I take my sweet time washing my body and rinsing the soap off my body. Am I stalling so I don’t have to face him? Yes. Am I a coward for doing all that? Yes? But it is better to be a coward than to have him discard me and treat me like s**t. It would absolutely rip me to shreds. After I wash my hair, bathe and brush my teeth I tie the terry robe hanging on the wall around my body because in my haste to wash my body and soothe my sore p***y I didn’t far ahead of grabbing myself a change of clothes. But it is going to be okay because I don’t expect him to still be sitting there when I get back to the room. My going to take a shower was giving him an out so he can just leave and we don’t need to face each other. We could have just slipped out to avoid all the whole confrontation the morning
