If only love

OUR BEGINNING

Mya's pov

" What are you doing here? " I asked him, pretty annoyed that he was here. All that hurt I felt that day came back.

" I didn't know how else to get you to talk to me."

" wait! You are the one that summoned me here?! " I got up from the bench and so did he.

" look... " he said looking guilty "I didn't mean... "

I got up and was ready to leave when he grabbed my hand.

"don't touch me! " I forcefully pulled my hand away.

"please just listen to me"

"why?! Why should I listen to you?! "

When he didn't given me a verbal answer apart from the look of shame, I counted while trying so hard not to cry.

"you broke my trust! You are not the same person I called my best friend! You knew I wet my bed not on purpose but because I had an infection! Yet you went and told some bimbo everything! Who gave you the right to... " I didn't get to finish that sentence because I was shocked with what happened next.

I, Mya Matthews was kissed to silence! It's not my first kiss but my crush was kissing me!

I snapped back to reality and kissed him back. I mean this could be the only kiss I will ever get from him. After what felt like forever, he pulled away.

"I'm sorry"

"wwwhhhat" wow girl you can't even speak nicely.

"I'm sorry. " he moved so that our foreheads were touching. "please just sit down and hear me out"

We moved back to the bench, I didn't say a word as I waited for him to speak and mainly cause my mind was all jumbled up trying to make sense of what's going on.

"I'm sorry. I know I hurt you and I didn't mean too, I swear. "

"then why did you tell them?"

"I don't know" I sighed.

I  got up and started walking away because this conversation wasn't making sense. I mean how can he not know why his mouth opened. Like was he trying to buy their friendship. Wait, was I been too hard on him?

"I like you." that stopped me. I turned around to look at him in shock.

"what did you say? " he moved closer till he was at arms length.

"I said I like you okay. I have feelings for you and you are my best friend... "

"you haven't acted like one in years."

"I know. And I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you but I did tell know who to act. Then the popularity kicked in.... I'm sorry"

"I don't trust you. And even if I did. ...."

"I know. I'm willing to gain your trust and do right by you."

I sat there thinking of all the things that could possibly go wrong and ha! Oh boy did I come up with a thousand things. But what if he is been honest with me? What if he really likes me?

"please,  give me a chance Mya."

I thought about it for a minute. "okay." I said in a small voice. I looked up to see his reaction. He was smiling at me.

"I have to go"

"listen. I want to do this the right way. I want to take you out on a date, okay? "

I just nodded. Deep done I was going a happy dance. Yay!

"can we keep this between us for now."

I looked at him confused. "why? Why do we have to do this in secret? "

"because I have messed up already and I want to do things right. Our family will start planning a wedding just by hearing we are on a date. Its not a bad thing but I want us to this our way. And I also don't want to make things awkward for Miguel. Then I also need to distance myself from my friends. So please can it be our secret for now."

His right. Our families will start planning a wedding especially the three moms. They get way to excited for nothing. My dad will try to act all tough and give him all the dad warning, then I will have to get the talk. Oh hell no! I know I'm a virgin but I don't need to dad to start giving me that talk. I can get the information I need online or I don't know books. Let's talk about how Miguel might react. I don't see that going well since his still mad at his cousin for what happened at school. So we would have to ease him into the whole thing. The his so called friends are people I don't want around me. So basically his right.

"okay. But we have to see what this means for us."

After that I pretty much went back home. I went straight to my room to do my happy dance.

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So Xander and I went on a date two weeks after that. Did you all hear me?! A date! I was freaking out,what do I wear? How do I act? Let's not forget try to find an excuse for why I was getting dressed up without making May and my parents suspicious. I ended up wearing this.



He took me for lunch in the nearby town,which was like an hour drive. The little restaurant had this homey vibe and it was near a lake, so we ate with a lake view.  He was so gentle and all. Later we took off our shoes and just walked,talked and even held hands! By the banks. It was definitely the best date ever.

"hey Mya! " Miguel finally shouted. I looked at him innocently.

"what's wrong with you? You've been acting strange and spacing out alot these past few weeks."

"it's nothing. Just stressing about finals " lied straight out.

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Finals came and passed by. Xander and I started dating right after the finals, but it was still in secret. And because we had countless misunderstandings about the issue,  I came to accept it as it is. There are times when I saw people or couples post each other and I envied them. When I brought it up, I was told time will come.

We spoke about college and agreed to go to the same one or atleast one close to each other. Miguel and I were still close somewhat, I dunno his been acting strange towards me. I asked him about it but he just said that it was pressure.

It was a weekend and as per usual, our families were having lunch together. There was a knock at the door and Summer went to answer it. When she returned she was carrying three envelopes in her hand. She handed one to Xander, Miguel and I. We all looked at each other but,  Xander and I knew why that look meant alot between us.

"open them. We are all anxious " my mom said to us.

We all opened the envelopes at the same time.