Desperation, nothing but desperation is filling my hollowed heart. As much as I would love to see and talk to Chaz, due to the restraining order, I couldn’t. I’m sure he has reasons why he said what he did earlier. Perhaps he doesn’t want to humiliate his mother in front of others? Or maybe he needs his parents’ influence or guidance for his cruise ship’s launch? I shake my head after thinking about the second option. Chaz has the money and influence of his own and his cruise ship will take years to be finished. That being said, the first option is more likely the answer. No matter how much I try to convince myself that Chaz won’t cheat, my heart still rattling in fear. Gentle knocks grab my attention so I quickly wipe my eyes dry though it wouldn’t make a difference coz they’re still red
