Left Me Broken

Chapter 1

Love gives you a blissful life until you find yourself deep within the feelings that could bring you to the destruction you would never want to imagine.

I walked towards the study room and pushed open the door. The dim light was coming from the small lamp set on the table. I stepped inside and spotted him sitting in a large chair near the table.

“ I’m busy right now," his husky voice stopped me. I couldn't see his face clearly because of the darkness in the room.

“ I thought you would be tired after the dinner party so--” I was cut off.

“ I have a lot of work, Ash, please go and sleep."

I moved towards him and noticed he had an empty glass in his hand. Was he drinking? His gaze was fixed on the laptop before him but his mind seemed off.

I glanced at his handsome face and reached my hands to smooth the worry lines on his forehead. Before I could touch him, he stood and turned towards me. For a brief moment I forgot how to breathe. It still felt like a dream to me that I was Zach Collins’s wife. The man who moved my heart everytime I saw him. The man who turned every dream of my eyes true. The man who loved me more than anyone could love anybody. His hair tousled gave me a clear impression of my husband’s tiredness which he denied earlier very easily. His brown eyes travelled through my eyes to down my lips. I inhaled and closed the distance between us. I pressed my lips against his and kissed him lovingly.

“ Don't want to go now?" I asked again without taking my eyes off of him.

“ Want to but can't," he replied in his sexy voice.

I bit back my smile as I watched him struggle to make a choice.

“ Okay... okay, just finish your work and come back soon. I’m going to sleep now." I pressed my hands against his chest to push him back on the chair.

I came out of the room and crossed the corridor. Before going to my bedroom I walked into my son's room. One glance at him filled my heart with so much joy and happiness. Harvey, my son, had been sleeping peacefully on his small baby blue bed which was specifically designed for him. I pulled the blanket over his shoulder and caressed his silky black hair. He looked like an angel who came into my life to make it happier than ever. After Harvey was born, I felt like I was completed and had everything in my life that from now on I would want anything from God. My son was going to be three years old next month and Zach and I had already made so many plans to celebrate it. I glanced at the table and found Zach had left his cell phone in Harvey's room. I took the cell phone and went into the kitchen to make him a cup of coffee.

I poured the coffee into the cup and reached near my husband's study room. But suddenly I heard some weird voices coming right from the room. My heart started hammering and I went still as I heard the sound of slapping the bare skin together, sounds of moans and groans out of pleasure. The door was opened ajar and although I was standing at a distance I could see a man and woman having s*x on the chair near the lamp. My mind stopped working as I constantly denied the fact that my husband was cheating on me right after I walked away from him. It was barely seven to eight minutes before I had met him. So it was the most important work he wanted to finish, to f**k a woman behind my back. I could clearly hear their voices as they enjoyed whatever they were doing. They were encouraging each other and it became unbelievable and unbearable for me to hold myself there. I didn't realise when the cup slipped from my hand and I slump down near the pillar. How could he do this to me? How could he betray me like this? I stood up placing my hand on the pillar to get myself support. I decided to ask him those questions and

confront him for the horrible things he was doing right now. My head was throbbing and my heart was breaking into a million pieces. Suddenly nausea hit me and I ran towards the bathroom near the kitchen to throw up. I threw up all the dinner I had. I was crying miserably and throwing up at the same time. I felt like I was dead and there was no energy left inside my body. I dragged myself outside of the bathroom and my head was spinning. I held my head and suddenly my eyes caught something I couldn't believe. The woman I spotted walking out of my husband's study room was my sister, Helly. She swirled around to face him and assured him ,“ Don't worry I won't tell anyone about this."

This was too much to handle for me. I can't voice any of the things I want to scream at him right now. Everything around me turned out dark and foggy. I tried to step forward but my body didn't cooperate with me. Everything started to revolve around me and soon darkness engulfed me completely.

I woke up with a broken heart and a messed up head. I glanced around and found myself in my bedroom. What happened last night was a nightmare? How could I come here? Did somebody bring me? No, whatever I had faced last night definitely was the worst nightmare I had ever encountered. Zach would never cheat on me. And on the top of that why would Helly, my best friend, my step sister would betray me like that?

Maggie walked into my bedroom and smiled a little as she noticed I had woken up.

“ Good morning, mrs. Collin," she greeted me as she placed a tray on the table. “ Please take these medicines. Mr. Collin has instructed me to give you this for your better health. If you want, I would book an appointment with your doctor."

“ No thanks Maggie, I am fine," I replied and asked her the question which was bugging my head. “ Where was I last night? I mean as I remembered I wasn't in my bedroom.”

“ Mr. Collin found you on the floor near the kitchen. You were unconscious so he took you and brought you back to the room."

My eyes started to well up and my whole world began to crumble. So last night every single thing was true. The worst nightmare turned into a part of my life and burnt my every happiness along with my love. My unfaithful husband and my treacherous step sister were screwing each other. I had never treated her like a step sibling. When my father married her mom, I tried hard to adjust with his new family. But look what I got in return! My every heartbeat caused so much pain I could not breath properly. It was not a physical hurt but the pain I was feeling was far worse than that of. Zach and I, we had an arranged marriage fixed by our fathers. Zach’s dad Matthew Collins and my dad were best friends from college despite their social and status differences. We are not rich but the Collins belonged to a billionaire family. I was going to marry a billionaire but I wasn't happy until I met him for the first time during our first date. I fell in love with him as I felt my search for love came to an end after meeting him. When we got married I was so happy that I could not explain. Although Zach wasn't so happy with the marriage but soon I created a place in his heart for me. Our wedding meant so much for me and I had put a lot of effort into making our arranged marriage work. I thought back over our relationship, trying to see if there had been any signs of Zach cheating on me, but I couldn't find anything. For a week, he seemed distressed for something but it was not new because he had a lot of work pressure. I could not think it was because he had an affair with my step sister. Did they have a relationship the whole time? I would be an i***t to believe that he just lost his mind last night and screwed up our marriage.

I cleared my throat and asked, “ Where was Zach last night?"

Maggie shrunk her brows and looked at me for a second. I knew it felt so weird that I investigated him when nowadays I was so much busy spending time only to take care of our son Harvey.

“ I don't know when I got here he was giving instructions to your sister Helly to take care of you for him as he had to leave early this morning, " she responded and quickly added, “ He will be here soon if you want to talk to him."

“ Where’s Harvey?" I managed to ask without any sob.

“ He is not at home. He went with his grandparents," Maggie replied.

I got up from my bed and started packing my stuff into a bag. Tears were streaming down my eyes and I wanted to leave this place before I would have to face him again. But how could I do that? My heart wasn't listening to me. One part of me wanted to leave as soon as possible but the other part of me was craving for an explanation from my husband, giving him a chance to tell his side of the story. One part of me forced me to forgive him if he would repent for his mistake and swore not to do this again, because he was the father of my son. Harvey didn't deserve this. He was only two years old and I didn't want him to spend his childhood without one of his parents. Because I wasn't sure if I could live without Zach.

Maggie informed me that Zach had arrived and I went to him. He was sitting in the living room. His mother Jennifer and father Matthew Collins were not at home. He glanced up and his eyes met mine.

“ Why did you do that to me?" I asked with a muffled tone.

He frowned and said, “ You are not looking fine. Why haven't you visited the doctor?"

“ Stop pretending like nothing happened," I screamed at him.

He got up abruptly and grabbed my shoulder, “ What happened?"

I jerked his hand away from me and cried, “ Why in the world did you cheat on me, Zach? Why?"

“ What the hell are you saying, Ash?" Zach raged.

Helly entered the room holding a file in her hand and stopped midway as her eyes fell on my miserable looks.

“ Oh what a timing, Helly! Did you sleep well after screwing up a married man?" I spat sarcastically. Her eyes widened as she looked shocked and shaken. But she covered it quickly as her eyes diverted to my husband. She faked an innocent voice and asked, “ What are you trying to say, sister?"

I laughed bitterly and swallowed up my tears. “ Have you really considered me a sister for once since our parents got married? If you do, you aren't spreading your legs before my husband to screw him up. You both have betrayed me." I turned to face Zach and asked him, “ Wasn't I enough for you that you went for my sister? Why did you cheat on me? For how long you guys are doing this behind my back. For God’s sake we have a son. If not for me, couldn't you consider how you would be able to face him after doing that?”

“ Shut up Ash, I had nothing to do any of that you are accusing me of. And if you don't stop now, I won't bear that." Zach’s angry voice boomed in the room. I cried in pain and opened my mouth to say something but he cut me off, “ One more word and you will not be staying here at my place.”

I couldn't believe my ears Zach had said those words. Instead of asking for forgiveness he threatened to throw me out.

“ You don't need to threaten me because I have already decided to leave you. I thought maybe you would have asked for forgiveness. You would have realized your mistakes. You would be ready to repent for what you have done. But you know what you don't deserve me. I want a divorce."

I ran out of his house ignoring their voices calling me back. I ran away from the life I thought was real but it turned out to be only a fake one.