I floated between business sharks successfully all day. I was happy, I held my agreement negotiations with Mr. Alex Maste and his lawyers. I saw he was attracted to me, that distracted him a lot in our negotiations. That pleased me, because I could defeat his lawyers easily. Shame he somehow managed to gather himself in the end. That made me concede some points of our agreement. But he did nothing to show his attraction to me directly. Good, because we shouldn’t mix business with private things.
F**k! Am I really so frightening! That made me mad instantly and I smashed the pen across the wall.
Yes, I was a business woman. Yes, I was the head of all this empire. Yes, somehow everybody was afraid of me. No men approached me as a woman, but only as a man. Maybe it was respect for my work done already to hold this empire. Bullshit! They all did not want to see me as a woman!
I sat in my office chair, turned it to the city and watched the city lights. Was there really nobody for me in this whole big city? Nobody who could really want me, not benefits from my business empire? How come men in high positions are good catches, even for one night-stand, but women? Never!
This wasn't fair! Yes, I could get one-night stands in bars incognito, but not in places where I was recognized. Sadly! Men were afraid of my success in business. Their ego was damaged because I could manage my business better than they could. And they could hardly coexist with that. I could not imagine 10 years ago that my business would wipe off my normal personal life completely.
I know that, if I was demanding form my staff, they thought that I was angry because of lack of s*x in my life. I know that the inscription in the women's bathroom door “b***h” was for me. Yes, I was demanding. But it’s the only way things can be done! Properly!
How come this Alex Maste made me think about my lately miserable personal life. I need some relaxation. Just to feel myself as a woman. Desirable woman. Wanted.
I looked one more time to the city beneath me, like a queen to my empire's inhabitants. I took my woman's balls in my fists and made my decision strictly. I can be just a woman in one place only. I left my office and headed to my apartment to change for the night. I can do this. I can be just a woman to somebody.