Chapter 1
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Everything just doesn’t feel so right. It’s not right, really.
This guy that i’m dancing with its not right. He’s not good at dancing.
I stopped dancing with him and go back to my friends who’s just getting wasted.
“Hey where’s the guy you’re dancing with?” asked Niña
“I left him, he’s not good” i said.
“Di naman gwapo yun eh” said Keana
“Hahahah true let’s find you another one” said Kharra
“No, kayo nalang i want to drink” i said
Keana and Kharra left the table and me and Niña are the only ones left. I wonder where are my other friends. Probably out there kissing some guys.
“You alright?” Niña asked
“I’m fine, just wanna get drunk today” i said
“No boys then? hahaha” niña laughingly said
“No, f**k them”
Me and niña are so close we both had been cheated on a year ago.
*Flashback*
Everyone has been eyeing me a lot. I think many people have already known i was cheated on many times.
But ako tanga, i just shoved it off because i know that he’s gonna change.
But one day her girl suddenly asked to talk to me, personally. So we talked. We agreed that i can have him and she was so sorry about everything and it was all her fault.
Me and my boyfriend were good at that time but actually they never stopped texting and seeing each other.
“Let’s break up” i said
“Okay” He said
“Just like that? and Okay? wtf? are you even real?”
Without any answer he left. After an hour they were together.
“I told you to stop na diba?” Niña said “Why didn’t you listen to me max?”
“I thought he was gonna change” i said
“Boys like him don’t change” Niña said
*Flashback end*
“Max? you sure you’re alright?” niña asked
“Yeah i’m good. Ikaw? are you okay?” i asked back
“You know things are hard lately and i know what you feel but let’s loosen up. f**k them” Niña said
“True let’s get wasted tonight” i said
True to my words my friends got really wasted, i never drink too much because i know my grandma would smell me.
I found jeck near our table trying to get the guy. I laugh knowing that he won’t.
“Hey jeck come” i said nearly shouting
“Bwesit ka i’m busy” jeck said half mad
“Alright” i said laughing
Me and niña laugh at jeck’s reaction. He’s always like that. But we love him. But he loves his boys more
“Where’d you think keana and kharra is now?” i asked niña
“Heaven” niña said
“what?” i laughed
“Well you know keana she can get any boy she wants. Kharra is probably out there dancing” niña said
“right” i said. I know we can also get a boy that we want but it’s just it. Niña is low-key, i am too right?
We have a motto it is “Flirt and forget” well it was keana’s idea though but it’s true in order for us to not get hurt we should leave first.
My friends got home safely so did i. Good thing my grandma is fast asleep. I would really get killed if i would get caught.
Lying in bed, i just cant help but to think about my life. How f****d up my life is. I just want everything to end.
I’ve been suicidal ever since. But i never really do it, i was scared i can’t leave my friends. They are all i have. They are my true home.
I wondered is there gonna be a time where i can’t feel pain anymore? I’m helpless.
Morning came and i all i can hear is my grandma’s voice. This is what i don’t want to wake up to. I know she’s always mad at me. But i don’t know why.
“Lola why?” i asked
“You’re so lazy i told you to clean the sala right?” she said
“I already did” i said
“No you didn’t. can’t you see it’s still dirty?”
“it’s dirty because you ate there” i said
“This is the reason why i hate you. if only you could do better in your job i would’ve been mad. If i die it is all your fault” she said.
Even if she hates me, i always forgive them for everything. For everything that they’ve done to me it’s fine. I can handle the pain. I already did though for 19 years now.
I cleaned the sala again and also the kitchen and her bedroom. That was what i did the whole morning. Lunch came and my lola got off with her driver to the resort. A resort that she owned. I run upstairs and took a bath. I want to go out with my friends. I can’t stand it here.
All my friends are at Baner’s house. That’s where we usually hangout. I immediately rode the tricycle and went there.
“Hey anong ganap today?” i asked soon as i arrived.
“Wala chill lang” Baner said.
We started to reminisce everything that has happened last night. But what did they really do last night?
- Writer
