I feel like I’m going crazy.
Every night I have had these overwhelmingly vivid dreams where in them, Azadou comes to my room at night touching me, pleasing me and telling me that I am his. They are erotic as hell, but they are driving me insane. Every morning I wake up exhausted, soaking wet and frustrated beyond belief. I’ve tried m**********n but once again I gave up extremely fast because no matter what I did I just couldn’t finish. My touch doesn’t burn and excite me the way his did and if I’m honest, it’s not fingers I’m craving.
I feel like my mind is reliving the frustration of that day in his house. I fantasise about his fingers inside me or his mouth on my body because at least I know what one of those is like. I’m incapable of picturing what it would be like to actually have hi
