A DIRTY AFFAIR

Done crying

GEMMA

I was sitting helplessly on the bed after I was done crying. Sitting helplessly and staring into empty space.

I had always envisioned myself losing my virginity to the man I truly love and the man who loves me back.

Had it been I know, I would have allowed Leonardo, my ex boyfriend to sleep with me when he asked for it. But I was too shy and wasn't ready then to have s*x with him and felt I made the right decision not allowing him when I found out that he cheated on me with one of my closest friends. Now, it'd have been better if I lost my virginity to Leonardo than this monster.

Never in my wildest thought did I think that I was going to lose my virginity like this, being helpless and being tied up and what more? to a total stranger.

My life's so miserable. I felt hatred, contempt, scorn growing in my heart towards Antonio.

"I swear to God, I'd kill him whenever I get the chance" I swore to myself as fresh tears started to roll down my cheeks.

I wiped it off immediately with my thumb.

"Enough crying Gemma. Pull yourself together. You're a strong girl, remember??" I said to myself.

I forced myself to stand up from the bed and pulled off the bed sheets stained with my blood. I was still fully naked. I felt so much pain in my thighs and v****a as I came down from the bed.

I folded the bed sheets and took it to the bathroom, then soaked it in water. Then I turned on the shower to take my bath again. While in the shower, I roughly scrubbed my body parts that Antonio touched but I didn't still feel clean. I still felt dirty, unclean and used.

I was starting to get teary again so I washed my face hurriedly with water to prevent myself from crying again.

I am done crying! Never again.

I came out of the bathroom, dried my body and wore my night robe. I climbed my bed and slept off.

*****

The heavy knocks on my door woke me up the next morning. I checked the time and saw that it's still six in the morning.

Who's knocking so early on my door?

"Who's there?" I called out sleepily.

"Luca" came the short reply.

I yawned, then came down from the bed

"Ouch" I exclaimed as I felt a stinging pain in my thigh. I was suddenly reminded of what happened last night. I slowly walked to the door. I opened the door and saw Luca standing there.

"Good morning, Luca," I greeted.

"Morning," he replied briefly. Just like his master, he's also cold and harsh.

"Want anything?" I asked.

"Boss asked me to collect the stained bedsheets," he replied.

So he saw the blood on the bed sheet.

"What for?" I asked.

"I don't know. He's probably going to burn it off or give it to his dry cleaner to wash it off" he replied, shrugging his shoulders.

"There's no need. I've taken care of that already. I'll wash it off myself" I replied. I was starting to get angry.

How dare that bastard??

"It's an instruction" Luca said, eyeing me from head to toe like someone infected with leprosy.

"Go tell your boss that I'm going to wash off my own blood myself. I wouldn't want anyone washing a bed sheet that has my blood in it" I lashed out angrily.

I'm supposed to be embarrassed having this discussion with Luca but I was too angry to care. Moreover, they know everything that's happened, the monster and his subordinates.

Without saying a word to me, Luca stomped off angrily.

I went back inside my room and locked the door, then I sat down on my bed waiting to receive Antonio's anger.

Soon, it was almost seven and since I couldn't sleep, I decided to go and make breakfast for Antonio. It's a good thing Luca woke me up this morning as I would have slept off and woke up late. I was feeling so tired and drained.

I opened the door to my room, left my room and climbed the stairs down to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

****

It's almost nine when Antonio came downstairs with his briefcase fully dressed for work. His breakfast was already laid on the dining table.

"Good morning boss" I greeted, trying so hard to hide the hate in my voice.

He completely ignored me like I wasn't in the room, walked to the dining table, sat down and began eating.

His boys were already outside waiting for him. I lurked around the kitchen, watching the monster eat and praying fervently that he chokes on his food and dies.

But not all prayers are answered, right?

He stood up from the dining chair when he was done eating and picked his briefcase. He walked past me in the kitchen and was heading to the door when he suddenly paused and turned to face me.

"Gemma" he called in his deep baritone voice.

"Yes Boss" I replied, coming out of the kitchen.

"Luca told me you refused to give him the stained sheets. Thank you for saving me the stress because you're definitely not worth it" he said harshly and walked out of the house.

I ran to the window and peeped out of it. I saw him enter his car, then Mateo drove him and the others out of the compound.

I was finally left alone in this mighty house and I took the opportunity to let out my feelings.

"Antonio!!! You monster! You cold, ruthless, son of a b***h! I f*****g hate you! I hate you and I wish you just died! Die! Die" I screamed out bitterly. I fell to the ground and cried out my eyes.