My Best Friend

Looking Towards You

Jungkook POV

Do you know the feeling when the person you are in love with is right infront of your eyes.

You can look at him all day without letting him know that you are madly in love with him. The tingling butterflies in your tummy when he catches your hand. The nervousness when he sits right next to you. The fastest heart beats when he hugs you.

Gosh these feelings will kill me someday .

And the killer is him.

My Kim Taehyung .

Have you ever seen such a beautiful angel in your life? I guess not. At least I haven't. He is an ethereal beauty.

My childhood friend , My best friend and My lifetime crush. He is the one who know me inside out. What I like, what I hate. My hobbies, My secrets. My whole life story except for the fact that he is my life. The only thing that no one knows, not even my life long best friend.

I'm gay and I have this huge crush on him since like forever. I mean who won't have crush on him right? All the girls in the university are dying to be his girlfriend even some boys are after him. He gets lots of chocolates, flowers and love letters almost everyday. And I envy them cause I can't do that. I can't confess to him. I'm really afraid that he might leave me if he knows my feelings for him.

Guess I'm never confessing him in this life.

Hi ! My name is Jeon Jungkook. Kookie if you prefer.

I'm originally from Busan but currently living in Seoul with my family. I love singing, dancing and games. I really love to win. Because when I win, my best friend comes running to me and hugs me tightly like there is no tomorrow. He cheers for me till his throat hurts and loves to hold my trophies. He says they are precious to him with a big boxy smile.

Someday this angelic smile will kill me. Like literally I will die from just a smile. I just love his lips...

I mean smile...

Definitely smile, not lips.

Today is really special because today is sports day and I'm participating as always. But that's not what's special. The special thing is my best friend, who is sitting right in front of me in the bleachers cheering and clapping for me. And if I win this race, which I always do, he will come running towards me and hug me tightly in his embrace. The only thing I have been dying to win through this race. It's not like he don't hug me

But this is especial.

Ready ...

Set....

Go...

The race started and everyone run with full speed. I was running like the fast and furious bunny from our childhood tales. I so wanted to win this race. Everybody screamed , cheered and clapped.

0f course not to mention my Taetae cheering his heart out for me. This is the precious moment I live for. I ran as fast as possible and there right in front of me I saw the finish line. And here I go.

The winner is Jeon Jungkook.

The crowd went crazy. They gave me golden medal and put it around my neck. The crowd just still screaming my name. Every body came running towards me. Everyone was happy and congratulated me. But I didn't see the face I was waiting to see where is he.

Kookie.....

A sound came from behind me. I looked towards the sound and there he was. He came running towards me with a bright boxy smile arms opened wide to pull me into his embrace. He pulled me into his embrace and hugged me tightly. If there is heaven some where this is it.

This is the heaven for me. Being in his arms makes me feel heaven. We pulled out of the hug. He ruffled my hair and joined our foreheads.

" I'm so proud of you Kookie. "

"Thanks Taetae "

" Let's go party. " I nodded and pulled out the medal from my neck. He smiled more widely looking at me. I pulled him towards me and put the medal around his neck.

"Here you go. Another medal for you Taetae. "

"Thank you so so much Kookie. It means a lot. "

Time Skip

" Cheers "

The sound of clinking the glass and loud applause was heard all around the cafeteria. Everybody was celebrating. We were having a small party with our friends.

" Tell me Kook why do you always give your medals to Tae ? If you don't want it may be you can give it to us too. Why always him?" Yoongi asked.

" Because its mine. Now suck it up . You ain't getting any of my medals in this life. " Tae teased showing off his medal.

" Your medals? " Jin said raising his eyes brows. " I think its Jungkookie how he worked hard to earn this medal. And you simply stole it. "

"Yaa... It's mine . He won it for me. I didn't steal it. He gifted it to me. There is big difference. " He said with a pout.

"Don't you think his hard earned trophies should be with him. I mean your whole room is full of his medals. It should be in his room not yours. " Jin said eating the last piece of pizza.

" You are just jealous hyung that Namjoonie hyung doesn't give you his medals and Kookie does. My best friend is better than your boyfriend. "

" Yaa... Kim Taehyung ! I'm your elder brother. Show some respect. " Jin hyung got up the chair and shouted like always. Joonie hyung grabbed him and pulled back on the chair.

"Its okay Jinnie. You know my love is more valuable than any medal. " Namjoon hugged him tightly. They are actually really sweet lovey dovey couple. I looked on my right just to see a frowning pouting tiger starring at his brother with furious eyes. If his eyes were some laser he would make a hole right through him.

" It's okay Taetae. My all trophies belongs to you." He smiled and hugged me again.

" Tell me Kook , are you in love with him? " Yoongi said and I choked on my drink. Tae patted my back and starred at him.

" Yaa... Yoongi hyung. We are best friends not couples. We are straight . We are into girls not gays. "

"But you both act like one. " Namjoon said.

" Check your eyes gays. We are the only ones who are into girls in our group. " Tae frowned.

" May be you should check your brain first Einstein. Coz from where I see you both look cute together. Kookie is totally whipped for you Taebear." Jin hyung said and I blushed hard on his words. I looked at him. He was starring at me with wide eyes.

" Of... Of course I will be whipped for him... He is my best friend after all. "

I lied. Not the part that he is my best friend but I'm whipped for him more then just a best friend.

" See we are just best friends. And I will prove it to you."

"How will you prove it? " Jin hyung asked raising his eyes.

"I'm gonna ask out Lisa tomorrow. " He said and my smile fade away. Everybody was silent now.

" Your really gonna ask her out? " Namjoon asked.

" Yes. Oh I can't wait to make her mine. I have been preparing this for a while now. And tomorrow I will do it." His each and every words were perching my heart like an arrow. My heart was aching hard and it could burst any second. I was trying to control myself really hard. Tears were forming in my eyes but I can't shed it and show it to him.

" I will be back. Need to go washroom. " I said and rushed to the washroom not giving any chance for them to answer. Everybody was looking at me. I went straight to the washroom and cried my heart out by the sink. Not giving a damn to who was around me. A pair of hands patted my back. I looked up to see who was it. It was Yoongi hyung. He rubbed my back and gave me a tight smile.

" H-hyung, ah, Just something went in my eyes." I tried to lie to him but he pulled me into a tight hug. I couldn't hold my tears and cried out loud on his embrace. After a while when I relaxed I opened my eyes not breaking the hug. I saw Namjoon hyung by the door grabbing the handle to prevent anybody to enter. I pulled out of the hug. Eyes still down the floor.

" I think you should talk to him Kook. "

"No hyung , I can't risk our friendship for my stupid feelings." I said wiping my eyes.

"It's not stupid Kook. You love him. It's him who is stupid to not see that. "

"He is straight hyung . I can't aspect him to accept my feelings. I can't lose him."

" It's okay Kook. Just know we are always with you no matter what." Namjoon hyung said and patted my back. " Now wash your face and come to the cafe. Or they will find out. " I nodded and washed my face. I looked at the mirror and his words were still roaming around my mind. "

We are best friends not couples

we are just best friends

I'm gonna ask out Lisa tomorrow.

So tomorrow it is. The day when I will lose my first love .

Tomorrow