Mourn
1053 Words
''Do you want me to sleep here Lucy?''
My classmate Susie ask even though we are not even friends at school. My heart was touched by the thought of someone that care for me.
The old couple who adopted me died in a car accident, and now was the last day that I sent them to their resting place. I was supposed to go home alone but Susie insisted to drive me home because the family of the old couple were in the other country so there is no one to take care of me. Not that I was expecting for someone to comfort me. I'll be fine.
She's the only one from my school that come along to the funeral.
''No I'm fine, go ahead it's late'' I insisted
''Ok if you insist, but if you need me just call me Ok?'' She hug me one last time then bid her goodbye
I was happy that I got a family to call because I'm just an orphaned child. I don't know where my parents are, why did they left me, or if they are alive? Are they looking for me? I don't know the feeling of having of a true family not until I was adopted and raised by the loving old couple. Now that they were gone I'm lonely again. No one left family for me again.
Sometimes I wonder if to be left is what my destiny is.
My head is aching because I controlled myself not to cry in front of them as I don't want them to see me hurt. I want them to see me as a brave girl who can overcome this challenges that would come to my path. And now I can't help but to burst in tears, I'll be alone again. I don't want to be alone. I want to be loved and being take cared of.
Wiping my tears that were overflowing, I look at the ceiling and realized that this world is being hard on me. Of all people that have to loss their loved ones why is it me? Why my parents abandoned me when I was a baby? Why of all people I have to suffer alone? There are questions that no one can answer but my true parents, but where are they? They have abandoned me.
I'm mentally and physically tired. I hug my pillow tight for the longing that I have felt in my heart as the darkness filled my eyes.
I woke up by the alarm that Karen, my mother who adopted me, arrange for me when I overslept and got late at school. Looking at the things Karen and George did for me was so precious that I didn't want them to be disappointed. Just like what they always tell me ''Life must go on'' that no matter what happen never look behind and walk forward to the future.
I didn't know why did they always say that. I think it's because I'm orphaned, and they didn't want that to affect my future or to let that situation let me down and that I have a bright future ahead of me.
''Yeah Life must go on'' I said to myself
I felt a hot tears flooded my eyes. I took a deep breath to calm myself then head down to prepare my breakfast. Crying is not an option now. If I wanted to make it I needed to be strong. Yeah that's what I'm gonna do and what should gonna do.
Ding! Ding! Ding!
I ran to open the door and saw Susie smiling awkwardly.
''I'm sorry to disturb you but I just wanted to give you this'' she handed me a furry white puppy
My eyes twinkled at the sight of the small puppy in my hands. It's so cute that I can't help but to smile and play with it's fury body.
''You shouldn't have but Thank you'' I smiled warmly
''No it's fine I got one too. Here, Look'' she excitedly showed me a brown furry puppy and put it beside the puppy she gave me.
''Why did you suddenly gave me a puppy?'' I wonder
''I'm at the pet store I wanted to buy a new pet then I remember you so I also bought you one'' she explained while smiling awkwardly like she did some crime
''Are you angry that I bought you one?'' she added
''No I'm not, I'm actually happy that you remember me Susie''
She sigh in relief and smiled at me. I was taken aback when she hugged me suddenly.
''Oppss Sorry I am just excited''
I laughed at her she looks like a child. ''It's fine''
Susie help me to cook dinner, we had a brunch and watch a movie together until evening. She's easily to talk to so I got comfortable easily with her presence.
I wonder if her parents we're looking for her or not.
That was the day Susie and I got closer. She would sometimes drop by at my house and accompany me, bring her dog or watch a movie together. She's a good person to be with that I forgot that I was alone and now I had a friend who would always be my side. A person that I can always lean on if I have something in my heart that I wanted to let out. A person who would check on me and care for me. I'm happy to have her in my life.
Time flies, it's been months that passed and I had learned to truly moved on that the family that once loved me was gone. The family that I always dreamed was gone.
I didn't cry like I used to do when I was lonely or I was alone because I know that no matter what happen, my life must go on. The past can't be my future, it will just ruin me. I can't change the past but I can make my future better.
Everything happens with a reason I guess, well that's what Susie tell me sometimes.
I know that there will be the time that I'm gonna be happy. I'm gonna have what I have always dreamed of. I'm gonna have what I want in life. I know it and time will tell.
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