Chapter Eight
The bus ride home is a kind of purgatoryâtoo short to escape, too long to ignore. I slide into a seat near the back, headphones in but no music playing. Itâs just armor.
Thatâs when I see it. A small glint of color on the jacket of the kid across the aisle. A button, maybe an inch wide, rainbow stripes curling under bold black letters: They/Them.
Itâs nothing, really. Just a pin. But it punches the air out of my lungs.
The kid wearing it doesnât look nervous. Theyâre scrolling through their phone like itâs no big deal, like declaring yourself out loud to a bus full of teenagers is normal. Brave or recklessâI canât tell which. Maybe both.
I stare too long, catch myself, and whip my gaze out the window. My reflection in the glass glares back, accusing. I imagine what it would feel like to wear something like that. To stop hiding. To let people know without choking on the words.
But then a snicker floats from the front. A couple of guys whisper, not even subtle. âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean?â One laughs. The other says, âFreak.â
The kid doesnât flinch. Doesnât shrink. Just scrolls, earphones in, like the whole world can scream and theyâll keep breathing anyway.
And me? I look down at my hands, stuffed in my hoodie pocket, nails biting my palm.
Because bravery looks beautiful from far away. But I canât imagine wearing it myself. Not yet.