Finding Yourself

XX

Carter Thompson

I threw my phone and groaned in frustration. How could Keeylah leave me like that?

Thank God, my parents were on a business trip because I was about to f**k s**t up.

I've been nothing but faithful to her good ass, & I loved her. But obviously she didn't love me if she'd go head and treat me like s**t.

After everything we've been through she decides to LEAVE me? What sucks the most is that her ass ain't even have the nerve to come up to me face to face & spit this bullshit.

I mean, she's mentioned breaking up with me before but I thought she was joking. I sound like a complete b***h right now. If Keeylah didn't want to be with me. Fine then, f**k her ass too then.

I dropped down to my knees and held my head in my head.

Why is all I could think of & possible scenarios but nothing crossed my mind.

Man, you bitches ain't s**t and f**k a hoe. Time for get money and f**k bitches. I walked downstairs, and grabbed my keys. I needed a blunt.

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Keeylah Mason

After hours of driving, I got tired and I had ended up in Florida. Jacksonville to be exact. Now, I had no idea what I was gonna do.

That sudden feeling in my throat was back and I threw back up the pancakes from IHOP I bought earlier that morning.

I had about $700 left from all the birthday money, communion, and Christmas.

I had no idea what was wrong with me. Every time I ate, I threw it back up. It's been going on for days now.

My mind wandered back to that night with Carter & then I remembered we didn't use a condom.

Shit s**t s**t s**t. I couldn't raise a baby in this the condition. My mind turned to abortion but I was gonna have to get a parents signature and from now on, I don't have any parents.

I was parked in front a motel that was next to a convenient store. I gathered the courage to leave my car and head to the convenient store.

As I walked in, I thought about how I was gonna raise a baby in such harsh conditions. I had no stable living area and no job.

I wasn't gonna resort to hoeing around. But maybe my only option was stripping. I sighed as I grabbed the pregnancy test from the shelf.

I went the cashier and rang it up.

"25.00" the cashier dryly said. I smacked my teeth.

"You got any cheaper ones?" I spat. I needed to minimize the amount of cash I use because this was my only stack for a while until I found a job.

The lady rolled her eyes and took one cheap looking pregnancy test from the back.

"How much?" I asked.

"7.55" she smacked her gum. I pulled out a ten from my purse and took my change & my test.

I walked to their bathroom and followed the directions.

I wanted to know now so I know how I'm gonna bring up my child & where.

5 minutes later, the test beeped.

I looked down at and the test & sad smiled.

I was pregnant.

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