Unapologetically Me

Chapter Thirty One

I stared up at the screen in front of me and grinned. Seeing the baby look more like a baby than an alien felt pretty damn good. The technician getting all of the measurements, smiled as she showed us the baby's finger and toes. James grinned widely and his mom squeezed his shoulder with a small smile.

"Okay. I will get these to the doctor and she will come back in. Also, she will be able to tell you the gender of the baby today if you'd like?"

I glanced at James and he raised his eyebrows. He glanced down at me and waited for me to answer.

"Do you want to know?" I asked him.

He nodded and I nodded at the technician. She nodded slowly, then walked out of the room. James' mom clapped her hands excitedly and James couldn't wipe the grin off of his face. Hell, I couldn't either. This was happening. We were having a baby and we were going to get to know the s*x.

We waited patiently for the doctor to come in and when she did she grinned and washed her hands in the sink before putting on some gloves. She walked over to us and grabbed the wand, putting it on my stomach.

"Let me just take a look here and then we will tell you if you're having a little girl or boy, shall we?"

We nodded and once again we got to take a look at the baby's little features. She moved the wand around my stomach and then she turned on the machine to listen to the heartbeat. The whooshon sound radiated through the whole room and then she squinched her eyebrows.

She turned the machine off and pressed her lips together. I felt James' hand tighten on mine as he looked at the doctor curiously. "Okay, well, I'm not a specialist, but I see something here on the baby's heart. She pointed a dark spot on the screen and I felt my heart squeeze.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that it's an unusual spot and the heart specialist will be able to tell you more. You made that appointment already, right?"

"Yes. We have. Is the baby okay?" James asked with a hint of panic in his voice.

"So far, everything else looks good. I just think we need to make sure with the specialist, just to be sure. There's no need to worry or panic. It could just be a shadow. They will be able to tell you better when they take a look."

I nodded slowly, my heart racing. I hoped that it was just a shadow. I took a deep breath and bit down on my lip.

"Do you guys want to know the s*x?"

James seemed to have lost some of his spark but he nodded slowly. "Mom? Do you?" I glanced at his mom and she raised her eyebrows at me.

I turned to the doctor and pointed at myself. "Mom?"

"Well, yes. You're the mother to this baby! " She smiled warmly and I gave a nervous laugh.

"Oh, yeah. I mean yes. I do want to know."

She nodded and then began moving the wand again. She wiggled the wand a little as she pointed out the legs and the sideways positioning of the baby.

"There it is." She pointed at the screen and I saw the legs, but I didn't know what she was pointing at .

"What is that?"

"That is your daughter's little butt."

I felt a bloom in my chest and my eyes teared up. I looked up at James and he raised his eyebrows, his smile coming back to life.

"A girl!" He breathed he gave a small chuckle and leaned down and kissed my brow.

I hugged him back, but all I could think about was the little shadow. Or what I hoped was a shadow. The doctor gave us ultrasound photos of her little private parts and told us she would be in touch after our appointment with the specialist.

James' mom didn't seem worried as we walked out , though. She was still smiling and looking at the ultrasounds. We hopped into the back of her van and she drove us to get lunch before we went back to school.

"I have had that type of scare with several of my children. It could be nothing. Don't worry about it until we get clearer answers." She said quietly after lunch.

We both nodded but James squeezed my hand and kissed the back of it.

In school we held hands as we walked to our class and before we walked in, since it was in the middle of the class, he stopped me and kissed me gently.

"Let's just be happy about our little girl. We will worry about the other thing if it comes. Please."

I nodded slowly and sighed. "Okay."

We continued on with our day, but the little thoughts never left my mind. My mom had turned into a drunken mess because of all of her failed pregnancies. But on the other hand, James' mom had so many healthy children. In my head it was a fifty percent chance that everything would be okay.

I clung to that hope and tried to think of anything else.

We went back to my house to start moving some of my stuff to a storage building, since my apartment wasn't ready yet and my uncle was dead set on getting the house sold sooner, rather than later.

I wasn't allowed to do much as Michael, James and Jordan loaded up vehicles full of my crap to take to the building I had rented. The big furniture that couldn't go with us I had put little signs on them with a price for an estate sale that I was going to do.

On my mom's orders, I even put to sell a whole bunch of her designer purses and shoes. A bunch of this money was going to help with our move and with mom's continued rehab after she got out of jail.

We would hold the sale over the weekend before the real estate agent would start having open houses for the place. I continued to put prices on things as they took sh*t to storage. My stuff was going to be taken to James' house until my apartment was ready.

When they were done for the day and we went back to the house, James and I hung out in his bedroom with Michael and Jordan for a little bit. When they left I wrapped my arms around James, who was sitting on the ground, and wrapped my legs around him.

"So, when my apartment is ready, are you going to stay with me?"

I kissed his ear lobe and he shivered and his breath quickened. "You want that?"

"Yes. We can play house for a little bit."

"We can get to know how it's going to be like when you move to Massachusetts with me?"

I nipped at his earlobe and he took a deep breath. "Do you like that?"

"I guess so. I mean, I didn't know before, but I like when you do it." He whispered. I flicked my tongue over his earlobe and he shuddered.

"Okay stop." He breathed.I moved my foot closer to his crotch and felt how hard he was.

I moved my arms from around his shoulders down to around his waist and moved my hand down to the front of his pants. He huffed out a breath and I nibbled on his earlobe.

His bedroom door opened and he growled in frustration as I moved my hands back up. I kept myself locked around him as we both glanced back to look at who barged in.

Jordan stood still, like he didn't know if he walked in on anything spicy.

I smiled at him and he relaxed. "Hey, can I borrow your phone charger? I don't know who took mine and my phone is about to die and I really need to answer this next text. Life or death situation here."

"Is it a girl?" I asked him. He blushed and nodded

"Who?"

"Does it matter?"

"If I approve I'll let you have my spare charger. If I don't...you'll have to ask your very sexually frustrated brother. And I don't think you'll like his answer."

"Sh*t. Okay, her name is Kennedy. She's in JV cheerleading and also in JV dance team."

"Ooh. Kennedy Johnson. I know her."

"Is it good or bad? I really need a charger."

"My bedside drawer." I jutted my chin to the right side of the bed and he grinned.

"Thank you!"

He opened the bedside drawer and pulled out the cord quickly and ran out. I unfurled myself from James and walked to the basement door, locking it and walking back to the bed.

I peeled my shirt off, then my shorts and panties, only leaving my bra on because my boobs had giant blue veins that looked freaky and they were extremely sore.

James stood up slowly and walked over to me, moving his hands over my hips and slowly up my back.

He looked down into my eyes as he unclasped my bra and I bit my lip. He knew how I felt about them, but I also knew that he liked that they had grown and he liked to trace the veins with his fingers.

I let the bra drop slowly to the floor and bit my lip as he moved his hands over my body, cupping a breast and grabbing my ass.

He leaned his head down and kissed me roughly, his tongue diving into my mouth. I moaned and winced as his hand tightened on my chest.

I sucked in some air through my teeth and he pulled his hand away. "Sorry baby." He whispered.

I smiled up at him and backed away slowly to his bed.

He followed me with a predatory look in his eyes and I grinned. I laid back against the bed and he crawled over me, laying kissed starting from the center of my stomach up to just below my chin.

I took a long, deep breath, loving the way his eyes studied my face, like I was the last woman on earth and he was the last man.

"I love you so much." He whispered against my throat. Butterflies took off in my stomach and I closed my eyes.

"I love you too, James."

Just as he sat up to unbutton his pants there was a soft knock on his bedroom door and he rolled his eyes and groaned. I hurried up under the comforter and he buttoned his pants back up and walked to his bedroom door.

"Yeah?" He called through the door.

"Your dad needs you to help him in the garage." He sighed and hung his head.

"Alright, I'll be up in a minute." He called back.

I gave him a small smile and he groaned and hung his head dramatically. "I don't want to go!" He walked to me and kissed my forehead.

"It's okay. I'll be right here when you get back. Hurry up though," I yawned and wiggled my eyebrows. "I might just be asleep when you do."

He shook his head as he pulled on his shoes. "I'll wake you up. I'm not playing." He warned.

"Okay. Promise?"

He grinned. "Yes." He kissed me again and walked out. I got up and got re-dressed and then laid back down in bed and watched a few video before I began getting tired. Alone, the thoughts of my little girl and her shadow began creeping up.

I just hoped that everything was going to turn out the way I wanted it to.