Tinder during Pandemic Out Break

Dare To Take The Step

                 It's 2 am and Alice can't sleep, something is worrying her. She broke up with her boyfriend Tom four month ago but all her plans, the life she dreamed about, finally getting marry with the love of her life vanished. She is feeling anxious. Those were the dreams of her life, dreams they both worked together to make them real and with the blink of an eye everything changed. At that moment Alice didn't know how she was going to rebuilt her life again, all she knew and felted was that feeling of fear she wished to make disappear. She was afraid of finding herself alone the rest of her life just for not forgiving a simple stupid idea Tom had about finding residency in United States. She just turned forty years old, she knew nobody, she had only three friends who lived far from her except her neighbor Ana. They were both passing thru a similar situation but they didn't know. 

                Alice decides to take her phone and to see if someone was connected.

                Hi Ana! How are you? I can't sleep I am feeling anxious. What are you doing awake so late?

                Hi Alice! I am always awake until very late. I am smoking a cigarette and drinking a cup of wine. How is Tom? I have many days without seen him, is it because of the Pandemic?... a long silence felt, Ana said, Did I say something wrong?, Did you guys broke?... then Alice answered, Yes Ana, I broke my relationship with Tom about four month ago, we are definitely over. What happened? Tell me everything, I thought you were getting marry. Yes, that is what he kept telling me before traveling to United States but before he left he told me Alice, we will marry some day but I am going to seduce a girl there to find the papers, it will be easy for a Latin men like me to do it, after that I will come back for you and we will get marry. Those words sounded like a tornado inside of my head but couldn't react, I was so full of love and suddenly felted so empty. Those words make me realize that was going to be the last time I ever saw him with the same eyes, those words dug a huge hole in my heart. I kissed Tom, hug him and said good bye! call me when you arrive.

                Alice! you don't have to be alone Ana said to her. We are on Pandemic which make harder to make new friends and meet new people but you have to make the effort. Why don't you subscribe to Tinder? You have nothing to lose. Why are you so afraid?... You are still young, look at yourself. Staying in the house, keeping social distance won't help you find a person. I am not saying you will find love but at least you will make friend, at least you would be able to tell your grandchildren that you were brave and tried.

               Alice laugh at her friend ideas of finding friends and meeting someone she could like or even love, as if it were so easy to find love, the true love... she spent tree years of her life with Tom and before him seven years with Lucas and before him five years with Albert, the first man who broke her heart in pieces. She waited for him 11 years before she decided to love again.

                The next day Alice felt lighter, as if she had lost a lot of weight, she felt like she was floating, she no longer felt fear, she felt liberated. Anne's insights and advice helped her realize that she must take the initiative and begin an active, purposefully selective search if she was going to find her dream partner. It's simple, you just have to select them from a bunch of photos as if they were a nice dress. You can also look at theirs description but I wouldn't trust them too much, as most guys are just looking for a roll in the hay, easy s*x you know. These days is very common and this app is know for that. Alice was worried about being recognized by an acquaintance, a friend from the past or her ex because she thought it was still early and she didn't want to hurt him. She also didn't like the idea of people thinking that she now wanted to experience free and wild s*x with strangers. 

                How did she know that her selection based on appearances would be reliable?... She had never chosen her former partners, It was then when she realized that They had always chosen her and She had never meditated on it. She never stopped to think about the time She had lost regretting for years a supposed love that never existed, at least not for her. She realized that men are right to want to try out on so many girls before making a decision, She began to meditate on acting the same way, talking and dating several guys at the same time to see how it feels to misbehave for the first time. Alice was brought up in a very conservative family environment. Her mother taught her from a very young age that a woman should be respected, never let herself be touched by a man until she was sure that his intentions of commitment were serious. She remembered then that she had never had a s****l conversation with anyone except her two ex-boyfriends. The other young women of her generation, even her sisters' generation, were already married in their twenties or thirties, were already mothers, some were divorced or widowed, but none of them were as single as she was without even being married once, her friend Anne an exception like her as She was still a single young woman at her forties. 

                After a week of meditating about doing it or not Alice took the decision to subscribe to this dating app and start being selective for the first time. To do it make her feel so powerful, liberated, so grown up, a real woman and suddenly, in less than an hour, she had reached about ninety matches, that made her feel so attractive, secure but more important save from a lonely live.