Love Story : Shameless

I Will Let You Go

Jofan was standing in his room, he opened his shirt, feeling quite tired for today, he put down his cell phone, because he was depressed, the screen on the cellphone lit up, showing a photo of a very cute woman sitting with her smile, the only legacy and proof that she ever there is a world, it still remains in his heart. Sania.

Jofan smiled at the photo, saw Sania's smile, his tiredness seemed to diminish, he was still trying to find it after all this time, and 24 years of searching, he never found it, let alone find it, he reportedly never got it, he had given up, maybe he was. no longer exists, let it be, the important thing is that he remains in the memory and in Jofan's heart.

Jofan's reverie was a little disturbed by hearing the sound of the door opening, he then looked back, found Aurora just finished cleaning himself, she had changed into her long nightgown, one strappy, showing her white upper body, even though she is now a head of 4, but her beauty did not fade.

"Oh, I thought you weren't here, sorry," said Aurora, surprised to see Jofan in her room, she immediately took her sleeping kimono, looking very awkward.

"Um, it's okay," said Jofan.

"Want to take a shower? I'll prepare everything," said Aurora.

"I'll do it," said Jofan dryly.

"Very well," said Aurora.

Jofan took some of the equipment from his closet, all had been arranged by Aurora, they didn't know how long they would be there, Angga and Bella suggested that they stay here so it's easy to gather, Jofan was still thinking about it.

Aurora stared at Jofan, still as handsome as the first time they met and still that cold too. Jofan then walked to the bathroom, Aurora looked at him a little embarrassed and awkward.

Aurora stared at the spacious room, the bed was also wide, she looked again at the sofas, is there another place to sleep?

Not long after, Jofan came out, exhaling a fresh masculine scent, his hair looked wet, he only wore his nightgown, Aurora who saw it immediately embarrassed, never saw Jofan's face that was very seductive like this.

"Um, do you want to sleep already?" asked Aurora.

"Yes, I'll sleep on the sofa," said Jofan looking at himself in the mirror, Aurora looked at the sofa there again, not sure the sofa can sleep, too short for Jofan's body.

During the 18 years they were married, they had never slept together even in their room, had two bedrooms, two separate beds for them to sleep on, Jofan kept his privacy there, even Aurora couldn't enter it without Jofan's permission. .

"Um, the sofa is very short, I'm not sure you can sleep there, the bed is big enough, you can sleep there with me," said Aurora, she knows the nature of Jofan, he will not allow Aurora to sleep on the sofa.

"Mmm ..." said Jofan glancing at their bed, it is spacious, can sleep three or four adults.

"Don't worry, we've been married eighteen years, don't you still believe me?" said Aurora glancing at Jofan.

Jofan looked at Aurora, it turned out that they had been married for so long and together and their marriage was what Jofan wanted, only as a status for him and so far this woman had never complained even though her marriage was not actually a marriage, she didn't complain Jofan was more busy with her job than himself, he never complained about taking care of Jared and Jenny even they are now closer to Aurora than Jofan. Even until this moment, Jofan had never touched her one bit.

"It feels really long when you mention it, okay I'll sleep there, our house will be finished soon," said Jofan who was preparing a house for them, this is the reason why he can't stay here forever, he needs privacy.

Jofan immediately went to the side of his bed, he sat down first before laying down, Aurora who saw that was a little happy but also a little nervous, eighteen years old, they had only been in bed once and it was their wedding night, then they slept separately.

"Do you like the lights on or sleep in the dark?" said Aurora, she didn't know that.

"It's up to you, let's pretend I don't exist," Jofan said simply.

"Okay, I'll turn on 1 light," said Aurora again, she really looked nervous, like a nervous newlyweds on the first night sleeping with her husband.

"All right," said Jofan, he didn't even notice Aurora's nervousness, busy setting her alarm to wake up tomorrow morning.

Aurora turned off the lights, left a light at the end so that it wasn't too dark, she saw Jofan began to lay down, pulled the blanket up to her stomach level and she began to close her eyes.

Aurora was really awkward with this, she immediately walked to the side of her bed, the closer she was to the bed, the more her feelings were pounding, a feeling she had never felt for a dozen years.

She sat on her bed, she saw Jofan who was stretched out, her breathing seemed regular, indicating that she was asleep, Aurora continued to look at her husband's face, had been unable to look at him this closely for a long time, too perfect, I don't know whether she was the luckiest woman or the saddest woman having a husband is so perfect but her body can never be touched, let alone her heart, she lay down beside her husband, smelled the lingering masculine scent.

Aurora stared at the beautiful ceiling in the room, her thoughts flew at the beginning of their marriage, at first Aurora thought this would be easy, just being beside her made her happy, but it wasn't, not as easy as thought let alone said, had to repeatedly endure himself, repeatedly having to be disappointed, until finally he is immune to the indifference, dishonesty, and lack of feelings between them.

And tonight, he can only pray, hopefully his immune feelings will not come back, hope for something that may not happen, he has been willing to give up so long not to be disappointed, not again, not to be disappointed again.

Aurora smiled to assure herself, there was nothing she could expect from something like this, for Jofan, she was just a woman who perfected Jofan's identity.

"Can not sleep?" Jofan's voice startled Aurora, she immediately glanced at her husband, still in the same position, her eyes still closed.

"Still not used to it here," said Aurora softly, still staring at Jofan's face.

"Are you getting bored with this marriage?" Jofan asked glancing at Aurora now, making Aurora's heartbeat racing again, her face heated up, Jofan's gaze so close, so soft, so she missed.

Jofan thought, he's bad enough no matter how long he and Aurora have been married, eighteen years, it's been a long time keeping this woman in his wife's status.

"No," said Aurora with the rest of her sanity replied.

"Alright, if you can't bear to tell me, I'll let you go," said Jofan, he turned his back to Aurora, Aurora bit his lips to see Jofan's attitude that showed his defense, it turns out that Aurora can still feel disappointed even after all this time.