Everyone Has Secrets

Meet My Mate

It’s early in my morning and I just made my pot of tea. Lucky for me I finish the project they wanted me to do early but no one needs to know that. I’m working from home and a long I have mad “progress” on the project when my boss or client ask for its ion have to do s**t. They don’t know I really be faking working at work they don’t need to know how fast I put things together after they ask me to do it. I also have Andrew “check” my work. He just be checking different phases I saved. Any way I need to call HR to make sure I have the month off in a few weeks. There a text on my phone

Andrew – Going into work today?

Vicki- working from home until after my vacation

Andrew-can you go to lunch with me to I need you do meet someone

Vicki-what happen?

Andrew-nothing nothing I promise

Vicki- (-_-) I don’t believe you

Andrew- I promise nothing happen. I just would like you do meet someone. Please

Vicki- (+-+) I swear if you put more on my plate.

Andrew- nothing more then what’s on it

Vicki- I don’t like the sound of that (T-T).

Andrew-Please (*8*)

VickI-….. fine. That café you like?

Andrew- yes (^-^)

Andrew, I hope you not trapping me in anything.

“Hi Amanda”

“Hi Victoria how can I help you today”

“I taking 30days off in a few weeks and I just wanted to make sure it was approved”

“Yes, it has been”

“Thank you so much for verifying”

“do you need anything else?”

“nothing at this time. Bye”

“bye”.

A least I get a vacation. I wanted to be done with work actively but here we are. Ok lets go to this lunch thing. You ever feel like you did sumin and now you are trying to act like you didn’t do sumin but you know you didn’t do sumin in the first place. I’m at that point right now. Going to this café. Then I hear my phone ring

“Hey, Vicki. Are you closes?” He says in a worry tone

“Yea I’m close why….I don’t like this worry tone you got going on”

“Nothing I just wanted to know what you want to eat and I’ll order it”

“I hear you trying to cover your tracks and I don’t like it. What are you covering….” I see him. And I see him. Andrew who is this button. This I babyface creature looks like he could put someone in jail being so cute. How can you be that damn cute and still taller then me . Lucky for me he doesn’t look that much taller but I’m 5’3 and I’m sticking to it and his a least 5’6. He has a lovely little cream color clear skin and curly blonde hair. Lovely brown eyes. I have a friend that would love to dress you up. I hope you like drag. Andrew being a dirty blonde. They make a cute couple. I walk into the café look at both of them.

Andrew is the one to break the silence “Hey, Is something the matter?”

“Nope So his the person you wanted me to talk to?”

“Yea” He smiles looking at this button boy. Button boy is smiling back. I could never be that cute even as a child.

“ Ok. Since you’re not introducing me. My name is Victoria and yours is”

“Hi my name is Carl, Andrew’s mate” I feels it would be rude to nope my way out of this situation.

“Ok.. let’s sit and talk about what that mean” Andrew guide me and his partner (cause I don’t know what mate mean when it comes to werewolves) to a table. “what would you like Vicki”

“I have to drive so I can’t drink. Load steak fries, strawberry mike shake and peanut butter cheesecake.”

Andrew looks at me “are you going to even going to finish it”

“what I don’t finish im taking home. I need some type after this conversation”

“Vicki that’s not fair. You don’t know what we are going to talk about.”

I do nothing but stair at Andrew in his face.

Carl shared “I have never been afraid of a human before”

Andrew looks at Carl “Ok you’re right, I’m going to order the food and what you do not finish you can take home”

“Good now while we wait. Ion like being ignorant for long. What’s a mate” I take a sip of the milkshake. If I’m going to die. I’m dying with a milkshake in my mouth. I have question on how the biggest HO in office. Like H…O have a partner. Like where this button came from. I feel the need to protect him from you and I’m yo friend.

Andrew looks at Carl and said “ Well… I guess…. to put it lightly it just means my life partner.”

“Okay… so … Carl (I gesture to him ) Is your (I gesture to him) life partner?”

“yes” He smiles at him. Boy you have hearts for eyes I can see it.

“how?” I asked bluntly

“what?” He looks at my confused

“how? Without sayin some s**t. How? And I’m sorry Carl for not talking to you because you are here to. So.. this how can be answer by both of ya’ll. How?”

Carl starts to answer the question and now I can this candy sweet voice. Like I never thought I would be thinking to tell a friend’s partner they are too good for them. I almost close to saying it.

“Well. We are giving a life partner by our goddess. And we just know when we mean them”

I’m happy the food came and I was able to chew a little bit lost in thought. “your goddess give you a partner?”

“yes” Andrew responds

“why?”

“You really like to have to whole story” Andrew says

“No asking all of the question getting all the answer is always needed” I say with nacho fries in my mouth.

“She hopes to give us the best partner to give use balance us out. She hopes that our partner will help grow in a better person. They are our biggest strength”

“ok” I nod my head. “Why do you needed to talk to me?”

Andrew takes a deep breath. I stop him before he speaks “I know I’m not finishing my fries but I need sugar first”

“you are going to wait to have this conversation until the cheesecake comes” He raising his eye brow.

“You can raise your eyebrow all you want. We waiting for the cake. Carl, wouldn’t you want cake?” I look at him for help trying to look cute. But I don’t look as cute as him but I’m going to try.

“Andy we can wait for cake. It’s won’t take too long.” See I will keep Carl. Andrew you will be replaced.

When the cake comes, I cut a piece and give it to Carl.

“Why does he get a piece?” Andrew asked

“He has earned a piece of my cake. Ok now that I have cake. What do you need from me?” I said looking at my cake.

Andrew looks at Carl and then at me “I was thinking that it would be a good idea for you to carry a child for and raise it with us”

I took a deep breath and put a piece a cake in my mouth. To say I’m hot is an understatement. I can fry an eggs and bacon and flip pancakes I’m so hot. What I want is for everyone in this restaurant out. “Carl can you please excuse yourself from the table for like all of a minute.”

Andrew “Vicky please understand”

“Earl now.” I said and Carl got up and step outside of the restaurant and walked down the street. Andrew just looked at me.

“I’m full now so there is nothing to distracted me. I have been really good about all of this and you throw this at me. I dealing with the whole werewolf thing pretty good. The whole I can’t quit my job thing pretty good. I’m evening dealing with the hoe before me and cutting off every person they slept with to be with this (pointing out the door) button. But I think I’m drawing the line at. “I think it a good idea for you to carry a child” bit. The …. f**k”

“button?” Andrew c****d his head

“Is that all you heard?” I said

“No but (he lowers his head) … why are you referring to my mate at a button” Andrew

“Andrew (I snap my fingers) later right now. Da. Fuck.” I’m about to lose my mind. I hope I wake up from this bullshit of a dream/nightmare. Everyone is crazy. Frist this baby bullshit from the boss/alpha whatever he motherfucker is and now from Andrew. Plus, how he f*****g know in the first place. At this point I’m burning breakfast on my head I’m so hot.

“Vicky that is not like you don’t know the situation your in right now.”

“what does this situation have to do with the question damn near statement a moment ago?” I move my hands in a circle movement around my head.

“Vicky we always had a good working relationship and good friendship.” You better make a point because I’m about to do sumin before I know what I’m doing and we both may regret that. “Vicki, I've noticed that you are single.”

“And”

“And I’m sure the Alpha told you about the surrogate thing”

“And”

“I think it may be for the best if you knew the sperm donor or donors” Why does this man looks so scared of me at this moment.

I take a deep breath and set back and lay my head on the chair and look at the up at the tile ceiling “Don’t you even care about the color differences.” I almost have no more f***s to give in this moment. Key word is almost. I think I can find a f**k somewhere.

“a wolf is a wolf is a wolf. Color doesn’t really matter when there is not many of us left.”

“Many other cultures tend to inbreed at that point” I said in a monotone still looking up

“We can’t afford to have inbreeding issues. At this point many wolves tend to have human mates. I’m lucky that my mate is a wolf”

“ok”

“so how much he can’t have a baby”

“We are both males.”

“ just checking” I laugh.

“really?”

“At this point. Imma gonna ask every dump question in my head just to make sure.” Like this one “I’m assuming you just met your mate? Right?” At this point my sitting up and look at him.

“Yes about a week ago” he said with a smile. It nice to see you really smiling when you think about a person. Not just a predator look like you haven’t ate for a long time.

“Don’t you think it’s a little to early to talk about starting a family?” was there aways a soda on a table?

“We are in our thirties and my mate. I think that all the time we need.”

“really?”

“Yes really. That’s just how It’s done.”

“Andy I don’t trust that phase. I really need to understand what is going on here. Why I’m in the middle of it” Now what Imma gonna do with that information is my business.

“Ok Vicki but can Carl come back in the restaurant is waiting outside look in” I look at the door see the teary eyed button waiting outside. I nod my head for him to come in.

“What is going on with you two?”

“what are you talking about” Andrew said

“ you both spaced out at the time. At this point in time, I should know what that is.”

“we are talking to each other.”

“Andrew how do I get more information on what you guys are trying to put me in the middle of”

Carl raises his hand “umm… there are some books in the pack library about us.. but…” it said in a sheepish tone

“but” I said

“you’re human, and we can’t be sure that you won’t give it to a hunter” OK I think I should hug the button but no.

““ look just found out about wolfs, I’m not trying to any deeper then I have to”

Carl “then how about you read a few books from the pack library?”

I look at Andrew “That’s why he got to have my cake. Some type of answer without putting more pressure on me. Considering I don’t know how much of a choice I have in this matter. I’m not going to say no. Just not now. It’s that ok?”

Andrew smiled “ Yea that’s ok I understand everything is crazy and fast that the moment.”

“your right and I’m at my limit. How about get the books to me and we can talk after my vacation? Like a real conversation whatever this was. (I circle my hands on the table).”

Andrew “sound good to me”

Carl just nobs his head.

“When did it get so empty in here?” I asked.

“A little bit before you asked Carl to leave” Andrew same look around the restaurant.

“oh…ok. Imma go home and go to sleep. I’ve had enough day.”

“Vicky shouldn’t you be “working” from home.”

“Imma check if there any busy work I have do to for the day. I think I finish the touch up you send me yesterday before I left (totally finish it if you need it but “I think” because “I’m shock” from this conversation” ). I think I need to maybe make phone calls to clients. Carl nice to meet you. Andrew give me a heads up if this is going to be a topic for conversation. Both have a nice day I’m going to leave now.

I’m going home and going to sleep. I really had enough day. I don’t have to make any more calls today. I ain’t doing extra paperwork and I’m not telling them I’m done with the projects they gave me. That’s not their business.

Being in this new house on my couch is very lovely. But I feel like I’m trap in very thin wall that can’t for protect me from the outside. It a good think I know this is how I’m feeling or I would be in trouble. Projecting emotional out in the world with no direction would be bad for me. Breathe in 1…2…3…4….Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. Learning how to understand what you're feeling and what you are reacting to is very important. An emotional attack to someone or something right now will not be a good thing. I wish I was normal in that sense. I could just physically strike out at someone or something because of my feelings; however, I’m not so lucky. Breathe in 1…2…3…4… Breathe out 1….2….3….4….5….6. Sometimes I wish the narrative that if you are emotional, you are weak, and people who are non-emotional are very strong. Bruh I wish that was true today Breathe in 1…2…3…4…Breathe out .1….2…3…4….5…6. The true is a little deeper than that. Everyone is emotional. Breathe in 1…2…3…4. Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. I wish it was true that these “non-emotional being” has everything put together. Breathe In 1…2…3…4 Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. the problem is people don't understand what emotions are that they are for and in my case how they are used. Breathe in 1…2…3…4….Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. If I don’t manage how my emotions are expressed in this moment I or most likely someone else Breathe in 1…2…3…4…5. Breath out 1…2…3…4…5…6. Will be in trouble. Right now in this moment I can’t have trouble until I know what I’m dealing with.

-Are you still mad at me

--Breathe in 1…2…3…4…Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. Snake what are you doing?

-You are in distress. I want to help. You are mine I should help.

--Breathe in 1…2…3…4…Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. How can I trust you wont hurt anyone. You damn near hurt my best friend

-I thought she was taking you away from me.

--Breathe in 1…2…3…4…Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. She a women

-sprits see no difference. You are mine spouse and yet you allow someone else to use you, to be around you, to be close to you. I was upset. But you put a wall between us and I couldn’t touch you but they could. If you weren’t in such distress, I couldn’t even touch you now.

--Breathe in 1…2…3…4…Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. I thought I separated from you.

-You should have taken my altar completely down. You just blocked me. But you are still promised to me. Let me help. You are my promised spouse. Let me help.

--Breathe in 1…2…3…4…Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6. You can’t hurt anyone.

-promise. I’ll fix it and make it so that. No one gets hurt. Just don’t let anyone too close to you like them.

--Breathe in 1..2…3…4….Breathe out 1…2…3…4…5…6… I make no promises for that one. I can promise if you keep up your end and not physical harm anyone. Especially my best friend. I won’t try to separated again.

-If that is the best offer you can give me. I gladly accept it ( ).

I feel a burning on the back of my neck. And I open my eyes and see Trina comin thru my front door.

Trina looks at me and runs to my side. “what happen why is there blood on the back of your neck”

I rub the back of my neck and look at my hand “don’t worry Nana it’s just a love bite” I get up off the couch to the kitchen to wet a towel and clean the back of my neck.

“Da snake….bitch you remember what almost happen to me? I thought you divorced?”

“not married yet… we was just separated for the time being. Didn’t do the ritual right”

“Bruh.. you know and I know the snake is dangerous.”

“To you, yes. But to me, no. They were upset because you (touching her neck and revealing her mark) got this before they did. Limited as it is.”

“ok.. ok but what if they go all if I can’t have you no one will.”

“what is the law of energy?” I said

“what does that got to do with…”

“what is the law of energy?” I said again. Starting a pot of tea for me and a cup of coffee her.

“uhhhh… energy can’t be created or destroyed sumin like that right.” Sitting down at the table waiting for their coffee.

“So think of me like an energy source in a container. If you break the container. I being the energy source will just find a new container but you don’t know where, what, when that new container gonna be at. Would you break that container even if someone else has it.”

“I guess not” eating the cookies on the table “but I will f**k up every person who touch that container”

“reason why you was in deep s**t few years back when you asked to my “zombie”. I still can believe you did that s**t”

“I need the energy and you did not ask why” drinking her coffee

“I still don’t ask why. But don’t have me pull you chain if you do too much”

“once is enough thank you. By da way. Why did you reunion with that damn snake anyway.”

[tell the whole story]

“sounds like you're in a very tight spot. How about we run around today?”

“where?”

“well I know a spot when something I own working there. How about we go to the spa?”

“spa day does sound nice. I also have a request of you”

“shoot”

“you know how I was going to split vacation time from two weeks home and two weeks boat?”

“yep”

“change it to 5 weeks boat”

“all boat”

“yup”

“ok want a nice cabin, airplane ride, the whole thing”

“yup”

“ok Vicki I get that done tomorrow and email you an update on your plans. On let go to the spa”