Chapter 30
Song: Arctic Monkeys – Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?
It takes a certain type of person to still be sane after they lose their loved one. They have to be strong and they have to love the person enough to let them go and move forward. To be able to stop and smile when they remember than cry and are sombre and try to forget. I was neither. I was selfish. I went against nature.
And in doing so I must face the consequences and I must do it alone. I have to deal with the fact that I have to raise two beautiful children without my husband.
There's this saying... if you love something then let it go, but if you love it how can you?
I was selfish and now Lucien can yet again never witness our baby's first smile, giggle, word, steps. If only I could have him back then I w
