I blinked, my lips parting slowly, my chest lightly heaving. The tears that had been rolling down my cheek and lightly wetting the page had dried off, and all I was left with was a cracked desert inside of me. My heart felt like it had been completely drained of life and love and sustenance, and I could hardly bring myself to think straight.
I fell back, the diary falling off my fingers. Through every second, with a gun pointed to my mouth, I had thought of Kevin. I had thought of the love I had been foolish enough to think we share, the pain I thought he would feel seeing me with another man.
All of that had been in my mind. All of that had been me manipulating myself into thinking I mattered.
My chest heaved, and I blinked, looking around. I could see him in front of the mirror, his h
