s**t. s**t. s**t. I was sorry for wrecking Millie’s rare mood. Now she was really strung out. I was going to have to cheer her up so we could continue where we left off. But in my heart of hearts, I knew something had happened. Something that could not be undone.
By the time I got her back to our hotel room she was dead to the world and just lay there like a log, exactly the way she had described her mother. Blue light from the television washed over Millie’s body. I caressed her even though she was dead to my touch. I couldn’t sleep. I watched her breathe and remembered watching my mother and then my godmother breathe when I was a little kid. Always afraid they would stop breathing as soon as I stopped watching. Tonight was no different. I kept an all night vigil, getting up for an occas
