Chapter Forty Nine: A bewildering request > >> I really have no idea what I thought just staying in my room, as I usually do whenever I'm faced with a problem or do for the kind of situation that I am in. Because at this point, there really is nothing that can be done other than for me to just sit here accepting that I am a very bullshitty human being. That the person that loved her the most. Just seeing the look in my mother's eyes was just absolutely awful to me. And just seeing the way Kade was looking at me as well. I feel like I can never forget those looks. And I know I'm not going to be able to do it either way. After staying in my room for what feels like forever, the dread settles when the door finally opens. I really wish that Imogen and Rhea were here. Because if

