The story of Kai and Zai

As sincere as the cloud loves the rain.

Having been so broken, I'm no longer interested in loving anyone. Maybe it's because my old wounds haven't fully healed or maybe it's because I'm still too timid to choose.

In my life, many people have come to offer their hearts, but the door that I once opened is still tightly closed, the hand that was once so openly accepting is still tightly gripping the past.

Until finally you came promising me calm, promising to heal what I needed the most, promising the hope I was hoping for the most, making me believe, with you I will find happiness again.

However, pain is not only once, heartbreak is sometimes repeated, after I hope that you are in my prayers, after you are sure that you are in my amen, suddenly the universe says otherwise; I have to be torn again by someone I believe can sew up my wounds, I have to be broken again by someone I think is able to grow me, and I have to be broken again by someone I believe can make me whole. You left without permission, you ran when I wanted to stop.

Now, I feel completely numb, I feel completely blind to love, I feel like I don't have a heart anymore, I feel like I don't want to know anyone anymore. Now, I'm just someone who is the most resigned, whatever, somehow the universe is writing the story.

No more my desires to meet and

expect whoever it is.

After my second heartbreak, my prayer is only one;

Hopefully what comes after you is destiny

for my life.