Awake Again

Chapter One(Yi)

I gasped awake and sat up quickly. I looked around so quickly which made my head spin. The room looked awfully familiar but it was not my marital home. I got up quickly and rushed yo my window. I looked out of it and froze at the sight. It looked like my former neighbourhood. I opened the window to let the morning breeze in. I sighed. Was this a dream? I rushed to my drawer were my old high school diary and drawing book was kept. I took it out and flipped through it. I frowned at the art work I drew of Xaoran. Looking at his face made me wanna puke. I felt a swum of fear rush into my lungs. I sighed and flung my drawing away. I was really in the past? How? I rushed off to shower and take care of myself. I t was a public bathroom my family used so I had to bath fast. Once done, I rushed back to dress up for... school?

It was indeed a wierd morning but I had to handle it like a 25 years old that I am. I dressed my hair up and put some in it. I smiled at my your beauty. I picked up my school bag and went ouy of my room.

"Jiejie!" Yuxuan greeted with a grin as I approached our dinning table. The table was filled with our delicacies.

"Didi!" I greetef with a shock. I felt like I,was about yo cry but I held it in. If I returned to the past like the movies, I shouldn't tell them Yuxuan died in the future three years from now. My didi was just twelve years and so cute. I turned to my parents. "Ma, ba!" I greeted and sat next to my didi, opposite my mama, and didi was opposite baba.

"How was your night, huazi." Baba asked with a nice smile. My baba, at this point, was still a bank manager so he was sort of nice. He doesn't love to spend money unnecessarily so he's saving all his money for my college tuition.

"It was nice, baba." I picked up a chopstick and picked out of the sweet and sour pork, and ate it.

"Today is PE day, are yoi prepared?" Mama asked. Mama, at this point, was a typical housewife. She lobes to cook and clean. She's very pretty and loves my baba so much.

I gasped. That's true. PE day! I was part of the racr team so I was going to perform and everyone including Xaoram would watch me. Just the thought of it made me want to puke. "I'm prepared."

I took a spoon full of rice and ate it all with anger and dispise. I sighed and put another sweet and sour pork in my mouth.

I got out of the bus and entered the school compound. I went down the path scrolling through the pictures on my phone. Most of them where of Xaoran which made me disguted. As quickly as ever, I deleted all the photos. I sighed as every photo of Xaoran was gone from my phone.

"Xin yan!" A familiar voice called.

I turned around and smiled as I saw Hua Fen rushed up to me grinning. "Hua Fen!"

"Xin yan, you came really early. I saw Xaoran in the PE room. Wa! He loolrf so hot when shirtless, as always." Hua Fen exclaimed.

Xaoran again? I felt this fear and disgust mix up in me. He's just a murderer! "That's nice." I turned to continue moving but she grabbed my hand.

"Come on! Please! I,wanna see Xaoran! Don't you wanna see him too?" Hua Fen asked, but before I could object, she dragged me with her.

She dragged me into the swimming pool room, and dragged me to the front seats. Sje forced me to sit and sat next to me. I frowned as I watched Xaoran swim likr a fish in the swimming pool. He went about three to four laps before getting out. He scattered his wet black hair whivh fell on his face handsomely-ish. I,felt disgusted.

"Wa! Xaoran!" Hua Fen exclaimed making a scene, and blushing furiously.

I rolled my eyes at that. I noticed Xaoran turn to us and smirk at the silliness of Hua Fen. I looked around the pool and saw othrr swimmers laughing and commenting on the silliness of Hua Fen.

"Do you want a picture with me?" Xaoran asked which made her sream and rush off to the grounf floor. Instead of going alone, she pulled me along.

"Here." Hua Fen gave me her phone and posed next to Xaoran. I rolled my eyes and snapped them. Once done, I gave her back her phone. "Xiexie!" She thanked Xaoran who smirked and pecked her cheek making her melt.

I scoffed at the disgusting sighed and walked out of the swimming room. I strolled through the school paths frowning. I can't believe such murderer and drug lord was able to win my heart so easily. I feel disgusting for falling for him. Such nightmare. Brrr. Ihurried to the race team to practce before the PE competition.

"Xin yan, you're here!" My team leader called coming to me.

"Yeah, I came to practise." I said smiling.

"Good! Go and change." He said and I nodded.

The competition started by twelve noon on the dot. It started wuth swimming which Xaoran eon, obviously. He swam about five laps. The next game was basket ball, then mine was the last. Xaoran sat at the front swar with hid eyes fixed on me. I gulped. I was really nervous to fail. I remember this competition. I flopped so badly and everyone mocked me including Xaoran. I was kicking out of my team because I flopped badly. It was a relay race and because of me, my team lost. I took in a deep breath and closed my eyes. I was the one at the last stop so the final was up to me. I opened my eyes and exhaled. I looked at Xaoran and his eyes were fixed on me. I remember he liked me a lot by this time as well, but now it disgust me. I looked away and focused on the game.

The referee blew the whistle and the race began. Min de ran with all his might towards Hua Fen. He wasn't a very fast racer but he wss enough to begin th race. The opponent passed him and went to give his partner. Min de tried his best snd finally gave it to Hua Fen the baton. Once Hua Fen got it, she ran to me as quickly as possible. Her legs,were long and fast so she got to me in no time. I got the baton and began my journey to the finish line. I was a fast racer so moved quiye quickly. The finishinh opponent and I were on the same pace. I tried running faster, but so did my opponent. The finish line was fast approaching and I couldn't still out-run this opponent. Would it end ip being a draw? Soon we both went over the line together which made the crowd go wild. Iwas panting real hard that I landed on the floor out of exhaustion. My team rushed to me happily.

"This is the first in many years that there was a draw in any game. It is even more exciting that there was someone to draw with Chen Qian! I am marvelled myself!" the Commentator exclaimed.

Chen Qian? I looked up at my opponent who was still standing close to me and froze. Chen Qian? The real Chen Qian? Xaoran's biao? What was Qian doing here? The first and last time I ever saw him was at our wedding day. So Qian attended the same school as I and Xaoran did? I got up quickly still staring at him. Qian was a very heart throbbing guy, to be honest. He wore small earings on his ears and the way he styled his hair was breath taking. I,was forced to look away. The time I saw Qian, my heart fluttered like it did now, but I was getting married already. I gulped.

"Congratulations. I'm proud to draw with someone." Qian gave a small,smile which made me speechless. He stretched hus hand for a shake. I smiled a little and shook his hand.

"Thanks. It's a relief I didn't lose." I said which made him chuckle and wink at me. I rose my brows at that. He retreated his hands and walked away.

Xaoran rushed up to him and threw his hands around Qian. I scoffed at that. That murderer and drug lord.

Once our last and only class for the day was over I made my way out of our class building. Hua Fen said she was,going to congratulate Xaoran and I let her run off alone. Xaoran and I let her run off alone. I strolled through our flower garden which was sometimes called 'Ai Garden' which means Love Garden.Some others called it Study Garden, but I prefer to call it Peace Garden. No matter what, this gardrn would always be quiet and peaceful. I found an empty bench and rushed to sit on it. I opened my bag and took out a lunchbox of sour pork. It was indeed my favourite. I love it so much now because Xaoran hates it. I took oiy my chopsticks and began to eat.

"Can I join?" A voice asked.

I looked ip and saw Qian. I smiled and nodded. He sat next to me and took out his phone. I quietly ate my food, enjoying his presence.

"Is it your favourite?" Qian asked and I turned to him.

I smiled and nodded.

"Funny enough, my biao ge hates it. He has some kind of phobia of some sort." Qian informed with a chuckled.

Iscoffed at the memory of Xaoran throwing sweet and sour pork on the ground saying he hated it. I returned to eatibg my delicacy with even more joy.

"What's your name?" Qian asked.

I turned to him. "Xin yan. Liu Xin yan."

He smiled and nodded. "You're quite an impressive runner, Xin yan. I'm impressed."

I smiled a little. "Xiexie." I returned to my meal and ate the last two pieces. I closed the lunch box and returned it inti my bag. I took out my energy drink and took a big gulp from it.

"Do you know me?" Qian asked.

I nodded. "You're Xaoran's."

"No. I mean, do you 'know' me?" He asked again.

I paused to think. Do I really know him? Not really. All info of him I got was he was Xaoran's cousin and that was it. What do I really know of him? I doubt I know anything. "Bu."

He smiled at that. "I suspected as much. But it's okay, though. Not so many know who I am except a very good and Xaoran'a cousin. It's okay."

I nodded.

"Let's be friends, then."

I paused to think about it. He was Xaoran's cousin and Xaoran was a criminal. What if he was just like his cousin? I can't re-live my death all over again. If I become his friend I may still find out about the drug and then he'd kill me. He looked like a badboy but acted like a good boy. What if he was like Xaoran?

"No. I can't be your friend. You and Xaoran are family. I despise Xaoran so I can't relate with you." I informed.

"But we're just cousins. Different mama, different baba. You shouldn't see us as the same." Qian complained.

I sighed. He was not Xaoran brother nor Xaoran himself, so he shouldn't suffer for his cousins future crimes. Ipouted and got up then turned to him backing my bag. "Fine, let's be friends."