His Desire

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Yesterday morning, I woke up next to Brian, and I could feel that he was not content. I can’t explain, but for months, I don’t know how many, but countless. I don’t feel much s****l desire. It’s not that I am not attracted to Brian. He is handsome, and I love him.

Brian always wants to make love and gives hints to that effect. Somehow, I don’t feel the same need. I know it makes him frustrated. It’s not as if we never make love, because we do, but not as often as Brian would like. Yesterday, I prepared myself mentally all day. I had decided I would make love to him in the evening after dinner. Even though I had made up my mind and mentally prepared myself, it was still hard.

Brian was pleased, and I know he was. Waking up today is fantastic. The sun is shining, and Brian is singing along to a song playing on the radio. He looks happy and smiles, which makes me so happy. This is not how every morning goes.

I only make love to Brian once or twice a week, but yesterday, I promised myself I would make love to him more every week. I want him to be happy. Brian has a demanding job at his father's company. He is the CTO, the Chief Technology Officer, and I am his secretary.

We met in college. Brian had his life all planned out. After finishing his degree, he would start working at his father's company. I didn’t know what I wanted to work with, so I fell into Nursing. But I didn’t have my heart in it. My brother, Austin, who is five years younger, has always dreamed of becoming a doctor, and he convinced me to study to be a nurse. After we both finished our degrees, he took a job at his father’s company. I didn't want to start working as a nurse, and Brian knew that, so he offered me the job of secretary. I accepted.

I have been with Brian for five years; I am committed to him and want a happy relationship. I am trying my best to make it all work. We have some differences, but they are primarily about physical love. I have formed a plan for tonight. I want to show my man that I love him. He doesn’t get the vague hints. I am so excited for tonight. I saw in his schedule that he has a meeting and then will come home.

I rush from the office to get my grocery shopping done, and have time to cook, shower, and make myself look beautiful. I hurry through the aisles at the grocery store to grab everything I need for dinner. I decided to make one of his favorites: chicken with feta cheese cream, accompanied by sundried tomatoes, rice, and some vegetables. Dessert, I was planning to be adventurous. Chocolate mousse we could bring to bed. I am blushing thinking about it. My face is all red thinking about this, eating chocolate mousse from Brian's body, licking it off him. Oh, my goodness, I need to stop thinking about this. I finally finish her and walk past a small boutique on my way to my car. I stand outside of it by the shop windows. Do I dare? I can’t make up my mind. I walk to the car and put all the groceries in the backseat. I look again in the direction of the boutique. I walk with determined steps. Yes, I'll check out this little store. I could see what they were selling: sexy lingerie. I usually don’t visit stores like this. I will make every effort possible to create a magical evening for Brian and me. I browse the boutique, and every garment I look at makes me blush, if not visibly, definitely on the inside, for what I am planning. A salesgirl helped me pick out a pink, lacy set for tonight, and I got talked into getting an enchanting yellow and tangerine set. The color alone makes it look mouthwatering.

I drive home to get dinner started, but before I tidy up a bit around our place. When dinner is finished, but the oven is still on a low temperature. I showered, put on my new lace set, and wore a sexy black dress. I look at the time, and Brian should be home soon. I have the chicken in the oven, and I'm starting to prepare the rice and vegetables.

Everything is ready. I even made the table, candles, and flowers, making it cozier. Now it’s just Brian who’s missing. I've been sitting at the table for 30 minutes waiting. Dinner is getting cold, and the dessert looks disappointing in the fridge. I try to hold back my sadness and disappointment. I try to convince myself that maybe there was something important that held him up. An hour and a half and still no Brian. I can’t believe it, all my work for a beautiful evening together. I get a notification, it’s a text from Brian.

‘I will be late, don’t wait up.’

My eyes well up, and tears fall. I am sure he loves me, right? He is just busy. I just get undressed right there in the kitchen. I am completely naked, blowing out the almost burned-down candles. Hand my clothes on the chair and walk to the bedroom. I go to the dresser and retrieve underwear that Brian hates, including cotton panties and a bra. Severs him if he even sees what I am wearing. I take out an oversized t-shirt and put it on. I get to bed, read a steamy romance novel, and fall asleep.