Freedom:A collection of poems

Emotionless

I want to be criticized and feel nothing,

I want to be rejected as a friend,in a relationship, as a person,and feel nothing.

I want to fail, I want to try and hit the ground as too never come up and feel nothing yet.

I want to run so hard and fight for a future that collapses,and feel nothing.

I don’t want to have to keep everything on the tracks,

I want to be loosened from caring and feel nothing.

I don’t want to give a damn

But Dammit that’s just not who I am.

I want to be emotionless,I long for it so.

The numbness from pain and rejection wouldn’t that be a dream?

But how bored I would be,nothing there to worry me. Nothing to point and say to myself, “Look at what I did,I started in that valley.” No tired late nights to say that’s how I became who I am today.

I wish that I could be emotionless and have neither fear or pain, but what would I say when my dreams were built? They wouldn’t be worth anything.

Without fear of pain in the end there is no celebrating.

So I will celebrate the tears and the pain, you might find me crying,but it’s all in good timing,I will wake with a smile when I see another day.