Kaya I can finally hear him. It's like everything changes. My heartbeat, my thoughts, the feeling of the grass strands underneath my feet. He is right behind me and I don’t need to turn around, or to ask anything to know. Because we are connected in a way I still can’t wrap my mind around. I stay where I am and he takes a step closer. “There might be bugs over there in the grass. “ He says and I look down at my feet. “Yeah, I think I already stepped on a few. “ That’s when I turn around because I can’t wait to see him any longer and pretend his being here doesn’t take my heart out of rhythm entirely. He is standing right there, right behind me. Theodor is dressed entirely in black as usual, his hair is short again and my heart is beating like mad. I haven’t been this close to

