Eva's POV
The doctor was efficient. He cleaned the cuts on my face and neck and pressed along my hip carefully and told me nothing was broken but the bruising would be deep. He gave me a small white pill and a glass of water and told Lugard to make sure I slept. Then he packed his bag and left without small talk and the apartment went quiet.
Lugard brought food without asking. Bread, cheese, a few slices of apple. He set the plate on the coffee table in front of me and sat in the chair across the room and waited.
I ate because my body wanted it even when I didn't. I picked at the bread first, then the cheese, and by the time I reached the apple I realized I was properly hungry in a way I hadn't noticed until something was in front of me.
Lugard watched me eat and didn't pretend he wasn't.
"You've been watching me since the garage," I said.
"I'm making sure you don't pass out."
"I'm not going to pass out."
"You couldn't feel your feet forty minutes ago," he said. "Eat the apple."
I ate the apple.
When the plate was empty I pulled the blanket tighter around my shoulders and looked at him across the coffee table. The ruined coat was gone. He'd changed into dark trousers and a grey shirt with the sleeves pushed up and there was still a streak of dried mud along his jaw that he clearly didn't know about.
"I should find a hotel," I said.
"Tonight?"
"Yes, tonight. I can't stay here."
"You have a bruised hip, scratches on your neck, and there's a storm outside that just put your car on its roof," he said. "Where exactly are you going to go tonight?”
"I'll figure something out."
"Eva."
"I don't know you, Lugard. You pulled me out of a car and that was a good thing, a generous thing, and I'm grateful for it. But I can't stay in a stranger's apartment."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't know you," I said again.
"You know I stopped," he said. "You know I stayed. You know I didn't leave you in that ditch."
I looked at him. He said it simply, without trying to convince me of anything, and that was the thing that got me. If he had pushed I would have fought back. But he just said it like a fact and left it there.
I didn't argue.
"Why does it matter to you," I said instead. "Whether I eat. Whether I sleep. You don't owe me anything."
He thought about it for a moment, genuinely, like it was a real question worth a real answer. "You were alone in that car. Driving in a storm with nowhere to go on the worst night of your life. And when I asked if there was someone I should call, you made a sound."
"What kind of sound?"
"The kind that means there isn't anyone."
I looked down at my hands. The knuckles were scraped from where I had been gripping the steering wheel when the car spun.
"He had the papers ready before I even knew," I said. "Two weeks he walked around our house like everything was normal. I was putting money aside every week to buy him a birthday gift."
Lugard said nothing.
"I left the watch on his dresser when I packed. An expensive watch I saved four months for. I just left it there." I shook my head. "I don't even know why I'm telling you that."
"Because it matters," he said. "And you haven't had anyone to say it to tonight."
That was true. I hadn't called anyone. I hadn't even thought about calling anyone because there was no one to call. My closest friend was the woman who had been sleeping with my husband. My family was in Paris. And Ken had made it very clear in the five years of our marriage that his world was the one that counted.
"You should sleep," Lugard said.
"Every time I close my eyes I see his face. The way he stood in the doorway and watched me pack like he was waiting for me to hurry up so he could get back to his evening."
Lugard stood up and crossed the room and sat on the couch. He leaned forward with his elbows on his knees and looked at me directly.
"Then don't close your eyes," he said. "Talk to me."
"About what?"
"The watch. Tell me why you picked that one."
It was such a specific question. Not 'tell me about your marriage' or 'how did you meet him' or any of the things people usually asked. Just the watch. And something about the specificity of it cracked something open in my chest.
So I talked.
I told him about the jeweler's window on Fifth Avenue. The six times I walked past before I finally went in. I told him about Ken's habit of losing things and how I thought if I gave him something beautiful enough, something chosen with enough patience, he might hold onto it. I told him about the man behind the counter who had let me put it on hold and come back every two weeks to check on it while I saved.
Lugard listened to all of it without interrupting once. Without checking his phone or glancing at the window or doing anything except sitting there and giving me his full attention in a way that Ken had stopped doing so long ago I had forgotten what it felt like to have it.
My voice slowed.
The sentences got further apart.
I stopped mid-word and didn't notice until I woke up and the blanket was tucked properly around me and the plate was gone from the table and the room was dark except for the city light coming through the glass.
Lugard was in the chair across the room. Awake. Watching the city.
He didn't know I was looking at him.
I watched this stranger who had pulled me from a ditch and carried me up a muddy slope and sat up all night in a chair to make sure I was breathing, and I thought that I had been married for five years to a man who had never once done anything half as simple as that.
I closed my eyes.
This time, Ken's face didn't come.