TAMED INNOCENTLY.

9

Eric's point of view.

i messed up.i feel it and i know it.her pleads should have warned me enough.god.i hold my face in frustration.i open the door without even knowing what i have to tell her.god that was so stupid of me.i stand shocked that she isn't where i left her.i hope she didn't leave me.i rush to the leaving room and found the door closed.in sigh in relief.that means she must be in here."beth" i call out audible enough for anyone inside to here me.no answer.i head to the other rooms and notice its only the guest room at the end of the hallway that was locked so i knew she must be in here."beth open the door" i plead but only met with silence. "beth are you in there?" i push my ears to the door and hear her hissing silently.i made her cry.

that was so irrelevant.i should have taken up the deals and promises she was giving me.i decide to first give her space. i head to where i keep my liquors,i feel like having something really sour.i need something to    quench my guilt and pain.i have never broken any girls virginity but why did it have to be her.i thought virgins are like dinosaurs and dragons.just fantasies and i remember there was  so obsessed with finding a virgin so i could break her first.most of the guys get satisfaction out of knowing that they were the firtd.it was so embarrassing that i was known for being a fuckboy but have never broken one.but this.....i thought it would make me happy and satisfied.i likes hurting her,but why does if feel this way.like .....i can't explain it,all i can say is that its a ver unbearable feeling.ahhhgg,just when i thought liquor would help.

i stand and head back to the guest room door,"Beth,can you open the door?.......pleader? i breath out the last word.i am not know for pleading.fuck i dont even know what i will tell her.i just want to see her and tell her anything.i hold my face in frustration.it's getting on my nerves i can feel it."Beth,damn it.this is my house i can go wherever i feel like,so open the damn door."i snap.i know i have no right to do so in this situation but she is pushing it.i bank the door harder.wait,aren't there spare keys for every single room in here?.all i need to do is look.i somp down the stairs and get to the kitchen drawers where i find a bunch of keys.damn,now how i my supposed to find one?i run backup to try out every single key. i finally land on it after 50 years of trying.i rush in and find her lying in the tab with her head lying at the side facing down asleep. my heart hurts.

i get close to the tab and realise she is naked.but i already saw her naked so no need to first fetch clothes.i  drown my right hand into the water and placed the left hand on the small of her back and lifted her out of the tab.i took her back to our bedroom and laid her on the bed carefully because i cant  have her fighting me off now.i grabbed a towel to dry her only to see blood on her thighs. never felt sad and regret in my life before.i went back to the bathroom and wet a towel then dried it off tucked her neatly in bed.i am afraid of sleeping next to her because i might hurt her again.after everything that happened this evening you wouldn't even think of f*****g any other woman in life but dude do i have a hard on.and you wonder where i got it from.i settle with doing some exercise right here but it doesn't help.i head back tomy liquor cabin to drink myself to peace and i hope it works out.god,now what am i going to do with her. am a fool,the least i could have done was to hear her out but no,i was committed to hurting her.

i clenched my head as if it could end the terrible headache i was having.it was already morning as i could notice the sun trying to break through the oink sky.i get off the couch and head to the kitchen to get a drink.why did i end up drinking this m.... wait, i rush up the stairs when it dawns on me.i fist the door only o face my fear.she wasn't there. "Beth" i call out opening the bathroom door but she wasn't there..i rush down the stairs to check the door and found it open."damn" i hit the wall next to me angrily.who the hell does she think she is.why did i get so drunk.she must have passed by me but i didn't notice because i passed out. i try to look for my phone and remember i never got it out of the car yesterday,.i head to the parking lot and i get surprised on finding her bag in there as well.i wonder where she went without it.they say it's rude to check in a lady's bag but what can i say, desperate times call for desperate measures,i need anything i could use to find her and a smile stretched on my lips once my eyes landed on her phone.i will call whoever is in her contact list till i get her.i reach for mine in the driver's seat and dialled Gerald's number"thanks about yesterday but i might need your tracking services as well" i say rushing to the house to start searching through her contacts"ahh morning too....whta services are you talking about?"he asks in a sleepy voice? "well like i said your tracking services.so i want you to be on alert with your friend in case i call again"n i hang up before he said anything else.

her phone has no lock thank goodness so the first person i call was at the top of her call log.Kyle.i feel as sure as f**k that she must have home back to kylie's so i call her immediately.he picks up on the second ring "hello?" i greet the moment she picks up but there's no answer so i take that as my cue to say what i want."can you put her on phone please?" i can assure you this is the politest i have ever been in my whole life but guess what,she only hmms and hangs up.my pride told me so. i call Gerald "track kyle's phone right now" anger slips through my voice and i cant help it.i am going to get her and make sure that she will never need to lean on anyone's shoulder because mine will be there.