OWNING
2220 Words
Jealousy was never my cup of tea. But seeing you with someone else made me wish for a meteor shower above your head.
***Sasi***
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Daniels and Jose’ checked us in with a two-bed room in the hotel beach resort. The wall was painted white, with a small lanai at the front which was facing the ocean so the cool breeze was giving the room an airy fresh ambiance.
As I was lying peacefully in my bed and now playing mobile games, Raki comes out of the bathroom and stands before the full-length mirror.
It is past six in the evening, and we just had dinner after a whole day of playing all day by the beach. He is wearing a simple black round-necked sleeveless tank top showing his bulky biceps, and loose red board shorts.
"Where are you going?"
I asked curiously.
"At the beach party, George invited us to remember?"
He replied shortly.
"And you're going alone? What about me?"
"What about you? I thought you said you're not a party person?"
He looked at me sideways with one brow turned up.
"You're leaving me here alone?"
This man is unbelievable.
"Why? Do you need anything else? or.. You'll miss me?"
He said smiling, teasing me.
"What?! No way!"
"Okay, I'll ask for a night off then, would you mind? I just want a little drink. Besides, Daniels’ room is on the left, and Jiro with Jose’ is on the right. Just scream or knock on their doors."
I felt a little guilty after he said that. He's right, it's not as if I own him or something. He's been pretty tied up with me from the moment we left Thailand, all of them actually, so a few hours alone won't hurt right?
But it bothers me that he’s going there alone.
“Why? Are they not coming with you?”
“No, who will keep an eye on you then?”
He throws a glance at me while combing his hair.
“Well, I’m okay here, I think I will be fine.”
“No, I prefer not to leave you alone at all times.”
He answered facing me and staring a little bit longer which gets me fidgeting.
“If there’s nothing more, I will be going now.”
"Ugh! Sure, enjoy yourself."
I replied not even giving him a glimpse as he walks towards the door and closing it lightly behind him.
An hour later…
Yes, I am not a party person, and yes, I don't like crowds, but what the hell am I doing here?
finding myself standing motionless beside a coconut tree in the far end of the beach party being held in front of the beach resort. I was secretly looking at the crowd of people dancing cheerfully and was searching for someone. I sneaked out of my room silently and it seems like no one of my security noticed me leaving.
The bamboo hut-designed bar was situated at the center of the beach, while tables and chairs were scattered around the place.
There was a bonfire flickering in the middle, reggae music I didn't recognize was playing in the air and a fire dancer was dancing with an amazing routine.
Hindi naman ako nagmamadali
Natatakot lang ako na baka ay mahuli
Ayokong magsisi na hindi ko nasabi
Habang ang puso mo ay wala pang may ari
I scanned a couple of people who were dancing, drinking, sitting, kissing, and laughing scattered all around the place. Some are even making out at the dimly lit corners.
Oo nais kong mabuksan
Pinto ng iyong puso
Para sayo ay gagawin ang lahat
Makamit lamang ang pagibig mo
Then I saw Raki, seated there on one of the wood benches. The light from the bonfire gave him a soft warm glow. He was holding a bottle of beer in one hand and was talking gleefully at George.
His eyes were curved like half-moons as his lips were torn into a big goofy smile. I wondered what they were talking about that made him laugh heartily like that. The gentle gestures of their hands were slowly tearing my guts apart. I felt a sting of pain in my chest and each passing second that I watched their happy faces was like a dagger piercing steadily in my heart.
What is this f*****g feeling?
First you hit on Nami, then that Lulu girl on your dreams, and now this George who is as sexy as f**k?
Kung ikay akin dito ka saking tabi
Nais kong mayakap ka bawat araw at gabi
Aaminin ko na rin na ako'y may pagtingin
Wag ka sanang mainis kung masyadong mabilis
It hurts to see him being close to someone else other than me.
I don't like seeing him laughing with girls like that. I want to wipe that wide smile off his f*****g face!
Go and get your man…
Eimy, my inner demon whispered in my ear, and I admit it was very tempting.
He’s not my man!
After so much deliberation, I decided to join the fun. Inhaling a lot of courage, and driven by jealousy-
Wait wut? jealous? Who? Me? excuse me! I'm not jealous! It's just that, I also want a drink.
Yeah right, suit yourself -Eimy
Wala naman akong masamang intensyon sayo
Nais ko lang naman ay konting atensyon mo
At ang tanging hangad ko lang
Ay iyong kaligayahan
Na hindi magbabago magpakailan man
He looked up at me dumbfoundedly as I stood beside him with a grim face. My eyes were fixed on the dancing half-drunk people.
"Sasi! what are you doing here? what happened?"
He asked standing up instantly and holding me by the shoulders.
"I get bored, that's what happened."
I said taking a seat between him and George.
Oo nais kong mabuksan
Pinto ng iyong puso
Para sayo ay gagawin ang lahat
Makamit lamang ang pagibig mo
I came to the decision to play my cards right. I'll play this game of yours, motherfucker! I don’t have any idea why I am feeling so furious now but yes, I am highly irritated, and I have no plans of finding out the reason now. My attention was focused on distracting them.
"Raki, could you get me a drink please. Brandy, on the rocks."
I said confidently, playing that sassy role I played on one of my commercials, even though I'm a weak drinker, I hope I could pull this off, just for tonight,
Raki hesitantly looked at me again before leaving and getting what I asked for.
Kung ikay akin dito ka saking tabi
Nais kong mayakap ka bawat araw at gabi
Aaminin ko na rin na ako'y may pagtingin
Wag ka sanang mainis kung masyadong mabilis
"Hi George, how's it going?"
I smiled at her sweetly, thinking, I will get this girl off my way by hook or by crook. You can't have him b***h. He's my thaat.
George and I hit it easily, as we talked a lot about our careers and the latest trends, she shared some tips about modeling, and I gave her some advice on how to land a role in acting. We were so engrossed talking that I didn't even notice Raki getting back and handing me over a glass of Brandy with a couple of ice cubes.
Well now
This is what is on my mind
Ill never gonna make you cry
Promise di kita iiwan habang buhay
I will love you day and night
I just wanna make you mine
This is for real no lie until i die
The song in the background continued as I gently swayed through the beat.
I took a sip and the cold liquid ripped through my throat like a burning fire made me wince.
I endured the uncomfortable smell of it and pushed myself to show Raki that I am not a weak drinker, and I could get along with George easily.
He just sat there quietly beside me, just watching the dance and joining in our conversation every now and then.
Kung ika'y akin dito ka saking tabi
Nais kong mayakap ka bawat araw at gabi
Aaminin ko na rin na ako'y may pagtingin
Wag ka sanang mainis kung masyadong mabilis
A couple of minutes later and I felt my neck getting stiff from having to look at George's direction for a long time. I slowly tipped my head left and right to ease the stiffness.
When suddenly, I felt his warm hand behind my shoulder blades. Creeping up towards my nape, sending tiny shivers through the soft cotton fabric of my shirt into my skin. He gently massaged the back of my neck, making me want to close my eyes with the sensation.
"Sasi, wanna dance?"
George asked me suddenly which I didn't get the chance to react as she pulls me up, got the glass out of my hand then hand it over to an equally dumbfounded Raki.
She got me into the middle of the crowd and started dancing in a hearty mood. The upbeat music and the brandy taking effect now gave me the courage to disregard the people and dance with her in the only way I know. If this is a different situation, I would have panicked but as I was half drunk, half pissed off, the suffocating feeling of being surrounded by strangers was drowned out.
The music suddenly changed to something slower. Everyone around screamed in unison and began dancing in a very provocative manner.
What was happening?
The music is Electric upbeat but sexy. I think I remember this music, The Magic Mike Xxl Ost!.
I always stumble upon it online as the majority of my co-players were men, one or two played this song while on the game.
George became a little bolder, placed her hands on my shoulder and putting mine into her waist as she grinds in front of me. She is so sexy in that midriff orange blouse and short dolphin shorts.
When out of nowhere, a man snatched me off George’s arms and started grinding in front of me. I was left in awe as I stared at him dancing like a bar prostitute, I almost laughed but grin instead. I imagine Raki dancing like this and I find it utterly sexy.
With that in mind, my eyes darted to where Raki was and oh boy, he glowered at me. His face was so dark, his furrowed brows slightly turning up as he realized that I was looking back. His gaze on me so intent that it made my knees weak. I could almost see the angry veins in his hands as he gripped the beer rather tightly.
My attention went back to the man who was now behind me, grinding his crotch on my ass and I felt goosebumps crawled my skin as I felt a bump poking behind my ass cheeks.
When out of nowhere, a big hand gripped my right wrist tightly and pulled me away from the man whom I didn't get the chance to see know the name.
Raki dragged me painfully towards the hotel building, leaving the crowd instantly and I couldn't even say a word due to dizziness.
The brandy took effect, and I was left weak. He swung open the door to our room harshly and closed it the same way, then threw me to bed.
"What do you think you're doing out there?"
He yelled furiously at me.
"Ahhh.. dancingg?"
My answer was swayed and tipsy. I smiled at him goofily.
"You call that dancing?! You were making out in public!"
He said louder, anger evident in his voice.
"Why? amm Aiii nott allowed to dooo thaaat?"
"No, You. Are. Not. What if paparazzis are out there?"
"Ahh, you're worriedd abouut mah careehr? noott abboutt me getting laid?"
I spoke my mind bravely. Thanks to the spirit of the alcohol.
"Ookaay, Amm soorry, caan I gett back tooo dannccing noww?"
"No f*****g way!"
He said sternly that made my blood boil in contempt.
"Whyyy!? Youu gett toh flirtt anndd nott me?? don't bee unfairr!”
I yelled in return. Deeply annoyed by his rules and all, I slapped the bed.
“Flirt? Me? With who? Lady, you don’t know what you are saying.”
“You always flirt! You fucckeer!"
I hissed even louder as I grabbed a pillow and threw it at his face.
"What did you say? wanna see how hard of a fucker I am then?"
He said dangerously, making slow paces towards me.
"Bringgg itt onn! Yuu wannt a ppiieecee off mee??"
I taunted, ready for a fight.
"You sure about that? Once I get my hands on that smooth neck of yours, there's no turning back Kana..Your very scent makes me want to f**k you mindlessly."
He breathes in heavily as if in pain, his face now so close to mine I nearly choke on my own gasp.
"I.Am.Not.Afraid. Of.You.Mother.Fucker!"
I stressed each word out with disgust in my voice.
But his reply caught me totally off guard. He launched forward and claimed my lips. He kissed me hungrily, sucking, f*****g my mouth with his lips like a lion on its prey and the little sanity left in me flew into the thin air.
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- Writer
