’s body on the staircase inverted as if she fell from it. Her eyes were open, looking at Haim with complete despair and distress. She looks so pale that made him realize that she was worn out of blood because of countless open wounds. Haim could not handle any more of his woe from his nightmare, so he suddenly woke up from a complete incubus.

Haim immediately stood up, full of sweat and catching his breath. His attending nurse looked into him and asked him if he’s okay and he said, “I’m okay.” He just still could not accept the fact that he saw his family died right in front of his eyes last night. It was still clear to him the trauma when a mysterious man with an eerie aura silently broke into their house and he directly goes into Haim’s sibling’s room where his father saying Goodnight to his beloved daughters and without hesitation the enigmatic man straightly pulled out a knife to injure the father and the siblings screamed out loud. Haim and his mother heard the scream while in his room, which made them sweat in worry and agitation, yet Carla bravely came out of Haim’s room to investigate what with the commotion, but right before Carla enters to the incident, a man in silhouette furiously charges into her and pierced her shoulder with a kitchen knife. Before a second attempt to stab Carla, Haim manages to distract the culprit, yet he could not withstand his strength and he was pushed to stairs that caused him an agonizing pain and injured his arms and legs. Haim was so mad at himself, seeing his ailing mother was beaten up and stabbed countless times. He could not determine his feelings. He was furious. He was anxious. He does not know what to do, as his mother was battered over and over until she was found lifeless and pushed down into the staircase. Haim was in complete oblivion of what was happening. He does not even know what the intention of the culprit was and even left him alive.

Haim walked into the hospital’s rooftop.

“WHY!” He shouted in agony and was still clueless by the m******e of his family.

“How could a man do such a thing as that! He was no man; HE IS A MONSTER!”

“Ma! I am so sorry. I am sorry that I could not fight for you, for all of you. I am sorry because I let you feel the series of agonizing distress from him battering you. You promised to protect us, yet I failed to guard you. I have no chance to save you… why?

WHY! WHY DID THE GODDAMN CULPRIT LEFT ME ALIVE!

He had a chance to kill me, why did he do nothing? I want to be with you all.”

He mourns as he takes a step from the barricades of the rooftop attempting to jump.

“I really wanted to be with you. Take me with you.” He smiles as he accepts his death not until the cops arrived on time and managed to cease his suicide. Haim was grieving while the deputy clutched him. He tightly grasps back to the arms of the cop mourning in despair.

After a while, when Haim calmed down, Detective Lara Brown along with the policemen explained their intentions.

“Can we conduct an interview for what happened last night?” Lara asked. Haim was not ready to recount of what occurred last night, yet his grievous heart wants justice. He was emotional explaining the tragedy until Lara was satisfied from the information she got.

“I am really sorry for your loss. We will work on it until we find the culprit and bring justice for your family as soon as possible,” Lara said.

“Thank you, detective. I am willing to assist anything that I could to hasten the process,” Haim answered.

Haim will be discharged after a couple of days since he was recovering fast yet Haim has no relatives to go to. Their family was so poor that his father was disowned by his own family because they said that he was such a disgrace, while his mother was an only child of her deceased parents. The De la Cruz family who is wealthy came to visit him.

Haim was destined to marry the only child of the affluent family, Grace De la Cruz. Grace is known as the modest princess of De la Cruz. She had the divine looks, kind heart and white godly hair who happened to be captivated by the manly altruistic manner of Haim. Grace met Haim – when still Haim’s family was alive – by the Greenstone park where both of them wandering by the fascinating ambience of the environment. Haim knew Grace that she is wealthy judging by her apparel and immediately humbles himself to her.

“Do I need to bow down to you, princess?” Haim said while cringing.

“You silly!” Grace replied.

“I am Haim, what’s yours?”

“Are you flirting with me? Just kidding, I’m Grace.”

Grace felt her heart beats fast as she chats with Haim. She finds Haim so attractive as he talks. She was fascinated by the sparkling eyes, reddish cheekbones, and a manly voice of Haim. She just realized that Haim was just a perfect man for her, together with Haim’s pride yet thoughtful etiquette. She was already falling with him, while Haim was just releasing all his exhaustion from the bitterness of life and he does not know what feelings Grace already had with him. Grace’s parents were very supportive to her and willing to give everything what she wanted and her greatest desire at that time was to marry Haim. Therefore, Grace’s parents arrange everything to convince the lowly family of Haim to acquire their daughter’s wish. Grace may have a kind heart, yet because of her parent’s messed up parenting, she became so selfish, thinking that she can have whatever she wants to the extent of buying people, that is what Haim thinks of her. Haim has not once agreed to the contract that the De la Cruz have prepared. The contract consists of a condition that if Haim will marry Grace, the Clark family will guarantee the life of being a noble and consider as the ally of De la Cruz. They will own a house, great opportunities in labor and will never worry about living.

“I am a person! We may be a beggar in your eyes, but we have dignity! You can’t just simply buy it, like we are just a mere product you can purchase from the market,” he said

But little did he know that his father agreed to the contract and Carla can do nothing.

“Just bear with it. Just think that it was your only way to help this family you lowly junk. Also, I have already signed the contract, there is nothing you can do.” Haim’s father said to him. Haim just really can do nothing. He loves his family and even though his father despises him, he had the biggest respect for him – martyr.

The De la Cruz decides to let Haim live with them since Haim had no choice. Their plan to visit Haim was not only to check his condition, yet also to pay all the hospital’s charges and to sign the custody of Haim since he was only 17 years old. Haim was not happy at all, yet he swallows his pride just to live and seek the justice of his family. Haim just got into an idea to continue the contract that his father signed, marry Grace, and use the wealth of De la Cruz to thrive and punish the reaper of his half of his life.

After a couple of days, Haim was discharged from the hospital and the wealthy family’s servants packed up every Haim’s stuff and escorted him, yet he refused the offer of his chaperones because he was planning to visit the office of detective Brown to catch up every information that Lara had gathered. So, the escorts left carrying only Haim’s belongings. On the other hand, Haim goes into the address that is written on the calling card that the detective gave to him. Unfortunately, Haim receives bad news from Lara. Brown says that it will be a long process to determine the culprit due to his clever tactics.

“We have done anything we could, yet we could not find any strong evidence. It was very clean, no marks, fingerprints and even footsteps. The DNA’s we only found were from your family, including you, Haim.” Lara sighed.

“I am so sorry, but it may take a long time for your family’s justice,” she added.

Haim was very disappointed with the unfortunate news he heard. He walks, sighing and grieving going into the residency of De la Cruz family. Still, he wonders why in a billion, he was chosen by hell.

Haim was depressed.