NOT Your GUARDIAN

DIVING

Sasi looked at me worriedly, but I am not in pain, not in the least. For what I am feeling now is incomparable to any hunger I have ever felt before.

***Raki***

*********

"Please don't look at me like that."

I cannot control myself anymore, those lecherous lips that kept haunting me for days are here in front of me. Softly parted in a way that blows my mind. Just a few inches, I must move forward, so inviting, bewitching me to insanity.

"Look like what?"

Her voice in the softest whisper makes me believe that she is also affected by this closeness, that idea makes my heart even more excited, thrilled even.

My eyes lingered on that drop of blood in her lower lip, it’s really tempting. I want to lick that tiny drop away from her rosy pout, and when she licked it..

then bites her lower fold…

that…

gets me undone..

My rationality disappearing into thin air, another "i don't care anymore" moment.

I launched forward, thinking nothing but heaven waiting on her end. My hands were automatically placed behind her head..

I kissed her hungrily, inflicting all my raging desire into that bone-melting kiss. I have longed for this mouth to be on me, thinking about these past few days of torture and those troubled sleepless nights. I can't take it anymore; I can't deny myself any longer of the pleasure I can only find in this sweet sweet lustrous lips of her.

I sucked out all the left-over blood on her mouth, tickled by its tangy-bitter taste blended with the sugary taste of Sasi. I could care less about the venom. My body is numb to all sensations apart from her lips kissing me back with the same passion as I am giving. She kissed back greedily, yearning for more, and I deepened the kiss even more. Giving her access to everything inside my mouth…

Yes, I am yours, claim me. I have been waiting.

This pent-up craving started the day after the festival at the plaza. I must admit I have been avoiding the woman for quite a while now because every time I see her, even her shadows remind me of the night I get lost to my frailty. Thou I am unapologetic on what I have done, I was guilty thinking I took advantage of a drunken lady. It was quite shameless of me to do the things that exist only in my imagination. Of course, she would hate me once she gained knowledge of the 'things' that took place in that dimly lit room. And I’m not yet prepared to face her fury. I don't want to lose the trust that I am working so hard to gain.

But she is really giving me a hard time.

Walking about the room with just underwear on, or a skimpy towel around her body, almost every night, I swam in the pool, thinking I could extinguish the raging fire within my soul.

It was a mistake to set up a hidden CCTV inside her room for protection. I got distracted every day thinking about in what state she will be going out of the bathroom next. Or how would she sleep through the night.. Jiro has done a good job angling the camera away from possible explicit scene areas, but the short glimpses of those times have me running for the hills.

I go to sleep at midnight only to find her half-naked with a disarrayed blanket covering half of her tempting bods. I could only see half of her body because the camera was angled towards the window but that was enough to make me hard to the core.

And how am I supposed to ignore her stolen glances towards me? I know she was curious about that day we woke up together in the bed, but I am not yet prepared to tell the story of how we ended up there. Of how I lost my sanity over a few sips of alcohol and her inviting bosom. No, I couldn’t tell her that just yet.

Until one day, Nami called me, not knowing where and how did she get my number. She asked for Sasi’s whereabouts and I almost burst out when I learned why. Apparently, she is interested in her because she’s a lesbian and I am polite enough to answer her questions, taking care not to expose too much information. I even told her that I am Sasi’s brother to keep our cover.

She then asked me if I could persuade Sasi to join her in hiking today. She said it would be her honor to guide us and show the beauty of Batanes island through the summit of one of its great mountains.

I was hesitant at first. Not just because I was being protective and possessive of Sasi, but mainly because I don't think she would like the idea. And besides, I’m against it as well. I want her all for myself.

Thinking I could use some alone time, I volunteered to be in Sasi's place instead. I said she isn't feeling well but to my surprise, she even invited herself into joining. What the hell.

I held my breath the moment she said the words 'Can I join you?', it gave me hope that she might want to hang out with me too, that she miss my presence too.

But who am I kidding? She slapped me with reality. She would never look at me like that. To her, I am still a stranger.

Who am I kidding? To think that she trusts me enough now.

Whatever warmth I see past her eyes weren’t equally true. Maybe she just looked up to me because I could protect her and I am the only one besides my team, who could do that in this foreign land.

What if she joined the hike because of Nami? That not just once I saw her stealing glances towards the lady as well, and the thought irritates me to the bones. I have no idea of her s****l preference, that maybe she likes the muse too. But my insides highly protested the idea. That can’t be. I won’t allow it even if it kills me.

That's why I kept our distance from the others and kept distracting Nami just so she wouldn't have a chance to flirt, not even once on Sasi. I also instructed Daniels and Jiro to keep a watch.

And what have they talked about during the time they changed clothes? Has Nami confessed? Why Sasi looked like she’s irritated with me?

This plan of mine backfired now. The moment she sat in front of me, as I am squeezing the venom out of the wound. I've been frozen, not able to withhold her next action. And when her warm lips touched my skin, I think I could die at the intensity of my repressed passion. I want her instantly, right here, right now.

How appealing it is to have her straddle me and let her rock back and forth atop my aching manhood. How sweet it would be to see her get undone beneath my touch. My vision became blurry with so much lust that I could handle.

Sasi..

Suddenly, I felt her stiffen and pushed me away. Then came a hard blow on my face. She slapped me.

"What are you doing?! You, f*****g moron! How could you?!"

She said angrily. Her face was as red as a tomato, and I could see the pulsating veins on her throat.

I looked up at her in confusion. I thought it was okay. I thought she liked it too.. Then I realized. Yes, to her I am just a stranger.

The hit never shook me, but the pain in my chest was unbearable. I’m such a jerk.

"I'm sorry. It was just on impulse. Sorry."

I said trying to stand up and fixed back my pants to buckle up, hiding my disappointment.

"W-Why did you do that??!"

She stammered. Anxiousness and fear in her voice.

Maybe she was anxious I might say I liked her where in fact she’s bi and liked Nami instead. Maybe… ugh, what should I say? She will hate me if I say I like her. That I longed for her. That I want her to myself. She will want to burn my body if I confess that I have already tasted her sweet lips before.

"I-I’m sorry. I’m not thinking straight because of the snake venom."

I said diverting my eyes and picked up the backpack.

"You d**k, doing inappropriate things in this situation. Hurry up! If you won't die by venom, you would die by my fist!"

She said sternly. No trace of the warm Sasi who was kissing me back moments ago.

The others get back to find us both walking slowly.

"Raki! Sasi, what happened?"

Nami asked worriedly as she saw me limping.

My head is beginning to spin, and my eyes started to get heavy. I think the venom is now taking effect, making me feel disoriented.

"He was bitten by a white snake! Please help."

Sasi said. I might have hallucinated about the glimpse of worry in her voice even though I know she is angry with me.

"How about you? Are you okay?"

Nami turned to her touching her shoulders.

Don't touch her! How dare you…

I cannot even say these words of disagreement.

"Yeah, I am fine. But we need to bring him to the nearest hospital right away."

“What happened Capt.? Have you gone weak now?”

Daniels took me from Sasi and assisted me in walking. I could hear a silent teasing laugh along with my ear, he knew this won’t kill me.

“Let’s hurry up, the Missus is worried. What a lucky jerk, I should’ve been the one to get bitten.”

He murmured and I grinned in reply.

Jiro took all our bags and we continued walking towards the boat.

"Let’s hurry up guys."

Nami turned to the others.

Nami then assisted Sasi while walking. Her arms are on the latter’s waist. I wanted to complain but my mouth was paralyzed.

We loaded in the boat and Nami instructed the driver to fasten our pacing because it was an emergency. I heard the others talk about the snake that bit me being a strongly venomous snake called the Batanes Pit Viper which was unbelievably extinct, and the chances to encounter one of those were extremely slim, well, I guess I'm the unlucky one.

One of the men said that its venom was one of the most lethal among snake species. Sasi who was sitting beside me shuddered upon hearing that, her hand tightened on my arm.

Though I'm with a trained physique and resistance, I could feel the numbness that was slowly creeping up my body from my thigh up to my waist. My head felt really heavy so I leaned on Sasi's shoulder unconsciously, then I closed my eyes to take a little rest. Daniels was on my left but my head chose the softer shoulder to lean on. I’m even surprised she didn't push me away.

"Hang in there, we’re gonna get you to the hospital. Don't you dare to sleep on me bastard."

She whispered through gritted teeth.

"I'm sorry for ruining your first hiking experience."

I whispered back.

"Ugh!, whatever."

I softly chuckled in her annoyance.

The visit in the hospital was a short one, unlike what I expected it to be. I'm quite lucky because Sasi has sucked almost all of the venom, so I was just get injected with an anti-venom vaccine and freed to go. The doctor warned me of the side effect of the vaccine though.

After we came back from the hospital, I immediately went up to my side of the room. I suddenly felt so exhausted that I collapsed on the bed and fallen into a deep sleep.

_______________________________

It was nearly dark, in the middle of the marketplace. I looked up in the sky, holding the hands of someone I truly treasure. This someone is the most important person in my life. When something caught my attention, and that hand got out of my clasp.

NO!

I tried to catch it, I tried to get it back, tried to run after it, but it's nowhere to be found. I begin to tremble in fear. Alarm and terror consuming my heart, as I tried to look for that person.

Where are you?

Lulu..help me..

I begin to cry in confusion. Pain and deep sorrow clenching in my chest..

What am I gonna do?

When suddenly..

Bang!

A loud blast came off.

I was thrown a good distance away, my body froze as I saw the gushing blood from the crack of my head. Numbness crept into my body…

 into my blurry mind…

 into my lost soul.

Someone help me..

Lulu..Lulu.. I’m sorry.

…to be continued.

Sasi looked at me worriedly, but I am not in pain, not in the least. For what I am feeling now is incomparable to any hunger I have ever felt before.

***Raki***

*********

"Please don't look at me like that."

I cannot control myself anymore, those lecherous lips that kept haunting me for days are here in front of me. Softly parted in a way that blows my mind. Just a few inches, I must move forward, so inviting, bewitching me to insanity.

"Look like what?"

Her voice in the softest whisper makes me believe that she is also affected by this closeness, that idea makes my heart even more excited, thrilled even.

My eyes lingered on that drop of blood in her lower lip, it’s really tempting. I want to lick that tiny drop away from her rosy pout, and when she licked it..

then bites her lower fold…

that…

gets me undone..

My rationality disappearing into thin air, another "i don't care anymore" moment.

I launched forward, thinking nothing but heaven waiting on her end. My hands were automatically placed behind her head..

I kissed her hungrily, inflicting all my raging desire into that bone-melting kiss. I have longed for this mouth to be on me, thinking about these past few days of torture and those troubled sleepless nights. I can't take it anymore; I can't deny myself any longer of the pleasure I can only find in this sweet sweet lustrous lips of her.

I sucked out all the left-over blood on her mouth, tickled by its tangy-bitter taste blended with the sugary taste of Sasi. I could care less about the venom. My body is numb to all sensations apart from her lips kissing me back with the same passion as I am giving. She kissed back greedily, yearning for more, and I deepened the kiss even more. Giving her access to everything inside my mouth…

Yes, I am yours, claim me. I have been waiting.

This pent-up craving started the day after the festival at the plaza. I must admit I have been avoiding the woman for quite a while now because every time I see her, even her shadows remind me of the night I get lost to my frailty. Thou I am unapologetic on what I have done, I was guilty thinking I took advantage of a drunken lady. It was quite shameless of me to do the things that exist only in my imagination. Of course, she would hate me once she gained knowledge of the 'things' that took place in that dimly lit room. And I’m not yet prepared to face her fury. I don't want to lose the trust that I am working so hard to gain.

But she is really giving me a hard time.

Walking about the room with just underwear on, or a skimpy towel around her body, almost every night, I swam in the pool, thinking I could extinguish the raging fire within my soul.

It was a mistake to set up a hidden CCTV inside her room for protection. I got distracted every day thinking about in what state she will be going out of the bathroom next. Or how would she sleep through the night.. Jiro has done a good job angling the camera away from possible explicit scene areas, but the short glimpses of those times have me running for the hills.

I go to sleep at midnight only to find her half-naked with a disarrayed blanket covering half of her tempting bods. I could only see half of her body because the camera was angled towards the window but that was enough to make me hard to the core.

And how am I supposed to ignore her stolen glances towards me? I know she was curious about that day we woke up together in the bed, but I am not yet prepared to tell the story of how we ended up there. Of how I lost my sanity over a few sips of alcohol and her inviting bosom. No, I couldn’t tell her that just yet.

Until one day, Nami called me, not knowing where and how did she get my number. She asked for Sasi’s whereabouts and I almost burst out when I learned why. Apparently, she is interested in her because she’s a lesbian and I am polite enough to answer her questions, taking care not to expose too much information. I even told her that I am Sasi’s brother to keep our cover.

She then asked me if I could persuade Sasi to join her in hiking today. She said it would be her honor to guide us and show the beauty of Batanes island through the summit of one of its great mountains.

I was hesitant at first. Not just because I was being protective and possessive of Sasi, but mainly because I don't think she would like the idea. And besides, I’m against it as well. I want her all for myself.

Thinking I could use some alone time, I volunteered to be in Sasi's place instead. I said she isn't feeling well but to my surprise, she even invited herself into joining. What the hell.

I held my breath the moment she said the words 'Can I join you?', it gave me hope that she might want to hang out with me too, that she miss my presence too.

But who am I kidding? She slapped me with reality. She would never look at me like that. To her, I am still a stranger.

Who am I kidding? To think that she trusts me enough now.

Whatever warmth I see past her eyes weren’t equally true. Maybe she just looked up to me because I could protect her and I am the only one besides my team, who could do that in this foreign land.

What if she joined the hike because of Nami? That not just once I saw her stealing glances towards the lady as well, and the thought irritates me to the bones. I have no idea of her s****l preference, that maybe she likes the muse too. But my insides highly protested the idea. That can’t be. I won’t allow it even if it kills me.

That's why I kept our distance from the others and kept distracting Nami just so she wouldn't have a chance to flirt, not even once on Sasi. I also instructed Daniels and Jiro to keep a watch.

And what have they talked about during the time they changed clothes? Has Nami confessed? Why Sasi looked like she’s irritated with me?

This plan of mine backfired now. The moment she sat in front of me, as I am squeezing the venom out of the wound. I've been frozen, not able to withhold her next action. And when her warm lips touched my skin, I think I could die at the intensity of my repressed passion. I want her instantly, right here, right now.

How appealing it is to have her straddle me and let her rock back and forth atop my aching manhood. How sweet it would be to see her get undone beneath my touch. My vision became blurry with so much lust that I could handle.

Sasi..

Suddenly, I felt her stiffen and pushed me away. Then came a hard blow on my face. She slapped me.

"What are you doing?! You, f*****g moron! How could you?!"

She said angrily. Her face was as red as a tomato, and I could see the pulsating veins on her throat.

I looked up at her in confusion. I thought it was okay. I thought she liked it too.. Then I realized. Yes, to her I am just a stranger.

The hit never shook me, but the pain in my chest was unbearable. I’m such a jerk.

"I'm sorry. It was just on impulse. Sorry."

I said trying to stand up and fixed back my pants to buckle up, hiding my disappointment.

"W-Why did you do that??!"

She stammered. Anxiousness and fear in her voice.

Maybe she was anxious I might say I liked her where in fact she’s bi and liked Nami instead. Maybe… ugh, what should I say? She will hate me if I say I like her. That I longed for her. That I want her to myself. She will want to burn my body if I confess that I have already tasted her sweet lips before.

"I-I’m sorry. I’m not thinking straight because of the snake venom."

I said diverting my eyes and picked up the backpack.

"You d**k, doing inappropriate things in this situation. Hurry up! If you won't die by venom, you would die by my fist!"

She said sternly. No trace of the warm Sasi who was kissing me back moments ago.

The others get back to find us both walking slowly.

"Raki! Sasi, what happened?"

Nami asked worriedly as she saw me limping.

My head is beginning to spin, and my eyes started to get heavy. I think the venom is now taking effect, making me feel disoriented.

"He was bitten by a white snake! Please help."

Sasi said. I might have hallucinated about the glimpse of worry in her voice even though I know she is angry with me.

"How about you? Are you okay?"

Nami turned to her touching her shoulders.

Don't touch her! How dare you…

I cannot even say these words of disagreement.

"Yeah, I am fine. But we need to bring him to the nearest hospital right away."

“What happened Capt.? Have you gone weak now?”

Daniels took me from Sasi and assisted me in walking. I could hear a silent teasing laugh along with my ear, he knew this won’t kill me.

“Let’s hurry up, the Missus is worried. What a lucky jerk, I should’ve been the one to get bitten.”

He murmured and I grinned in reply.

Jiro took all our bags and we continued walking towards the boat.

"Let’s hurry up guys."

Nami turned to the others.

Nami then assisted Sasi while walking. Her arms are on the latter’s waist. I wanted to complain but my mouth was paralyzed.

We loaded in the boat and Nami instructed the driver to fasten our pacing because it was an emergency. I heard the others talk about the snake that bit me being a strongly venomous snake called the Batanes Pit Viper which was unbelievably extinct, and the chances to encounter one of those were extremely slim, well, I guess I'm the unlucky one.

One of the men said that its venom was one of the most lethal among snake species. Sasi who was sitting beside me shuddered upon hearing that, her hand tightened on my arm.

Though I'm with a trained physique and resistance, I could feel the numbness that was slowly creeping up my body from my thigh up to my waist. My head felt really heavy so I leaned on Sasi's shoulder unconsciously, then I closed my eyes to take a little rest. Daniels was on my left but my head chose the softer shoulder to lean on. I’m even surprised she didn't push me away.

"Hang in there, we’re gonna get you to the hospital. Don't you dare to sleep on me bastard."

She whispered through gritted teeth.

"I'm sorry for ruining your first hiking experience."

I whispered back.

"Ugh!, whatever."

I softly chuckled in her annoyance.

The visit in the hospital was a short one, unlike what I expected it to be. I'm quite lucky because Sasi has sucked almost all of the venom, so I was just get injected with an anti-venom vaccine and freed to go. The doctor warned me of the side effect of the vaccine though.

After we came back from the hospital, I immediately went up to my side of the room. I suddenly felt so exhausted that I collapsed on the bed and fallen into a deep sleep.

_______________________________

It was nearly dark, in the middle of the marketplace. I looked up in the sky, holding the hands of someone I truly treasure. This someone is the most important person in my life. When something caught my attention, and that hand got out of my clasp.

NO!

I tried to catch it, I tried to get it back, tried to run after it, but it's nowhere to be found. I begin to tremble in fear. Alarm and terror consuming my heart, as I tried to look for that person.

Where are you?

Lulu..help me..

I begin to cry in confusion. Pain and deep sorrow clenching in my chest..

What am I gonna do?

When suddenly..

Bang!

A loud blast came off.

I was thrown a good distance away, my body froze as I saw the gushing blood from the crack of my head. Numbness crept into my body…

 into my blurry mind…

 into my lost soul.

Someone help me..

Lulu..Lulu.. I’m sorry.

…to be continued.