Camilla I started a voluntary work at an orphanage here in London, I did it because I care for those kids and also because I have... I need to remind myself that I'm doing this, that I'm here because of my kid. Landon kicked against the idea of working, especially after I almost miscarried the baby, but I told him that I needed to do this, I need to keep my mind occupied, to channel my guilt to a good cause maybe then my heart won't be aching too much. "Try using the red crayon," I suggested to the sulking kid sitting next with me "white also goes perfectly well with red, maybe you should try it out then watch it's outcome." She picked up the red crayon, stared at it for few minutes, contemplating if she's making the right choice, at the end, her doubts won "Miss Claudia told me that

