NOT Your GUARDIAN

JEALOUS

Continuation..

“Can I go swimming now Capt.?”

Jiro asked him and when he nodded, Jiro took his holster out of his waist and dig a hole in the sand. Put the gun there and bury it, then run towards the water to swim like a child.

I looked in awe. What did I just witness? He’s like a dog burying his bone.

“How about you? Will you swim now? Go ahead, I will be here to watch you.”

He turned to me.

"I want an Ice cream."

I mumbled out of the blue, then look at him who is already looking up at me with wariness in his face.

"Ai thaat, get me an Ice cream."

I turned to him and pouted.

"But where am I gonna get an ice cream? I don't think the resort sells any."

He retorted, frowning at me.

"Find me one. Now."

I replied. I really want an ice cream right now. No, I need it, to quench my rising heat. I could feel it engulfing my bottom half, that's why I couldn’t stand up. I think my legs would give in if I tried to stand.

He sighs in submission, stood up and started to go back to the resort's main lobby. I wasn't expecting much. I didn't even expect him to get one, I just need him out of my sight now or else it'll be too embarrassing to be caught like this. He might think that I’m lusting after him, even though it's true, I couldn't accept this. Not yet.

Looking back at the ocean and its peaceful folding waves, I realized a lot of things. Sometimes it's not so bad to go out of your comfort zone. That not all the people you encounter is bad, some are really kind, caring and generous. One must learn to pick the right one.

And not everyone in the crowd is an enemy, there are some that is going to protect you no matter what. Like Raki and his team. I haven't realized it yet, but I am getting closer to him each day. Trusting him my safety and my life.

It may be temporary, but he is a lot of help in dissolving my hostility towards strangers.

Maybe...

My flow of thoughts stopped the moment I saw him heading back my way. He was carrying a tumbler of chocolate ice cream in his hands and walking towards me accompanied by a long-legged foreigner.

The girl looks western, her blond curly hair drapes along the exposed dainty shoulders. Her thick lashed eyes looking up at Raki dreamily as her cute little nose and soft looking unpainted lips completed her pretty face. Her skin as white as the sand was shown in that skimpy two-piece swimwear. They were talking to each other cheerfully that it made me frown with irritation.

Ugh, another girl this time.

When they got closer to where I was sitting, the girl looked at me and gave a wide friendly smile. I couldn't help but to smile back shyly, one of those fake smiles I trained to do.

"Sasi, this is Georgina Wadsworth, a fashion model from London. She said she saw us earlier and recognizes you from one of your fashion shows. You remembered her?"

He said holding the girl in the elbow and my eyes darted that way even though I’m not supposed to be aware of it.

"Hi! you may call me George. It is indeed you, Chantara Lamwilai of Thailand. I can't believe that I saw you here in Batanes so I have to confirm it..do you remember me? from the Lazada women’s festival fashion show?"

She reached out her hand and I accepted the brief handshake.

"Er.. sorry. I’m not good with names."

The truth is, I didn't really remember her, or any one from the show in that matter, because once I am done with my cue, I always go home right away.

"Oh well that's fine, I understand. There's a lot of models present that day, but you left early. I didn't see you at the after party."

"Uh, I'm not a party person."

I replied shortly.

"Anyway, why are you here in the Philippines? Tired of your celebrity life, I guess?"

"Y-yeah, I’m here for a vacation"

I said and throw an I-don't-want-this-conversation look at Raki. I'm uncomfortable where the conversation was leading to.

"It's nice to meet you George, I'm glad to see an acquaintance of Sasi here. Now that you confirmed it, see you around!"

Raki interrupted her, clearly to dismiss the little get together and smiled at her quickly.

"It's nice to meet you too Raki, right? and nice to see you again Sasi, don't forget to attend the beach party later if you want. Bye, enjoy your stay!"

She left a wide smile at us then walked away swinging her voluptuous hips.

I throw daggers at Raki when the girl was out of sight.

Tsss, what a charmer.

I snatched the ice cream from his hands and..

"Where's the spoon? how am I gonna eat this?"

I snapped at him not even hiding my annoyance.

"Aw here, I bought it at the convenience store nearby where I bumped with George."

He said handing me a spoon.

"Did you know that she is a co- owner of this resort? she gave us honorary discounts."

"I don't give a f**k. I can pay triple."

I said gobbling down the ice cream without giving him even a single spoon.

"Hey, slowdown."

He said standing up in front of me and bent down to wipe a drop of cream on the side of my lips that in the process I accidentally looked up and met his intent gaze upon my lips. That kind of facial expression of got my heart erratically beating. Tiny volts of excitement flowed down my spine and the memory of his lips on mine became so vivid I could almost feel it. The heat spreads like a wildfire into my body and before I do some stupid shits again, I pushed him hard, dropped the empty ice cream tumbler and spoon, then run for the waves. I jumped into the water just immediately as I reached it. I need to clear my mind, letting the cold water engulf my trembling body.

I am having a really hard time understanding myself now a days.

What is it that he did to me to feel this way?

Where are these feelings coming from?

I haven't had a boyfriend, not even once but that doesn't mean I want to start liking him either.

How am I supposed to deal with all these?

Oh god, I'm going crazy.

...to be continued