JOSHUA
I am restless , I have been sitting here at this stupid bar with annoying Kate and her even more annoying friends , is torture , real physical pain , I have an awful headache and I hurt the inside of my cheek due to the excessive biting , I don’t know how long I will be able to endure this , it is killing me to know that Lucy is just next door with that f*****g waiter , looking the way she looks tonight.
I have been doing some peaking , - well , stalking is more likely - every once in a while I go out with some lame excuse like I need fresh air , or I need to make a phone call , I even went out to smoke a cigarette twice already , and every single time is the same story , I linger by the sidewalk trying to catch a glimpse of what is going on inside , I haven’t been completely succ
