Him???
1000 Words
Sitting on my bed, my head started to rush with the many thoughts and scenarios that could possibly happen behind knowing this secret. If I tell her, she could be mad at me for interfering with her relationship or not believe me and ruin our friendship. But if I dont tell her, then that could definitely be a quick way to end us as friends. Especially if she found out from someone other than me. Why is this so hard to figure out. These next two weeks are going to be torture for me.
Deciding I had enough of thinking, I cut my tv off and prepare myself for bed. I snuggle up under my thick blanket getting very cozy and warm. I close my eyes and let my head hit the pillow with a soft, light landing. Right when I thought sleep could find me, I get a message to my phone. I groan reaching under my pillow to see who it could possibly be at this hour. I squint my eyes at the phone trying to adjust to the brightness of my screen. It's the same mysterious number from the previous night. [Hey are you awake?] [Yeah, well I am now. Why? Ready to reveal who you are?] I wait for a reply. My screen times out as I lay my head against my pillow once more. Just like before my phone lights up with a new text. [Umm... yeah actually I am. Can you meet at the park by your house?] [Kinda creepy you know where I stay. Even creepier you want me to me you this late. Why not just text your name?] [It just has to be face to face. I wanna have a real chance if you let me.] I grab a hoodie from my closet and throw it on just before putting on my nike slides. [Sure I guess. Be there in 3 mins.] I sent the message as i was heading out the door.
The night's air was calm with a slight breeze. I walked along the jagged sidewalk down the street towards the park. It was eerily quiet outside and here I was about to meet a total stranger in the park. I arrive to a dark and empty park. "Am I really about to stay here alone," I said softly to myself. "You're not alone. I am here." That voice sounds so familiar but it couldnt be who I think it is. "You?" "Before you leave just give me a chance to explain first. I promise I wont try anything." I think to myself. This Jacob we are talking about. He has made school horrible for me. Well not entirely horrible but enough has happened that would make me distrust him. "And why should I stay to listen?" I glare at him waiting for a response. He scratched his head and took a big gulp. "Well I cant say I can think of a reason but just stay please." I walk over and sit on a swing. He joins me and sit beside me on the next swing. "Well here goes. I know that I do mess with you alot and I know you may not believe what I'm about to tell you...but it's all true feelings." I nod for him to carry on. "It started the first time I saw you. I thought you were so beautiful and I wanted you to my self. Then I saw you with John Bush and thought you were interested in him..." I interrupt him,"Oh gosh no! Yuck he is with my bestfriend." Jacob stared at me for second before speaking again. "Well at the time I didnt know that. So the day you spilled water on yourself, I started that awful name so nobody would try to take you away before I could get my chance." I slowly sway on the swing thinking over what Jacob just said to me. I mean I admit I do like him to but can I trust if his words? "So....like when is this bad joke going to end already?" He looked up to me puzzled. His face basically forming a question.
Jacob stands up before me. I glance up at a face I always wanted to kiss. As much as I would like to kiss him, I know I shouldn't. He is just joking with me and I suddenly feel a sting in my heart. Something I wanted so long is now making a mockery off my secret feelings. While in thought, Jacob lifts my chin with his finger so I am staring directly into his eyes. He then, slowly leaned down to me and his soft lips gently engulf mine into a kiss. I smiled into his lips. My first kiss.
Jacob pulled back from the kiss and it saddened me. I wasnt ready to end my first kiss that quick. "I'm sorry if you didn't want that kiss but I just been waiting a long time to do that. I am not joking. I meant everything I said." I stare out holding my finger tips to my lips. "Its getting a bit chilly out here for me," I say. "I can walk you home if you like." I nod and we head toward the sidewalk.
Nothing is said. Just silence as we are left to our thoughts while walking. We reach my front door and it started to get awkward with all the silence. "I guess I better get inside. Can we finish talking tomorrow if nothing changes overnight," I ask. Shoving his hands into his pockets, he looked up at me and smiled. "Nothing is going to change. Talk to you tomorrow. " A slight blush creeps over my cheeks making them noticeably red. I open the door going in just before closing it behind me and leaning up against it. I grab my chest and take a deep breathe. My heart beat picks up and sigh. Jacob Reynolds likes me too.
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