Lucy

Chapter Four - A Double Life

Lucy - The Past

“You ok, angel?” Adam's bearded chin felt good as it nuzzled against my neck. 

Morning sun streamed through the light curtains of our one bedroom cottage. He was running his hands up and down my arms and slowly kissed my neck and cheek. I could feel him getting hard against my thigh as I slowly woke from sleep.

“Mmhmm.” I said sleepily.

It felt so good to be in his arms. He was strong and warm and the feeling of his lips on my neck was seriously turning me on. His hands were rough and strong from the time spent working on motorbikes but as he ran them over my body the gentleness made me shiver. His fingertips trailed down my stomach and he very slowly, tortuously, fluttered them against my c**t.

I pushed my mouth against his and buried my hands in his chin length black hair. The harder I kissed him the softer he kissed back. Adam rolled over onto me and held himself up with his arms. Tanned muscles grazed against my shoulders and I wanted to lick every inch of his skin.

He slowly pulled his mouth away from mine and smiled. His grey eyes sparkled. How did he always look so f*****g happy?

“You were talking in your sleep last night.” He said softly. “If I do remember correctly you asked me to f**k you.”

My heart skipped a beat. I had dreamed of Jeremy. 

“My dear Lucy, you are blushing.” Adam looked down at me. He was so amused. “Never heard my girl use such language.” He brought his lips back down to mine and gently ran his tongue along my upper lip before trailing soft kisses along my neck. “I wonder what you were thinking about” he murmured against my chest. I felt his tongue against my n****e and a soft moan escaped my lips.

“I...uh...I" I stuttered nervously. What was I supposed to say? That I was thinking of his best friend f*****g me over his couch? That I had dreamed of having s*x with his best friend almost every night for the past 3 months?

“Mmm…” Adam whispered against my n****e, leaving soft kisses between each breast as he licked at each n****e. My hand was clenching the bed sheet and the other in his hair. “I'm happy to oblige, of course.”

I felt his fingers against my c**t again as he rubbed slow circles, just the way I liked. One rough finger was slowly probing the entrance and I moved my hips against him to pull him inside. He laughed softly and continued rubbing my c**t. My stomach was burning with need now. The morning sun shone softly against his skin as I watched him lower his head down my body. His back muscles rippled as he scooted lower, dragging the sheet down with him, exposing my naked body to the cool morning air.

“I'll f**k you.” He laughed as he said this and my hands clenched involuntarily. Jeremy's voice echoed through my mind and I shuddered. Not now. He doesn't exist right now. It's just me and Adam now.

I felt his tongue against my c**t and I arched my back towards his mouth. Both of my hands grabbed his thick hair as I guided his tongue over my p***y. But he knew what to do. 7 years together would do that to a relationship.

His tongue was working on my c**t now, alternating between circles and pulsating sucking.

“Yes...Adam…” I was breathless.

Suddenly he stopped and my p***y ached for his touch. He smiled up at me. He dived back on top of me and kissed me passionately. He reached into the dresser drawer besides us and quickly slid on a condom. He was back on top of me and I eagerly wrapped my legs around his waist as he slowly thrust himself inside of me.

“Lucy,” he moaned into my ear. His beard was rough against my cheek but his movements slow and gentle. Each thrust was deep and deliberate.

He felt slow and smooth inside me. I ground my hips up to meet each thrust as we found a steady rhythm. Our breathing was getting heavier as we moved together. A deep heat was rising inside me and I grabbed hold of his hips, his muscular ass was pumping slowly and I trailed my way hands across his skin.

“Yes... yes,” I moaned against his cheek.

His breath was rising now and his body trembled against mine. He quickened his pace slightly and grabbed hold of my thigh with one strong arm. He pulled me tightly against him, buried his face in my neck and moaned deeply as he came. I felt his d**k twitch inside of me and he groaned as I kissed his shoulder and ran my fingers down his back. He rolled off of me and planted small soft kisses as he scooped me into his arms.

“I love you so much.” He whispered into my hair.

I can't describe the emotion that is in me right now. Guilt? Regret? No. Just love, just compassion for the man holding me right now. When I was with him, that's all that mattered.

“I love you too.” I replied.

“I owe you one,” he laughed softly “you just feel so good this morning. I couldn't hold back.”

The was a loud knock on the door before I could reply. Adam groaned and rolled onto his back. 

“f**k, time for work already?” He pulled the condom off his softening d**k and sighed as he rolled it up. 

I wrapped the sheet around me and snuggled back into bed between the pillows.

“Adaaaaam get up!” There was another bang on the door. “Are you guys f*****g in there?”

“f**k off Jay!” Adam yelled in response to his friend and colleague who was unbelievably obnoxious and amazingly loyal at the same time. 

I liked Jay. He was an asshole, but he was kind. There was no one as loyal as Jay was. He stuck with Adam through it all. Even when I couldn't.

“I’ll take that as a yes then.” There was a group of laughter. So the rest of the guys were there too.

“You're going on a ride this morning?” I asked, slightly surprised he didn't tell me last night.

Adam and his friends were all part of a small motorcycle group and they regularly rode out of town to meet with various businesses to organise classic car rebuilding. It was weird, but they seemed to enjoy it. Boys and their toys and all that.

“Yeah, Clayton has met some guys who have a 68 Chevy they want to fix up for a trade show. Looks like they'll need my specialised services.” He laughed and tied his hair back before slipping on a grey shirt.

“I can't believe you have a boss who takes you and your friends on ride outs and you can pass that off as business.” I smiled. “I hope you appreciate your job.”

Adam smiled at me. Slow and kind. That was what is in his eyes when he looked at me. Kindness. He sat on the edge of the bed and cupped my face. He kissed me on the forehead, the nose and lingered on my lips.

“I appreciate everything in my life.”

How the f**k did I get so lucky? It was a miracle this man was still in my life.

He pulled on his leather jacket. “Oh, also, I'm meeting with Gary tonight for an hour. I'll be home at 7, ok?”

Gary was his sponsor. Adam had been seeing him twice a week for the past 2 years as he got over his heroin addiction. I felt a small knot in my stomach whenever I heard Gary’s name. It reminded me of a past that I wish I could forget. A past with Adam that had left scars on us. Deep scars. But, I guess it was good that he was still seeing him. Addiction was something that you got over slowly and you got over everyday. Adam tried so hard. 

“That's perfect Adam. I'll be here.”

He grinned his usual kind smile and grabbed his keys. He opened the door then quickly turned to me, still naked in bed.

“Oh, Jeremy is coming by this morning. He asked if he could help you plan Jay’s party on Saturday.”

My heart sank as Jeremy’s name rolled out of Adam's mouth. He was so kind, so trusting. He had no idea.

“So you better get dressed.” He gave me a sexy wink and was gone.

I lay down and closed my eyes. Get dressed he tells me. Get dressed. And that smile. It was like he knew, but he didn't know. He joked about it. He joked about me and Jeremy all the time. His best friend and his best girl he would say. Thank God he didn't pay attention to the flash of guilt in Jeremy's eyes every time we were all together.

I got up to shower in our small tub/shower combo and the warm water cascaded around me. I felt peaceful. Until I heard his voice.

“So pretty when you're wet.” he grinned as he slid back the shower curtain. 

He looked gorgeous today. He had traded his usual suit for dark jeans and a tight fitting blue t-shirt. His brown eyes danced as he stared at my naked body. He reached his hands out and grabbed my boobs through the water. I swatted his hands away.

“Not now!” I grumbled. I looked up into the water and let it wash away my shame.

When I looked back at Jeremy his eyes were angry. 

“Why not? Did he just f**k you? Do you have his c*m dripping out of you right now?”

I cringed. Why the f**k did he always have to be so vulgar?

“No.” I said. “We use condoms.” I knew those last words would sting and I added a small smile for added measure.

I could practically see his heart rate jump. But he stayed calm. That was a bit scary. Jeremy slowly raised his shirt over his head, kicked off his shoes and dropped his pants. His c**k was hard already. 

“Jeremy seriously, what if he comes back!” I cried out.

“He won't.” He said just as he lunged into the shower and pressed me against the wall. It was cold against my back. His teeth were immediately against my neck and his fingers probing the entrance of my p***y. Hot water cascaded over us and I could feel my p***y getting wet all over again.

“Say that again,” he growled as he shoved two fingers inside. A third finger circled around my ass and I shivered. His mouth was around my n****e and he was sucking hard. I couldn't speak.

He chuckled and moved his lips up to mine. He wrapped his fingers around my jaw and opened my mouth wide. Water fell over our face and filled up my mouth. I quickly closed my mouth and spat a fountain of water at him. He looked shocked and laughed loudly. He winked at me before he moved his mouth back to my n*****s and I moaned at the attention he was giving them. His rough mouth sucked hard but he stopped just in time before they bruised. He was good like that.

He quickly spun me around and pressed my boobs against the wall. I could feel him hard against my back and I didn't know if it was my p***y or the water dripping down my thighs. He was dropping to his knees. He and licked and kneaded my ass. He squeezed both cheeks roughly in his hands and softly bit at the flesh.

“Keep still. Enjoy it.” He murmured.

Before I knew what was happening his tongue was against my asshole and he was licking hard and fast. He then shoved his tongue as far into my p***y as he could and slid his hand around my stomach to grab at my c**t. He pinched it between two fingers then slowly rolled it in circles between his fingers.

He alternated between licking my ass, biting at the flesh and tonguing my p***y.

“Oh my God,” I moaned against the bathroom wall. “Ahhhh...fuck”. I pushed back into his hungry mouth and he rewarded me by pumping his tongue in and out of my p***y.

I felt a warm feeling crawl through my lower stomach and I knew I would c*m soon. He was so perfect. He was moving against me as if he wanted to devour me. I heard him moan against my body. The hot water heightened the feeling of touch against my skin and when his tongue snaked over my asshole my knees weakened. How did he know to do that? How did he know my body would react like this?

The rubbing at my c******s became faster as he furiously thrust his tongue at my p***y. I could barely breathe as I felt the familiar sweetness of orgasm rise through my body. Unexpectedly and gently he thrust the tip of a finger into my asshole. The feeling of fullness was completely overwhelming and I screamed into the wall as I came. Contraction and contraction of pleasure radiated through me and he stood up just in time to wrap his arms around me before my legs collapsed. I couldn't get in a deep enough breath through the steam of the shower.

He was chuckling into my ear and breathing with me as I panted for air. 

“I thought you might like that.” He softly bit and kissed at my shoulder. “It's been days since I felt you.” 

He sounded almost sad but I knew he was just horny. I turned around and kissed him as deeply as I could. My hands fumbled for his d**k and he groaned and I pumped it slowly between my hands. 

“Do you want my mouth-”

“Yes” he gasped before letting me finish my sentence. His hands were in my hair and he was pushing me to my knees. 

It was his turn to lean against the wall as I slipped his hard d**k into my mouth. Drops of pre-c*m coated my tongue as I sucked him in and out. He was groaning above me and his legs were quivering with pleasure as he rolled his hands through my hair. I pulled him into the back of my throat and he twitched and moved his hips in time with me moving up and down his d**k. He was really moaning now. His hands in tight fists on top of my head. He was thrusting slowly into my mouth and I bobbed my head faster to pick up the pace. I made a tight mouth around his d**k and sucked hard as I bounced up and down. I glanced up and he was watching me, I locked eyes with him through the soft flow of shower water and he gave one last thrust forward.

“Lu-cy” he shouted out as c*m shot down my throat. I swallowed once while keeping my mouth locked around his d**k. He moaned through each squirt of c*m that filled my mouth. His eyes never left mine as I swallowed slowly. He groaned loudly and withdrew from my mouth. His hands were still locked in my hair as he leaned forward to turn off the shower. He climbed out, leaving me on my knees dripping wet. He grabbed a towel and threw it over my head.

“Get dressed. We're going shopping.”

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Jeremy - The Past

“f**k, f**k. I'm going to c*m. Do you want my c*m baby? Tell me what I want to hear.”

“Yes!” She cried out through the sounds of me pumping her with my c**k. 

“Take it baby, take. It” I cried out and with a deep thrust a let loose inside her. She whimpered underneath me as every squirt of my c*m filled her up. I was still moaning and rocking her over my d**k as I finished emptying completely. I gave her ass a quick slap and held her still against me as she quivered with the aftershocks of my hard f*****g. My c**k was still twitching inside of her. God, she was so perfect.

“Don't move,” I barked out and she kept still, impaled on my d**k. I took a few breaths and withdrew my softening c**k. I smiled as I watched my c*m drip from her onto the sheets. Her p***y was bright red and puffy, it looked like she was still trying to hold me inside of her.

She slowly slid down onto her stomach and I lay next to her. Her breathing was soft and the warm smell of s*x coated the air. She was running her fingers over my chest.

“Why do you like to c*m inside me?” Her voice was soft and sweet.

I stared at the ceiling. “I don't know.”

“You always say I don't know. Answer me.”

I looked at her, her big eyes searching my face for answers.

“It feels good. It's like you're taking all of me. I want to give your body every part of me. I like...seeing it.”

“You're kinky that way.” She sounded amused.

Her questions burned into me. She had a way of getting into my head. I couldn't block her out. 

“What if you get me pregnant?” Lucy asked softly.

My heart skipped a beat. “You can't, you're on birth control. It's fine.”

“What if it fails?” She was pushing my buttons now. Her voice was soft and sweet but this was her way of challenging me. This is how she gained the upper hand. She asked me questions that made me think. I didn't like to think this much.

I'd never thought of her getting pregnant. What would she do? She wouldn't have my baby. I knew her. That would mean she would have to tell Adam about us.

“If it fails then you abort. Simple.”

She frowned. “I'd never abort your baby.”

I turned onto my side to look straight into her face. She was looking into my soul now. This conversation was f****d up.

“Is this your own manipulative way of telling me you want me to pull out?”

She bit her lip. The usual fire in her eyes.

“I'm trying to tell you that I trust you.” She said.

I turned onto my back. I couldn't look into her pretty face any more.

“Why do you and Adam use condoms? I want you to of course, but, I just figured, I mean, you're together and-”

“He always wants to. We haven't really spoken about it.”

She moved to rest her head against my shoulder. “Why do you fight me,” she whispered.

How could she even say that? I was risking everything. She was risking everything. We had so much to lose.

“You fight me.” I retorted. 

“You never talk to me. I don't know what's going on in your head.” She sighed against my arm. “That first time that we…”

My heart skipped a beat. She wanted to say r**e. I'm sure she felt my body stiffen but she kissed my shoulder instead.

“...you told me you loved me. What does that mean?”

Why the f**k would she even ask that? Did she not see everything I had done for her? I was there for her each and every time something went wrong. The countless times she cried in my arms. Every breath I took I thought about her. She had to see it. I know she saw it. She was just trying to f**k with me right now. I felt angry.

“If you have to ask then you won't understand.”

She looked hurt as I sat up. But she didn't respond. Her perfect t**s bounced as she turned onto her side.

“You make no sense,” she grumbled under her breath as she closed her eyes. She was falling asleep.

There was no talking with her when she was trying to sleep. Bombs would fall near her and she wouldn't even know. I went for a shower and the appreciated the warm water massaging my shoulders and neck. After f*****g Lucy I always thought about Adam. Was there any part of him that suspected that something was going on between his friend and fiance? Fiance. The word felt like a knife in my side. She had said yes to his proposal, obviously. She still showed up on my door and opened her legs every chance we could get. But I knew the end would come soon. My guilt was strong and consistent. Hers was fleeting. She seemed to forget his name with every orgasm I gave her. But I know it won't last. One day the guilt will hit her stronger than it hits me. She'll stop this... affair... between us and I'll lose her for good.

Why him? Why did she have to love him? If it was anyone else I could change her mind. But no, Adam had been in the centre of her soul since she was 18 years old. Through their turbulent relationship Adam never stopped holding onto her - never stopped obsessing, never stopped drawing her into whatever be f****d up crises he was going through. She was there time and time again. She would not give up. The stronger he held onto her the stronger she held on to him. And he won't give up his grip on her. He knows his back scene antics would break her heart. So he lies, hell, I lie to her too. Maybe she could handle the truth of what it is that I do. But she could never handle his truth. An ex junkie smuggling drugs throughout the country... destroying lives like he almost destroyed his own. Well, at least Adam was no longer sampling the merchandise.

I shut off the water and dried off. I walked naked to my fridge and pulled out a beer. I went back to check on Lucy and she was sleeping soundly. Her large lips in a pout, her t**s hanging out of the sheet and the curve of her hip just begging me to grab hold and slam into her again.

Fuck, pregnant? How could be she even bring up those words. But that's just her. She always asks the most extreme questions, in order to make me second guess myself. I had to stay one step ahead of this girl and it took effort all the f*****g time. If she could just listen to me, things would be okay.

My phone rang and I quickly grabbed it off the kitchen counter to answer. It was Adam.

“Hey dude. How's it going?” He said breathlessly. Something was wrong. “s**t is f*****g going down out here in Brayton, we delivered the goods but they won't f*****g pay. Insisting it's low quality, what the f**k right?”

I heard yelling in the background. I wonder who was getting the s**t kicked out of them. It certainly wasn't Adam and his crew.

“But anyway, we're going to be here a while.” I heard another scream, followed by laughter.

“Okay” I responded.

“Could you please go past my place and see how Lucy is and take her shopping or to a movie or something. Distract her a bit. I sent her a message saying we broke down on the way back, but she hasn't responded yet. Could you just check if she's ok?”

I walked over to the bedroom and watched my friend's fiance sleeping peacefully on my bed.

“Yeah sure no problem bro, I'll handle it.”

“Thanks man.” There was another scream in the background. “Ah s**t, Jay is gonna kill the dude. Jay calm down! f**k, I gotta go. Bye.”

And he hung up. I placed my phone softly onto my dresser. The same dresser that I first f****d Lucy on and walked over to her. I brushed her hair out of her face and kissed her as softly as I could. My d**k was starting to come back to life and I wanted to make her c*m. I had guilt inside me from Adam's completely unknowing call. But I could just try f**k the guilt away.

Lucy stirred slightly but didn't open her eyes. I kissed her harder and she softly pushed her tongue against my lips. I climbed on top of her and began kissing her neck as my hand explored her body. I ran my finger tips of her n*****s and softly tweaked each one. My fingers danced their way to her c******s and I rubbed in small circles of the soft flesh. I slipped an index finger gently between her lips. She was still slick from my c*m.

She mumbled something and rolled her head to the side to give me access to her neck. I could feel the heat beginning to radiate off her body. I slipped a hard n****e into my mouth and ran my teeth over it. She moaned harder as I sucked and rolled it between my lips. Her t**s were beautiful.

I kissed my way back up onto her mouth and she eagerly let me slip my tongue inside her mouth as she massaged her lips against him. Her body arched slightly. She wanted me again.

“Baby,” I cooed softly into her ear, “baby I want you again.”

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