REDO

Second chance

Lara

I’ve been crying for hours and hours wishing the night would end soon this has been regular to me lately,i cant get any sleep i feel so exhausted about everything i dont feel like doing anything lately i just want everything to stop happening for a while i want to be able to process everything but i just can’t,life would never stop for you people will keep living and being happy no matter how sad you are or depressed you are no one really give a s**t at all that’s how the world works our world its always survival for the fittest i’ve always known that since a young age that’s why i did everything to survive and i always did i’ve always been the flawless person or tried to be that’s how my mom raised me being the perfect little girl always so understanding,so sweet always caring,being there for people at their lowest,good grades,the prettiest and giving alot to people i care about that is what made me and i’ve always been okay with everything and now everything is not the same everything is falling apart and i just need one just one little miracle to happen in my life.

I was woken up by the phone ringing the next morning “damn”i cursed weakly as i pulled myself slowly from my bed heading directly to my bathroom to take a quick shower i was already late for my session yeah i’m a student persuing economics and business i know i don’t even like what im studying i just did it for my family I’m not even good with numbers i’ve always known that since high school i just did all i could to pass my papers and i did i’ve always loved writing being a writer is always my dreams since little when i got lost into novels reading them it felt like i was made to be there it felt perfect

I took my denim mini skirt and cropped top sweater since it was freezing outside added up with cotton socks and my loafers i took my bag and headed out of my apartment for class i didn’t live in campus since i love having my personal space and peace obviously so i decided to have my own apartment as soon as i started university.

NYU my university and i was late for my session damn i entered the lecture and walked past few people heading directly to my best friend chloe who was giving me a puzzled look, finally i took the seat beside her “girl you are late again”she whispered yelling at me “my bad”i replied in my breath and the silence took over the lecture as the professor kept explaining damn i wish this lecture would get done with after some tedious hours the session was done

“Lara”is everything okay chloe kept asking me and i simply nodded my head i needed some time alone and i didn’t wanna worry chloe so i simply said my byes and left.I didn’t feel like going back to my apartment so i headed to my favorite restaurant for lunch took a seat near the window with no time waitresses come and took my order i simply ordered a lemony tuna pasta and margarita i was waiting for the food patiently while my stomach kept growling as soon as the food arrived i started eating after a short while was done with my lunch and i paid off and i was leaving the restaurant after talking couple blocks i heard someone tapping my shoulder “hey ,you dropped this”i turned around to see what i dropped and it was my purse “thanks”i said to the guy who brought me the purse yeah he was so f*****g handsome with those deep blue eyes staring at me made me feel so good he was so tall with wide chest and he looked good like literally nice f**k he also smelled nice “thanks”i said again repeatedly f**k what i’m i doing “its cool,see you around i guess” he told me and walked away damn that was so f*****g humiliating i thought as i quickly walked away also .