I went home with a heavy spirit. It felt like I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. I feel bad and emotionally exhausted. I feel my heart was drained with sorrow and pain. Masakit, napakasakit. Yung bang alam mo na tama ang nararamdaman mo pero nasa maling pagkakataon ka and there is nothing you can do but to let the course of time blow you whenever it wishes. Ganun ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Para akong isang dahon na nililipad sa kung saan tangayin ng hangin. Wala akong pwedeng pagpilian, wala akong pwedeng gawin. Kung meron man ay hindi ko pa rin pwedeng gawin dahil makakalaban ko ang kapatid ko. All I have to do is just let fate move and do its work. Kailangan kong mag-paubaya as always dahil hindi ko pa kayang kontrahin si Rose. I will just let time heal the pain and
