He is gone now.
He is not going to return.
The voice echoed inside me, giving me the taste of reality.
How unexpected life is. Just a few years ago, I was the happiest girl alive. Everything was perfect. I had everything which I always wanted. I was alive. I was living a happy life with him who was the love of my life. I prized him like anything. I did everything for him to make him happy. But it seemed like Ruskin was not happy.
Now here I am standing. He is no longer with me; things have changed completely. My life is no longer the same. I have a role to play and responsibilities to take care of.
It has been three years since he was gone. I want to blame him but I cannot. My heart does not allow it. And every time it wins over my mind.
I keep watching at my house door thinking you will come today. It has been years since you have gone, you never turned back. Albeit, consider me a fool, I still yearn to see you. Every part of me always misses you, my Ruskin. See, still, I’m such a fool to call him mine.
“I love you, Shine… and I will love you eternally.” Is what you used to tell me.
Ruskin, then where has this love gone now? Why aren’t you with me now? You said I was your everything but now it looks like it was all a lie.
I so wish I had not let you go that day. Little did I have clue you would be gone for years or should I say forever? If you loved me as you used to say, you would have been here. So many years had passed, but never did you return.